ACCESS DENIED

34756609_l-900x600On the 29th December 2018, my brother went to London to see a show but got denied access to a bar/club in Camden, the only reason I believe he got denied entrance was because of his race which is black.

I refuse to believe that he got denied on anything else, his dress sense was clean, what else could he possibly be refused for?

When he arrived home, you could tell he was more upset than annoyed his expression showed it all, I was just angry over what I was hearing, if I could’ve gone down to Camden on the same day I would’ve but it was midnight and small ole me what was I meant to do? I asked him what ethnicity were the bodyguards that denied him entry before he could reply I asked ” Were they Asian?” he nodded back to me!

Personally, to me, I think some Asians think they’re a peck above black people when really we’re all in the same boat, some Asians call black people ‘ Niggas or Nigg(ers) and vice versa ‘Paki’ Y’all thought I was going to be biased to suit an agenda? Absolutely not, I see and hear things with my own senses I ain’t about to lie for anyone, I’m definitely not about to protect my race either, this world is so fucked up, racism I’ve never understood it and don’t want to, how could you possibly hate someone on their skin colour, something that you can’t even pick, well to be honest you could probably pick with today’s scientists, those scientists are going straight to hell, messing with God’s creation, if I vomit.

Back to my previous point, black and Asians they’re both part of an ethnic MINORITY, no one is better than anyone, I wouldn’t have reacted how I did if it was by a white bodyguard this stuff happens all the time, but either way I would’ve come back and written a blog because this shit can’t run anymore, denying someone entrance over an aspect of their life they can’t control it’s ridiculous, it’s the same as denying someone access over sex, age or sexual preference, I honestly can’t believe the world I’m growing up in.

I’ve been clubbing in central a few times, the drink prices actually make me want to aggressively vomit, I’ve seen segregation of two separate queues it took me like five minutes to figure out actually what was going on, once figured out I knew central London was not a place for black people, separate queues, separate ticket prices between races, between black men and women, bodyguards look you up and down as if you’re a piece of meat and they’ll decide if you look good enough to be let in the club, Central London honestly I don’t have the fucking time, it’s the 21st century, not 19th, if you’re looking for a good time Shoreditch or Hoxton is the place to explore.

The UK urban scene is known as the epitome of multicultural Britain, we have a wide variety of music for example grime, garage, funky house, soca and reggae and so much more… 

The cultural domination is crazy, every weekend city to city we see how much black people influence the scene, from the clothes we wear to the dance moves we do, to the languages we speak yet we aren’t wanted in the clubs, hate to see it I really do because without us profits wouldn’t be made. 

In my opinion, I think clubs love off black people culture but they hate us, they want to play all our songs but not accept the same race in, that created them, all clubs care about now is profit, which is perfectly fine because they have to make a profit to stay afloat but does profit = discrimination? As in why do I witness two separate club prices for black and white people…£10 for white people, £20 for blacks but the hilarious thing about this is that there are black people out there that will happily get discriminated and pay extortionate prices to get in, and then later come to social media crying on their experience, oh but was you not enjoying while you were in there or? 

It’s also very embarrassing when I see black groups go clubbing together but see a few left out as half of them get in and the other half don’t, I find this so unacceptable do you stand for discrimination or do you not? Whewww chile, not my friends or they’ll soon know about themselves and that’s a promise, not a threat.

Do I look DSTRKT? 

It proper baffles me, when I used to go clubbing all I wanted to do was get drunk, have a good time and vibe with my friends, luckily where I live, I have no problems of getting into clubs/bars or pubs but Central London ‘Do I look DSTRKT enough? Do I have to be thick, slim thick or slim to get in? Do I have to be white or mixed raced to get in? Oh if I’m black should I go and join a separate queue? Ohh, black people look scary and intimidating, say swear down that’s what you people think? Does the colour of our skin mean troublesome? But if I’m white “Can I see your ID, and that’ll be £10 please” Oh but if you’re black  *Proceeds to look up and down* “Nah sorry you can’t come in” like what the fuck, sometimes I wonder how club owners sleep, probably from the profits they scrape in from two separate queues.

You can get denied for anything nowadays, from race, weight, ageism even sexism, some people will offer to spend ridiculous amounts in a club per night yet discrimination will override everything.

Where does ‘Do I look DSTRKT’ come from?

DSTRKT made headlines back in 2016 for their questionable door policies, but discrimination in the West End goes way beyond one incident.

On the night of 26th September 2016, a group of four women decided to go out in one of London’s well-known clubs ‘DSTRKT’ they had been invited by one of the promoters and added to the guest list. When the group arrived two of the ladies were told to stand across the road so a manager could see them, according to the manager one was ‘too dark’ and the other ‘too overweight’ Does this story sound familiar yet? This story went viral. 

A few days after another lady of the group posted screenshots of the conversation she had with one of the promoters, the promoter said “Only wanna let mixed raced people in” when interrogated further “I really care about the white crowd, the black crowd is a concern” On the night of September 29th crowds gathered outside DSTRKT claiming they received similar treatment and also supporting the girls denied access.

DSTRKT had two chances to speak up on the incidents but declined each advance, that screams guilty to me, people in the music industry declined? Guilty as fuck, night club ‘pRofFesSiONiLiSTs’ even declined, screams guilty and unprofessionalism to me, but what’s my own.

The word spread with a simple question “Do I look DSTRKT?”

Weirdly enough DSTRKT closed its doors last year due to a brawl with Albanians and a knife attack, whewww is that all it took to shut it down, but discrimination kept it alive and kicking.

Personally to me, clubbing has lost its value, take that how you please.

Imagine up until 1965 it was LEGAL to turn away black people from clubs or pubs simply because of the colour of their skin, just over 54 years ago it was all dandy to deny someone access to a public space over the colour of their skin, people keep saying to me “Racism won’t last forever” call me close-minded but racism will never ever end, not in this life or the next, there is too much hate in this world, too much greed and not enough love.

I believe racism exists due to jealousy, jealous of other cultures that are known to be better than others, jealousy that turns into fear, then fear into knowing someone’s culture is unknowingly better than your own, only way to end racism is to wipe out the entire human race, don’t even start it again just wipe it out and that is that. 

One day someone will press that red button, one day.

I asked a few people “Do you believe racism will ever end?”

Answer No.1

“No”

“100% no”

“As long as people believe their country is there’s, foreign people will never be accepted”

I agree, me? Born and bred in Britain, will I ever feel like Britain is home? Absolutely not, as soon as I have the financial stability I’m out I will go back to one of the mother islands where I’ll be appreciated.

Always those cunts with 4 teeth in their mouth that want to yelp and scream “GET OOT MI CANTRY” Alright Gary relax, let me set up base here first, let me squeeze every penny I can get here, then I’ll be on my way.

Answer No.2 

“Absolutely Not”

When asked why

“There’s several, mainly I think the fact that racism is embedded in people from their children, it’s hard to stop something that is taught to you from such a young age” 

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I also agree believe it or not there are a lot of parents out there that embed racism into their kids, the kids will then think it’s normal to say racial slurs to opposing races, honestly, I find it disgusting and bad parenting. 

I agree everyone has a different mindset, free thinking is real but you must be tapped in the head if you think being discriminative is okay.

Discrimination: The unjust or prejudical treatment of different categories of people, especially on the grounds of race, age or sex.

The definition is straight from Beyonce’s internet so please fight them and not me.

Security guards make me laugh, like sorry guardian of the gate, you shall not be let in without my permission, o I lick the club owners ass, like imagine your job is basically licking ass, whew what an inspiration.

Racism is so casual now, especially on social media it’s so easy to have chest behind a screen but none, in reality, the tears really begin when you start finding where people work, educational facilities and anything else to teach them a lesson, once something is online it is here to stay forever, deleting something won’t save yer hating discrimination ass, a lot of racist people online and in reality need to learn a lesson, online anyone can pull up your details in an instant, personally any time I see a crumb of racism online I’ve switched apps to either Safari or Facebook, Facebook back in the day was that social site everyone jumped on, updating their jobs, education and so on. For me, Facebook died out a long time ago, but a lot of people still use it, putting every detail of their life on there.

I don’t care if you’re in your dream educational facility, I don’t care if you’re in your high-end job earning a sweet dollar if I see a slight bit of racism, or straight racism, I will find you and tear all your aspects apart, over the top? I think the fuck not, a lot of things way heavy on my heart and racism will always be there, being discriminative against someone especially on something they can’t change is utterly disgusting.

How do I know that?

Plain & simple I used to do it, but when I was very young, my whole friend’s list used to do it, adults, people my age, younger, but unlike others, I learnt my lesson, I wasn’t discriminative or racist of any sort but my statuses always used to rock a few souls. I didn’t tone it down I just stopped using it can’t rattle people if you don’t type anything. If you didn’t do any of that then wheww you’re cool then.

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I don’t know how some people find it normal to say the term online, register it through their disobedient brain, but when a fire comes to deal with them they’re crying because their livelihood is at breaking point, boohoo bitch, play with fire get burnt.

And you embarrassing bandwagoners that stick up for racism instead of teaching someone right from wrong, you’re teaching racist behaviour as if it’s okay, more time the person sticking up for them is either the same colour as you or the opposite colour and should have zero say in the initial conversation, but hey freedom of speech right..

The people on this deep dark internet filled with more hate than love has taught me a lot and I love how much I learn from a new topic I decide to write on, in my opinion, I believe racism will never end, this world has too much segregation and not enough connection, think about it, people divide themselves over religion, race, land and so on, people judge so much and judging will never ever stop and until people learn this, there will be no moving forward, some people say social sites are like ‘one big group chat’ one big chat that like to argue constantly, the same old rinsed out topics, you could ask an honest question online and people will tear it apart without any consideration of what you initially meant, even though a few opinions I see online just plain fuckinnn stewpid asking for backlash, if I’m being honest.

I will never get my head around how you can hate on a colour, I will never understand how you can hate on someone over their religious beliefs, how you can hate on someone’s sexual preference, how you can hate on anything that has nothing to do with you, but this world was built on a divide but made with love from our creator.

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You can only learn if you choose to listen and debate properly without patronizing the opposing parties, I realised a long time ago a lot of people on the internet just know how to argue, some people can’t hold simple debate not even question time on BBC1, some people I’ve seen on that show sound like cats scrapping, these people go from A-Z real quick, finished the ‘debate’ before I even reach counting to three. Simple exchange opinions and you peep the replies on social media you have people jumping down your throat, debate on TV its people yelling back and forth, get a grip can you not debate without screaming or shoving four points of your opinion down someone’s throat before they’ve even grasped the question or even radio some of the people that call in, NO MANNERS, if I worked on radio and someone started sorry your *ring ring* will get declined.

I’m being my version of real.

Some of y’all thinking heaven is going to be your destination when it’ll be hell.

This is only a short blog, due to my recent Twitter account being hacked, I was bamboozled, I lost a lot of messages that would’ve helped me write this so much better, I lost a lot of my blogging audience but hopefully, I can find my initial audience and continue to build from there.

If you’re new rider or true rider for my blogs, I’ve written something similar to this but in greater detail, please check it out!

‘Colourism, racism & discrimination’

2019, I continue to move more efficiently

Teeks X 

 

THE CREATOR BEHIND THE CONTENT

No one knows me like myself, and I think it’s the right time to give my readers an insight into my life!

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Some of you have been here since my very first blog post Men are trash?‘    and some of you are just starting this journey with me and Y’all I have TOPICS for 2019 so just make sure you stick around.

Before I get into anything can I repeat for the 1000th time I wasn’t born in London, I was born in Aylesbury, My mother and two brothers are all from west London ACTUALLY the whole of my mums side of the family is from West London, little ole me I’m Aylesbury born I’ve just grown up in between country life and city life and my mothers side is Grenadian.

My father now, bmt I’ve heard so many stories I don’t know what to believe anymore, Born in Guyana, moved to Nottingham to live with his father and then moved to London where he has resided for pretty much all of my life, Northwest repping, but my father is a very talented man in the music industry which has had opportunities to play shows around the Caribbean with his band, and has spent months out of the U.K while working and living his best life, my fathers side is Guyanese, Bajan and Jamaican.

When people ask me where I’m from I just say London because it’s easier than saying Aylesbury when I used to say Aylesbury I had to keep explaining where it was ” 45 minutes out of London, one hour tops if you drive slow, near Bicester Village, Milton Keynes” And after saying all of that I’d just be like “Aylesbury prison” Everyone knows that prison, such a shit reputation who wouldn’t honestly?

Being in between two places all the time I became very familiar with West London and Northwest London very quickly, my mother started letting me go London by myself from the age of 13/14, before anyone thinks (iRrESponSIble MoTHer) first of all NO, no she wasn’t, I have family in London so it was me more time to visit family, I always had my phone on me at all times, nothing ever went wrong, someone would always be at the other end to collect me, I’ve been using TFL I knew my way around, I wasn’t shy if I got lost I’d ask, and then when I got to around 15 I did whatever the fuck I wanted really, visited friends, family, found myself chilling around east London more and more, I used to be everywhere.

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For my own sanity, I will not be revealing everything.

Let’s get into it…

GROWING UP:

For those of you that are my true supporters, I wrote a blog just over a year ago about ‘broken families  and it pretty much describes my life as a young human going through heartbreak at such a young age, everything in that blog is true, my heart still hurts till this day but I’m GROWN now. 

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I had a ‘Stepdad’ introduced into my life so early, did I like it? No, absolutely not, no matter what my dad has done, he’s still my dad and no one else can replace that or even create a similar bond but that’s me, everyone is different I know some kids that call their stepdads ‘dad’ makes me feel a bit queezy but really what is my own, whenever someone asks ‘Do you have a stepdad?’ I kindly reply no and will replace it as ‘That’s my mum’s husband but not my dad’ I don’t know it makes me feel really ill, but some people don’t know any better for my new friends they’d ask and I nip it in the bud real quick, but for my friends that I’ve had for years they know what it is, they can tell the placebo from the real g, I even look like my dad as much as I hate to admit it I do.

I really grew to dislike to hate my dad real quick and if you read the broken families blog, you will be able to tell why very quickly, lies, fake promises I’ve had it all I’m now 20 now (21 soon come♥) We both don’t have a solid relationship as dad and daughter. I learnt roughly around the age of 10 that it wouldn’t happen, I’ve had siblings find me through facebook and tell me we’re related instead of my own father telling me, I found out around seven years old, I had an older sister and younger brother, I’m still shaking till this day.

On my mothers side of the family, I have 2 older brothers, these are the only siblings I’ve claimed from birth till now, ones 28 and the oldest 30, I can’t lie my brothers made my childhood despite the pain with everything else a blast, we had so much fun, being the youngest sibling and a girl it had its perks♦ We literally did everything together, when my oldest brother passed his driving test, we did trips upon trips, my other brother used to take me to house parties when I was like 8, take me to his basketball games, but please we can argue and sometimes me I LOVE a good argument, me and my middle brother used to argue all the time, maybe because we were both left-handed and used to sit right next to each other for dinner or maybe both petty, my oldest would never get involved, just turn off really but when my brothers used to argue, me and my mouth we’d be their front and centre ‘SHUTUP BOTH OF YOU’ I just hated unwaranteed noise and their arguements would be pointless. However my mum, my brothers and the rest of that side of the family no matter how much we argue they’re my anchors for real, me personally I would’ve had millions of breakdowns without them but like real g’s they’ve kept me afloat.

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On my father’s side I have….wait for it…. 5 siblings, FIVE SIBLINGS, I knew about 3 of them, the other two the great creator of Facebook made a social site so it could glue people together, till this day the message I received on that site will shake my bones till death…I knew about 3 siblings but the only reason I claimed my brothers on my mum’s side so much is that they lived with me, I saw them day in day out, they were THERE, the others were there but not there, do you get it? Hopefully, Y’all do. There’s so much to this story but it wouldn’t sit easy for me being all over the internet when this isn’t anyone’s fault apart from my fathers, and my other 5 siblings I have love for them I really do, but it’s the way things came about which just startled me a lot, hopefully, one day we can have a bond. 

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Apart from all that, my growing up was good, Y’all I was a girl youngest in charge I pretty much got everything I wanted, I had the bodyguards that protected me and till this day still do, look out for me, I had my mum who’s clothes was my tissues when I wanted to cry, this isn’t a fact but might as well be I think I cried so much when I was younger I have no tears left to cry in my older age, and it’s sad because sometimes I want to bawl out in tears but all I get is one tear drop…pftt…pathetic. 

EDUCATION:

Let me tell you, I was a good as gold in school, it was when I reached secondary school and college everything and I mean EVERYTHING went downhill, like in junior school I was a boffin like I remember one day I was riding to school and I got out of my street and my tire went FLAT, fam the way I was crying in the middle of the road because I was going to be late for school loooooool, I chucked the bike back in the shed like it wasn’t brand new, how can transport that I relied on to make me late, but secondary school was my prime time, so in my secondary school in each year there were 8 form classes one was called disc and the other shit side was called over, put the words together you’ll get discover, whewww clever. 

I was in S the best form ever so obviously in year 7 it’d be 7s, year 11 it’d be 11s and just to put it out there to any of my past school aquaintances disc was the best side of the year, you ‘over’ lot kiss my teeth, you lot didn’t know about trouble if it was spelt out. Personally, I loved school, I made some good 5-year friendships, and I said what I said some of you were just five-year friendships. My first day of year 7 was just uneasy I was in ‘over’ for two seconds before I transferred to disc I figured I didn’t want to learn French, didn’t want to learn Spanish either but it is what it is, I settled with Spanish, learnt about 6 words in two years was quite proud because I’m pretty sure I saw my Spanish supply teacher more in two years than my actual teacher, the poverty. 

Anyways my first school day was uneasy, those school kids that used to scowl at me like we went to school at the zoo, long story short I got bullied for like four weeks till my brothers found out, these man said they were going to the school, I was really calculating in my mind thinking you can’t actually do that, but the big mouth I had it stayed close my mind was shouting at me like ‘LET THEM DO THE TING’ Honestly I don’t even know how it stopped, but me and those man came friends and that’s when our form turned upside down, because we were all trouble, first day of year 7 I got slapped with anger management classes, did I go though? No, no I did not, it was in my time and not theirs and that can’t run.

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Another thing that just made school uneasy was my form tutor, I had a dislike for teachers but my dislike for him, he was top of my list, you know those teachers that come to you about punctuality, this man could never in his wildest dreams come to me about lateness or anything, school is 5 days a week, how can you be late 5/5 days a week, not once but FIVE, EVERY FUCKINNNN DAY, it was very jarring on those winter mornings when all I wanted to do was put my bag down and go to assembly, do you know how awkward it’d look when other forms will come out of their classrooms going to assembly but my form were the ones still outside, and being in year 9 upwards being late for assembly would actually be a pisstake, would you get a seat in assembly or would you be stood up for twenty minutes while teachers just talk the most crap??? Some days our form tutor wouldn’t even come in, but we got ownage of the keys to our classroom, so pretty much every day we’d invite other forms in, my classroom looked like one tip after, I remember one guy jumped on the table and it snapped in half, we threw stuff up at the ceiling and the ceiling tiles would move, it’d just be bare gappy, like I mean sometimes he was their mostly he wasn’t, we’d just be dashed supply teachers, and then most of the girls in my form would be foaming at the mouths because apparently, our form teacher was ‘good looking’ I was the one who went Specsavers all the time and spent my pension in there yet I couldn’t establish what they were gawping at…

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There were so many fights at school it felt like I went to Waterloo road 

“Meet me at the bus lanes, 3pm don’t be late”

This was one iconic sentence that went around, having your school outside bus lanes was superb, the worst place to have a fight but the best thing to say.

I think in my school everyone got away with so much by the regular shmegular teachers, but the heads of years, head teachers, heads of departments were not there to play, even the supply teachers thought they had a role, nah mate..stay in your lane

  • Teachers selling cigarettes to students
  • Teachers affairs revealed
  • Teachers having relationships with students
  • A teacher had an online sex journal, got discovered by a student
  • Test tubes going up vagina’s 
  • Teachers minding their business while a students face gets rearranged and looks like they need plastic surgery after
  • Teachers paying students to leave them alone

Where was I while this was going on? Oh me, I was doing what the teachers did during fights but me I was the student they…they were the teachers, the ones that have a duty of care over us.

Sigh I got into a lot of trouble over the years, my mother probably went to two of my parent evenings, my first one in year 7 and my last one in year 11, those letters were nowhere to be found, grab it, shred it, get rid of the evidence, but my mum was used to the trouble because my brothers went to the same school and caused more ruckus than me, most I did was push people down the stairs, trip them up and act like it wasn’t me, got people smacked up, just the usual, Facebook got me into the most trouble back in the day, I saw sirens at school because of Facebook, I had an assembly about me because of Facebook and a couple ratty snitches, but me the same mouth on socials is the same in a real life, no cap.

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College was another ball game, I went to a college 1hr out of my area because I told the people in my area that five years was enough with them I don’t want to see them for another 2/3 years, I studied computer studies deep this I only had to go in for 2.5 days a week I went in for either 2 days a week or half a day, nothing more nothing less, I forgot that the tutors had my mum’s number and email address, Long story short they had my email after and number, no longer had my house number, mum’s number or email, sometimes the system wants to get rid of you before you even have a chance. I had my chance(s) but that’s not the point  (Mum if you’re reading this I’m sorry but whatever beatings you have after I’ve finished typing this, I’ll call childline) I didn’t like any of my tutors, I only liked 5 people in my class, but long story short I got a double distinction in my course and got kicked out of college on the last day, make it make sense.

CAREER(S)

Whewwww long story short I’m on my 7th job, I’ve been working since I turned 16 at one point I was working 3 jobs at once, I didn’t have a life, I’m very much money orientated everything I own I’ve bought myself, gadgets, electronics, clothes, shoes all me, I don’t rely on anyone well I try not too, independent living while still living at home, Issa thing.

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When I turned 17 I decided to work in the care industry, back then I was so dumbfounded I thought it was good money, Y’all was I wrong its shit money for an industry that works incredibly hard, I was young I wanted money but most importantly I wanted the experience, five years down the line I’m still in care and I love it, no day is the same, but every day it’s new stress. 

In care work, there are different sectors to work in, I’ve worked in Learning disability, mental health, elderly and supported living, none are the same all different.

I’m still deeping this year September will be five years, I haven’t achieved what I’ve wanted out of this industry yet, but all I’m saying is I’m very close to the goal and when I get there I will honestly cry the happiest of tears. 

It’s an incredibly hard job or even career to some people, the laws you need to know, training, some cases common sense but common sense ain’t that common anymore, you can’t just work in care, you need a heart, an understanding of what you come to work to do every day, patience, I make it look easy because to me it is, been there, done that, but you never stop training or learning, no day is the same sometimes I wish but then I’d get bored.

In the new job I’m in now I work 37.5 hours a week, well that’s my contracted hours the most I’ve worked a week is 60 hours, let me tell you I was very much dead at the end of it, I either do dead on my hours or way over, no in between. 

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I genuinely love making other people’s lives better and that’s why I do what I do, it really is the little things that make my clients happy, going out on their 1:1s, sitting down and talking with them, even the simple things in my job description, I’ve spent two Christmases at my jobs not because I don’t want to spend time with my family but not everyone has family, I know when I go home I’ll see my mum or I can ring a family member, not all my residents can do that, taking a few hours out of my day to make someone else’s holiday celebration special will always sit right with me.

If any of my readers decide they want to go into healthcare, one thing I’ll tell you now is look after your back, you might not understand this advice now but in the long run, you will. Look after your health because most employers do not care about you, they just care about you completing the task and moving onto the next one, I injured my back and was in the accident and emergency also took one week of off work because I was in excruciating pain, that was a few months ago and now again I’m back in the same position, you only get one back.

I’m leaving the care industry hopefully by next year and going into computing, been a true computer wizard since a kid, I’ve got my distinction I ain’t letting it go to waste, and there’s a lot of money to be made.

RELATIONSHIPS:

Y’all

you thought.

Just know I’m very happy over here♥

FRIENDSHIPS:

I would say my friendship groups are all mix-up, I don’t chill with just one group, not one, not two but THOUSANDS.

Not literally thousands but I know a lot of people so I ain’t stuck for choice.

Sometimes I chill with just the mandem, sometimes just the girls or even a mixture, I don’t know I find I make friends really easily, I regret some friendships and five of them ended last year some long term some short term, I ain’t saying they were the problem, it was me too (more them) I’m glad I got rid when I did, because I really tried to help one of them and I’ve never felt so disrespected in my life, but karma hit them so quickly, the other four-man I don’t know, good riddance.

I can’t even say I’m not a nasty person because when I want to be I can be bitter, but when I want to be nice I can be super nice, but you really can’t tek mi fi ediaat…Impossible.

I’ve told people things I regret, I’ve said things, seen things about me as well, must admit that was quite interesting, you know when people talk about you, and you never knew that fact about yourself, it was a madness

Telling me you don’t care but want to do tappity tap on your keyboard about me…cute, nice to know you think about me.

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Ask my friends about me, they’ll tell you I’m a top cunt, top fucker, I’ll tell you I’m coming somewhere then don’t go so unpredictable, but I give top notch advice because I don’t give a single fuck and have 0 filter (That’s what gets me in trouble), but Y’all I can be nice.

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Whoever wants to get to know me cool, make up your own assumption about me, don’t let someone else’s opinion cloud your judgement, because then I’ll call you dumb by association.

SOCIAL MEDIA/REBRANDING:

Well, well…well, the only way you could’ve got here is through one of my social media accounts or if you’re a real g, you would’ve received an email because you’re subscribed.

The only social media platform I use religiously is Twitter, then snapchat, and then Instagram, I only use facebook to see what’s happening around my area or speak to my family and see what’s going on.

I’ve had my Twitter account for 8 years, I haven’t always been called ‘Baddest Teeks’ I had names like ‘simpletylife’ or ‘teeksxi’ I recently changed it to ‘Baddest Teeks’ three years or so ago, if you knew what I tweeted back in the day all those madness all those gifs Y’all know why it was ‘baddest’ at the start ‘Teeks’ just a nickname, my name holds weight I don’t care what anyone says, I was there back in the day.

I have an online mouth and real mouth, but buck me inna real life and touch me I’ll show you what I’ll be using your taxes on. 

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I was thinking of rebranding but then I was thinking who am I doing this for, for me or Y’all, I remembered I don’t give one fuck about anyone on the internet that I don’t know, BLOCK, MUTE & UNFOLLOW BUTTON IS ACTIVE USE IT! 

TEEKS THE BLOGGER & BADDEST TEEKS IS THE SAME PERSON, NO CAP.

OVERVIEW:

This was meant to be really short yet here I am approaching nearly 4000 words, this is only a small insight into my life, but if you read this thinking it’s my whole life, you’re a dickhead for sure.

If I could start my life all over again would I? 100% I would not, I pray every night and I know God has a plan for me, I’m not in a rush to get there, God’s timing is everything and I respect it.

If my life was to start over, I probably wouldn’t be here blogging, I probably wouldn’t have met the people that I did, been in the career I’m in, be alive and breathing because who really knows, I’m forever grateful and thankful I wake up every day.

Probably started my online presence wrong, but I sweaterrrrr gawddd man I don’t care, it gets me where I want to be for now, and who knows it could get me further one day.

I’ve got so many goals that I need to reach before 2019 ends, I’m completing every single one, nothings getting left behind. 

Also, may I add WEED IS MY BEST FRIEND

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Anyways 2019 I’m really living my best fuckinnnnn life, turning 21 (March 10th), flying out to Zante for ten days in June, Getting my 4th tattoo on my back, 9 days before my 21st (Pray for me bmt) Getting my 5th tattoo under my collarbone in April (Pray again x2), going to take lots of small trips around Europe, I’m just overly excited about everything.

2019 we move.

Teeks X

GOODBYE 2018||TWITTER EDITION

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*There are videos/memes in this page I apologise if you don’t see them, but I will post all videos in a thread below this post on Twitter unless you’re using a laptop they’ll 100% show up*

*DISCLAIMER* 

I am not here to draw anyone out, but if worse comes to worst then that’s your personal problem💖

The time has come for the Twitter 2018 breakdown, from what’s happened in January straight through to December and it’s been one hell of a year, personally, I haven’t seen anything like it since 2012/2013 days I was there live in the flesh on Twitter watching shots fly, anyone could get it even the people in your bio that was dead or in prison, ‘SK’s world♥’I was seeing things fly around and you don’t even have to be involved ANYONE can get it, back then you could say anything (no cap) and Twitter HQ would be like ” yeah we’ll let that fly” minus the Twitter Purge, because??? WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT? but now we in 2018 yoooo accounts were getting locked off left, right and centre, it was a tragic few days on the timeline, saw some of my favourite accounts disperse, saw them come back to stay for a few hours and back in twitter jail they went, whewwww chile the ghetto. 

Hope Y’all have popcorn, dabble of wray & nephews, a fat blunt and ready to ride out.

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JANUARY

In January we had an internet sensation pop up on our timeline ‘Nusret Gökçe’ also known as salt bae, who knew to flick your wrist with salt in your hand over a piece of meat could really make you a viral sensation.

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To me, January was a very boring month seeing that same video circulate day in day out, we really do make useless people famous, if someone told me that all I had to do was sprinkle salt over the meat and let the video marinate for a few days and I’ll wake up to 5.6 million views, a better life and Elizabeth doing stupidness in my bank account, I would’ve gone viral years ago (sigh I lied).

SALTBAE WAS 2017, I MUST’VE BEEN HIGH TYPING THIS WHEN I STARTED I APOLOGISE.

But to be honest I only heard about him this year…

 

 

FEBRUARY

On February 9th, Nike released their iconic advert ‘Nothing beats a Londoner’ in my opinion that advert was the best advert to represent London, culture on point, representation has gone clear, credible UK music personalities, sports features, a 3-minute film caught everything.

The campaign supports young unknown sports wannabe’s picked from local sports and clubs and shows us the trails they’re going through to get to where they want to be.

There are a few unknown faces that were shown for example @Boss_Darnz was selected in the advert as Nike noticed his ‘analytics’ around his social media profiles.

Even though his time on screen was limited, he still managed to have his face up in the Nike flagship store on Oxford Street and let me tell you that’s a big achievement, to have your face in the biggest Nike store in the world.

I’m telling y’all now, your Twitter analytics matter, your social presence matters, if you want something bad enough you’ll either get noticed or you’ll go and grab the opportunity yourself.

Celebrity Features: 

Gareth Southgate 

Harry Kane 

Eden Hazard 

Skepta 

Micheal Dapaah 

Rio Ferdinand

Mo Farah

Alex Iwobi

Kurupt FM

Giggs

J-Hus (3 my guy♥)

Jorja Smith

Dave 

AJ Tracey 

+ many more

Can we just deep for a minute that in a 3-minute 9-second advert, there were over 30+ known faces, 14 different locations across London , 258 athletes, a few unknown kids striving for their dream all filmed, edited, music added in such a short space of time, but let’s not forget we got the few odd cry babies that screamed and shouted that the video wasn’t diverse enough, from what I saw a lot of Asians blamed the black community for the lack of diversity as if we were the ones that created the campaign, weird flex but ok. 

“It seems like people are either black or white in London” tweeted by @KalpeshR 

Honestly, who did you want to be added into the advert? Steel Banglez? Jay Sean? 

Whewwwww chile this day you really saw people’s internalised racism jump the fuck out like a clown, once it was out there was really no putting it back, some of you were going back and forth like feral animals, anyways what’s my own.

February 21st (BRIT AWARDS) The only person I rewinded, played and repeated was Stormzy’s performance, fuck the rest of Y’all, STORMZY used his performance for the better, called out Theresa May out over the Grenfell Tower monstrosity, the same pRiMe mInIsTeR promising all these promises on Brexit is the same prime minister that said people in Grenfell will be rehoused before Christmas 2017, when I say Brexit is fucked it’s FUCKED. Stormzy’s exact sentences sent shivers down my spine, the vim in his voice, integrity in his face, yoooo my man said “Yo Theresa May, where’s the money for Grenfell, what? You just thought we forgot about Grenfell’ The support he got from what he said was immense, properly warmed my heart♥

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If you still don’t know about Grenfell, Please click here.

This is where everything gets extra juicy…

MARCH 

Leicester, Leicester…LEICESTER

Well well well, March the best month of the year because it’s my birthday month, but this year it was literally the shittest, thank you poobae wherever you are, THANKS! Shitting on someone’s doorstep is beyond me, but actually pushing your trousers down to show your bum, squat and then shit on someone’s doorstep, that’s just all a bit of a sickness within itself, and it didn’t even look like normal shit, some of you university students eat normally, cooked food all the time, and then we get those slobs that go to the half-price man for pizza every day, the poo actually looked like vomit.

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The year really starts here for the TL, because Y’all really started this off, all I wanna know is, who is POOBAE? Deep it! That is someone’s friend, maybe even someone’s misses, someone’s daughter, niece even and that is what you’re doing in the jungle of Leicester, the city where someone’s friends, friend knows someone that knows YOU! Whewww how embarrassing not that embarrassing cause apparently no one knows the culprit, bet someone who’s reading this does though.

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Poobae literally had zero shame, like in a lit up corridor, like…like? How were you not scared that anyone would’ve walked past? How did you not know that my guy’s house doorstep you shitted on that he wasn’t going to come out all within those 2 minutes? Why didn’t you think in your useless mind that their might be cameras about? Why didn’t you think that this could make you viral without you actually going viral because clearly, no one knows who this girl is, sigh one day the truth will come out. 

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And Leicester again, every time I hear about Leicester (Jungle) it’s never anything good, a video always comes out, a fight is always happening, a lot of the motives get locked off and then I see the same continuous people tweet it’s going to be ‘LoCk3d off.

LISTEN TO YOUR MATES BECAUSE SOME OF YOU DON’T KNOW HOW TO BEHAVE AT EVENTS

Whoever knows the person, when your ready let us US as in everyone, who that was, cause wheww Leicester stinks but 10X more now, that there’s shit down the corridors.

Also just because you live in ‘eXPenSiVE’ accommodation doesn’t mean this can’t happen to you (oooo is that shade) IMO 

For those that have seen the video, shall we have catchup to the feral animal that strolls around campus…

For those that haven’t seen the video here you go: 

 

How can you continue living happily, knowing you pooed on my man’s doorstep, what a terrible life..like some girls are mad, but this just topped everything! Man do you lot not know CCTV exists or? This girl has gone into hiding just like Madeline Mccann and I want them both to come out now, man I’m tired.

Please if you’ve never heard of Madeline Mccann, then bmt idk for you, but divert your energy here, if you’d like to know if not continue to scroll big man.

The fact that #poobae became a hashtag will forever make me laugh, I’m taking this one to the grave with me.

APRIL

The way I wish this month in 2018 never existed, not even this month just this person, of course, the whole TL must’ve seen Biskit whine upon his mother, his mumzy, his Marj, the woman that gave birth to him, sigh I wanted to rinse my eyes out with goose fat and make myself blinder than I am. Fammmm I could NOT believe my eyes, his mum must’ve been topic of WhatsApp group chat for weeks on end, never my yout, please. Omds let’s even watch the video again, please no one bring any more stupidness like this because brudda this isn’t it.

 

Please I’ll never forget the fraud he did, even shit fraud, I know him and Micheal (Fake Jamaican) Modern are related, both nigga’s got caught, absolute tomfoolery.

One got caught in his tracks to Paris, the man was queuing up to get checked in, what an L

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And the other one got caught out on Linkedin, sigh 

Anyways…

April really fucked up the drinks market in the UK, SUGAR TAX ON DRINK? I absolutely knew the UK was fucked as soon as my head came out the womb, but it’s gone way past that, dealing with Brexit, there’s even a playlist for Brexit on Spotify called ‘NOW! That’s what I call Brexit’ that’s just how you know no one in England is serious because even I have the playlist, it’s good to cry too when you don’t know what outcome your country is going to, Y’all cry over men and women, I cry because fredo’s went from 5p to 30p just by me blinking, also crying because Fredo probably stacked up enough 30p’s to use Harrods as a corner shop. 

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My corner shop is Sainsbury’s, soon level up to Waitrose though, God has got me.

I must also remind you that Jamie Oliver and his MP mates implemented sugar tax and Jamie Oliver and his fat self really fass up his self and created ‘jERk rICe’ I’m Caribbean and I’ve never in my life heard of Jerk rice in my entire life, been to the islands plenty of times never seen it on one menu, it’s not my culture he’s appropriating, stick to your bangers and mash, better yet drag your restaurants out of debt, small man like Jamie trying to be a big fish in a small pond, relocate.

MAY

I was shleep in this month.

JUNE

June really was THE month, World Cup and Love island all on for over a month, the switch over was timeless, from both aspects the TL moved with the times, love island brought together black twitter and fiat 500 twitter, probably the only time in the year the two got along, personally me I didn’t watch island heavily this year I watched the first two episodes and I really thought everyone was boring, if it was the 2017 love island lot on the 2018 episode it would’ve made more sense, but sigh instead of Kem and Chris we got josh, jack and dem man deya, they didn’t bring many thrills but you didn’t even need to watch to know what was going on, the tweets made it pretty clear I was tweeting like I was fully watching it, nah please I watched a few of the World Cup matches, I even tweeted about the World Cup like I watch football religiously I stopped watching football when I was like 13, since my team hasn’t won anything what’s the fucking point honestly. 

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2022 we go again. 

June even brought the heatwave, the heatwave that nearly killed us all, the heatwave that made you bitches so damn unappreciative, you lot were really saying ‘cAn’T wAiT tiLl wIntEr’ and look now winter is here you’re reversing it and saying ‘sUmMeR 2019 I’M rEadY’ Carnival 2018 was still lit but it made me want to cry because rain for fuck sake FOR FUCK SAKE I wear glasses uno I couldn’t see for most of the day, central line I almost died, central line is the worst line, next year I’m getting a hotel because I’ve had enough. 

Carnival yeah I got so high on Monday I walked from Nottinghill to Kilburn, WALKED.

I only realised because I noticed some places and I was thinking Nah man I actually didn’t walk that far, Y’ALL I checked my map I was in Kilburn, I was really burning. 

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47 MINUTES? YO 2019 carnival let me just stay sober on all accounts.

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WEST TO NORTHWEST, A WHOLE ME THAT IS AN UBER MERCHANT WALKED THAT FAR

Imagine if I drank alcohol on that day too, I would’ve flown there. 

‘BaLi i$ bA!T’ bmt idk how the TL got to this stage but apparently Bali is a bait location, you’re telling me a 20hr trip is bait, some of you think you’re so well known, you’re not, you probably saw a couple man/girls you follow and now calling it a bait location, you know what locations are bait, London, Birmingham, Leicester these trips are a few hours for some of us, but somewhere across the flipping map is bAiT, weirdos. 

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There are bigger issues to worry about like 14th June 2018, one year on from Grenfell, I’m not even going to talk too much on this situation because it’s way too close to my heart, click here if you don’t know about Grenfell yet, but remember what Theresa May said, that everyone would be rehoused by Christmas in 2017, we’re now at the end of 2018 and that promise still hasn’t been granted, it actually makes me sick, all the people that claimed they lived in Grenfell and didn’t, they frauded the whole system out of so much money, I hope they go to hell. 

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JULY

I don’t know what happened in this month uno, I was shleepin

AUGUST

August = A-level results day, my number one favourite month of the year, because honestly, I love seeing people doing well! 

I played my own trick on the TL as well, and some of you that shouldn’t have believed it did, which made me laugh harder than I already was, for those of you that don’t know I pretended for about two years that I went to DMU Leicester, it wasn’t just something I thought of a lot of people used to tell me they saw me on campus which was never true because I’ve never been Leicester in my life, so I decided to go along with it as well so I did the usual of putting LDN🔀DMU in my bio and told everyone I lived in a certain accommodation, I didn’t even tweet much about Leicester, let me drop what I did on the TL below & don’t forget to zoom in. 

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Anyways besides from that, the A-Level results I was seeing was ridiculous and then of course in true TL style Brompton Manor one of the top 6 academies in the country came and shelled down the TL, these lot are ridiculously talented and so so smart, sometimes I wish I was that academically talented but it is what it is, these lot truly deserve it. 

Hmmm what else happened in August of course carnival I mentioned it in the previous month, the usual Caribbean vs Africans, the usual cuss of soca, the usual ‘wHy cAn’t aFrObEaTS bE pLaYed’ the usual Caribbean people have no culture, yet it’s our street party you want to attend, Issa bit of a sticky one still, the usual bottom barrel men that can’t understand a whine is just a whine, we don’t want anything else, the usual you girls wear barely any clothes to carnival so you’ll get touched anyhow, yuck, the usual ‘cArnivAl iS geTtIng lOcked OfF’ every fucking year you lot come out with the same line, shut up man, anyways the usual…I think you lot get it now. 

August what a month. 

SEPTEMBER

Santoriniiiiiii bludclaaaat every day of September why were we seeing the same white walls, day in day out, white walls and calling Santorini bAiT aswell, honestly can you lot not just travel without saying ‘ I don’t want to go there because bare man have been’ anddd? Stay in miserable England then.

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 The topic of the TL on one certain day of September was just mad ‘Men paying for their girlfriends friends drinks on a night out’ I’m convinced some of your friends are broké, you want your man to buy your friends drinks and then the same you would probably be upset when you find out your man has cheated on you with one of your girls, like does your friends not work??? And you girls that go around clubs table hopping for alcohol are bottom barrel that’s so embarrassing, call me ‘pick me’ all you want, I cannot deal with broke behaviour, if you can’t afford something stay home, that’s what I do, I stay home more time I just don’t want to go, I just found the whole topic sad man, I just couldn’t, leaving your house without money and depending on other people absolutely not, there’s so much money to make and you’re out here damaging other people’s pockets for your benefit, yuck man.

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OCTOBER 

October was the month of just giving people clout for free by doing stupid things, fraudbae, loz and Ferdi all in one month, I low-key cried, everyone, deserves their bag but not this way, the only person that deserved their bag was OSH, my guy kept his energy throughout, loz Jesus you could tell she was getting tired from when she appeared on the radio and all the other daytime tv programmes, her voice, tone, melodies none of it was reciprocated after her Instagram video, like it was a bop like 10 times in a row, Ferdi yeah idk how he got a music video it literally makes 0 sense, but I blame you lot because I definitely didn’t entertain him, and MR fraudbae he milked it, man tried to make us believe he got signed to a record label??? He can’t even sing that was autotuned and self-belief, you lot changed your minds with him so quickly when it all came out you were backing the girl, then the girl got the video taken off of YouTube all of a sudden she was doing too much, LeT tHe mAn liVe ah Y’all really do like your agenda. 

I sharkew on the beat as well

 

MY YE IS DIFFERENT TO YOUR YEE

 

 

I would put a video of Ferdi but that guy doesn’t need anymore clout, I’VE HAD ENOUGH!

Y’all can have a picture though 

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This is the man you gassed up, loooool deekheads.

 

If y’all didn’t hear ‘imjustbait’ got his account locked off, I was screaminnnnnn one guy got his account locked off for copyright, some of you was crying like his bag is yours, some of y’all aka me showed no remorse, man does copyright every day and we’re meant to be okay with that, nah g 

 

NOVEMBER & DECEMBER

Let me be real I  wasn’t really active during these months, no matter what my screen time said, Apple needs to remove that feature because it makes me seem like an addict when that ain’t it.

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Besides that the arguments, I’ve seen from these two months, fuck the rest of the year these LAST TWO MONTHS, oh my God, when I ain’t tweeting I’m watching, I’m watching hard because Ion need to tweet every gaddamn day, and the way you can get involved in crossfire on Twitter, I’ve had my fair share this year, we go again next year!

APPARENTLY, people have been sleeping on floors at parties? 

£30 on food for a month? That’s your own

Y’all bringing the same retired topics to the TL, can girls and guys be just friends? Keep ya dick in ya pants, and keep the flirting at 0 then you can one hunna be friends.

I saw friendships go to shit in a matter of tweets

Y’all have an opinion then put unpopular in front of it, have your opinion and move brudda, the only thing that’s unpopular is you

People bringing their personal issues to the TL then cry when everyone gets involved? Common sense where hoe??

Black Twitter arguing all year ALL YEAR EVERYDAY, then asking each other ‘wHaT ParTY iSlAnd i$ EveRYoNe g0inG T0o’ 

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Screaming support black businesses yet you ask your mates for a discount, where’s the logic? 

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Following people but not liking them or what they tweet?

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I’ve seen a lot of bitterness this year, you want people to be successful but not ‘that’ successful

You flipping weirdo’s keep meeting people at events and want to come to the timeline and be like ‘Twitter do your thing’ why couldn’t you do your thing and secure the number while you were with them? Must we do everything!

Thanking brands when you bought their items with your own money?? Ok

Hating people that do fraud, yet you want half price dominoes, half price Canada goose?

Still wondering what doctor would call you and let you know you’re terminally ill?

Comparing spacnation to Greenleaf and wondering how they haven’t ended up on panorama?

Y’ALL Y’all Y’all, Sunday 23rd December, from midnight straight through till 7am the TL was popping so badly we were trending! Normally on nights like these, I would’ve been asleep but clever me must’ve predicted the future because I was really doing a night shift at work, so my phone was with me 24s! I saw everything from the Instagram lives to snapchat maps to look at Shoreditch back to twitter for the roundups, the tweets from everyone was HE-LARI-OUS, you see how people were saying earlier on in the year ‘yOu mAndEm aIn’T 3vEn fUnny l!kE that’ vice Versa for the girls, EVERYONE was funny, like at one point I was so close to wetting myself but I managed to get to the toilet just in time, Ivorian doll vs Renee, you see me I was on Renee side the whole time, because my girl was on crud, from when I saw my girl tying her shoes on Instagram live at like 2am in the morning, I knew she was ready to ride out, she was in the Uber-like 5 mins later, the whole time I was watching I was like ‘shit den’ she went from wherever she was to Shoreditch, girl offed her wig shouting ‘VANESSA WHERE ARE YEWWW’ I felt the integrity through my screen, my phone was even shaking probably my hands but whatever! I even saw man in the snapchats saying ‘she actually came’ huh? Keep up, it was definitely a dat ting when I saw people driving to Shoreditch just to witness beef, pls if I wasn’t at work I would’ve been onsight tew, Renee actually went out in the winter from what I saw a top on, even offed her wig from then I was like SHIT THIS IS SARIOUSSSSS STUFF, but quick question, where was the culprit once she got to said location???? Obviously now she wasn’t there, so next thing I saw R was in her next Uber to her estate, banging down doors that’s how real opps ride out when I saw she got into the flat LOOOOOOOOL, curtains but was my man there? No, sigh

One thing I don’t get is, Vanessa, put her address on snapchat and wasn’t expecting anyone to go to her, like? Make it make sense, not even your address your parents address, you see those mad antics there could never be me, first of all, I don’t fight, second of all I would’ve cleared out my bank account and gave Renee all my p’s because??? I ain’t trying to look in the mirror every day to see my ears where my mouth is, my mouth where my nose it, listen NO TENK YOU, God made me this way I ain’t trying to go through plastic surgery to correct it all

‘y0u dOn’t KnOw wHeRe I cAme FroM’ now the whole of snap, insta, twitter maybe even the Facebook oldies do too hun, I’d be so pissed spending all that time doing up Uber for you not to be found. 

And you Instagram mongrels we saw you making accounts to join in with us, you ain’t one of us, you’re not one of us, stay on Instagram and laugh 

Video Graphical Evidence my favourite

None of the videos is in order and frankly, I really don’t care.

Renee abeg if you want me to delete this @ me on a friendly ting, cause I’m even shaking typing this.

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This is really the December breakdown, including Ramz who caught a stray bullet I don’t know how, but let my guy secure his bag, one musician that hasn’t bothered anyone and you lot were talking about exposing sex tape if my man is gay, what’s your own? If he’s not that still ain’t our business, you people that create accounts just to draw someone out are dun out ere, it’s a sickness.

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*Small little update, but apparently a few men on the TL like their asses nyamed out and licked like a chicken bone, one little bird told me Omar likes it👀 each to their own to be honest, getting shitfaced in their own time👅*

TWITTER SCANDALS

One certain platform has been dropping me TEA, Y’all it was piping hot!

@UKTLTEA ARE THE FUCKING PLUGS✔

I’m only mentioning the TOP 11

  • POOBAE: Leicester Epidemic 
  • £380
  • Fraud Bae (New Money Records) LOOOOOL
  • Oloni triggered by under 25 Twitter with the Black Twitter edition video
  • Rentbae
  • London to Manny
  • Radar Radio 
  • Nunu vs Esther
  • 72 Hour Twitter argument 
  • Visabae
  • Renee Vs Vanessa

I’m finally at the end of my last blog of 2018, I’m not sure what you lot was expecting a draw out? Nah I’m good luv enjoy! 

*UPDATE*

This was never meant to be a draw out thing, but yooo Y’all wanted a Christmas day throwdown hopefully you’ve got it

2018 has been more negative for me than positive but I’m ready to spin that around and leave it all behind, and hopefully, Y’all can spin your negatives around as well , I’ve seen things about me on Twitter of course I have but more time I really don’t care what you nobodies have to say, I ‘ve seen disgusting comments from my so-called ex-friends and I wish y’all the best with that attitude, people always think they know you, no one knows me other than me and I learn things about me every day, besides you spiteful hoes, I’ve had a lot of mental breakdowns but I haven’t had one for nearly a month I’m kinda weirded out by it but also thankful to the most high up.

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If you follow me, I was going to quit blogging altogether at one stage but it’s one of the only things I’m good at apart from triggering the TL, you see me I’m sticking at it because in January ‘Teekstheblogger’ is three years old, I’m thankful for the hate because it can only make me stronger, the hate I got just because I was writing this was eye-opening got called jobless and all sorts but it was my career that made me late writing this, ok thanks.

I’ve got so many goals to reach next year and I’m reaching them all in Jesus name, after each goal I complete I’ll be poppin borrels, some people like to talk about their goals, me? No thanks, the evil eye is so real and I’ve never seen so much evil eye until this year, but you’ll know when I’ve completed them, just keep an eye out if you’re interested.

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The biggest thanks I have to give is to the people who continue to support me, gives me ideas on what to write, engages with my polls on social media, the constant pushes I get to continue what I do, I’ve reached statistics I never knew a person like me would reach, literally from the bottom of my heart my thanks and love will always be there and I’ll never forget who’s supported me♦

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2019

2019 really smells like money, there’s so much money to be made it’s ridiculous one day I want to be making stupid money but until then I’ll be doing laps for Lizzy until she chases me.

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Personally, I think 2019 will be a huge year for us all on here, believe in your dream and work for it.

Culture Shifting

Barrier-Breaking 

Making the impossible possible

We going harder next year!

2019, we move.

Teeks x

 

Dear Younger You…

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Dear younger you, 

                                The younger you nobody knew, not even a bird or a fly could ever discover your life, always figuring out who you were, where you were, why you were placed here and who you really wanted to be, but not even me the author could figure out that maze of a thought on my own. 

All about self discovering, learning about myself every minute of the day and in 20 years of being on this very earth the beginning of my journey has only just begun so many achievements I’ve made have helped pave the way, opportunities being flung my way, but darling, it wasn’t easy, nothing in life is ever one way, always twists and curves, but that’s okay because I’m about to make it in this life, and you can too, just believe in your craft, your sauce even. 

In and out of sleep, tossing and turning beating myself up over things I shouldn’t really be worried about, always saw people my age ahead of me and couldn’t figure out where I was going wrong, but things quickly puzzled together.

I was lost, felt entwined in the deadly jungle, through darkness I struggled, in light I fought,  but the light I was searching for it didn’t want to be found, and if something doesn’t want to be found why should I continue to search and kill myself over it, I’m not weak I’m infused like tea, the longer I’m in and the little tipple of milk added, light will be found. 

After years of self-doubt, things were starting to become so clear, clear as the water in the Caribbean Sea, I could take a glimpse and see clearly now the rain has gone, I could fight all the obstacles in my way. 

Social media is part of me, a big part of my career, the smart intellectuals out on the internet, it’s so fascinating, the great souls of intelligence, we have young Stephen Hawkings swooping in, we have the university fanatics, the college goers, the GCSEs takers, all bundled in too one, we have sharp, crafty, keen teens, ambitious adults learning and sharing their immense knowledge. 

God made each and every one of us individually took his time crafting, putting the smallest details in place, so articulate what a man to believe in, our creator, our best-friend, through the good times and even the bad, always a prayer a way to make our day, he our creator the greatest on earth. 

The abuse that has taken on generations beyond my belief, has now taken the 21st century by storm, Abuse is now being rectified and glamorised, amended for why? My brothers and sisters are physically and mentally wounded, blasts from the pasts taking over their futures, punctures in their souls, yet this behaviour is glamorized, the 50/50 world we live in, the pleasing but malicious world we found upon ourselves, but who’s to blame? 

XXX so fresh, so raw but when victims talk they’re instantly hushed when the supporters talk they can howl and screech, but when victims speak, why should we dim our experiences for you? R.kelly still free, George Zimmerman still breathing fresh air, a bit of fame and you are blown away, but what about the sufferers? Cuts so deep, we can see the bloodstream, bruises looking like rotten fruit, black eyes were hidden by shaded sky, crying out in pain, it’s such a shame, imagine being beaten black and blue, the authorities we trust, just dismiss us, but when it’s a celebrity, it’s a different story…

Our voices are effortlessly powerful, our expressions potent, our smiles gleeful, I used to get told to smile more in pictures. I strive for greatness, I exhale every breath as my last one, I acknowledge life intently each and every day, but guess what the devil wears Prada.

Clouded thoughts turned into uplifting dreams, the world is yours, pulverise, memorise and spread wisdom. 

Everywhere I’m doing the plug walk, I’m so into making it, from the lows to the ultimate kushy highs, from saying you got me intoxicated, from being mentally fucked, mentally scarred to meant to be up, from saying we don’t want no devils in the house we want the LORD, and the lord is who made me have the highest faiths, and he who made me, is who raised me, this is a God dream, this is everything. 

TEEKS 

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SICKLE CELL AWARENESS

SICKLE CELL AWARENESS RT & LIKE!

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ABOUT ME:

Sickle cell is a disease I haven’t been very aware of or even merely interested about till about two years ago, it sounds very ignorant of me I agree but my mentality a few years ago was “why am I worrying about something that doesn’t affect me in the slightest” I’m really eating my words now because last year my mother literally forced me to go to a doctors appointment,all the consistent nagging was really aggravating me so I booked a blood test as my mother thought I had sickle cell anaemia as I used to nap about 5/6 times a day, excessive amounts I know! First things first I had my blood test and got told I got the sickle cell trait, when my doctor was explaining to  me about it I wasn’t even awake barely to listen so I went home to research, I found out a fair bit of information from online, I really wanted to know about my sleeping and why it was awfully bad one of the side effects was fatigue so it was explained. The sickle cell disease or even trait can come from one parent or both, I did some digging and as far as my mother was concerned it didn’t come from her side, I asked my father it was a straight up NO!

When I gave birth I had O recess negative ‘rare blood’ group and antibody D injection so the blood wouldn’t clot, doctors would’ve said at birth if I had the trait or disease” – My mother

“I believe that the greatest gift you can give your family & the world is a healthy you”

What is sickle cell?

SICKLE CELL: Sickle cell is a disorder of the haemoglobin in the red blood cells.

                     Normal blood cell  (A)         Sickle Cell blood cell (B)

 

The difference between the two is clearly the shape, however, people with SCD have abnormal haemoglobin called haemoglobin S or sickle haemoglobin in their red blood cells.

Haemoglobin: A red protein responsible for carrying oxygen in the blood vertebrates. 
Haemoglobin S: An abnormal type of haemoglobin that can be inherited from your parents, haemoglobin S causes red blood cells to become very stiff and oddly shaped, instead of having normal circular blood cells like exhibit (A) the red blood cells become sickle cell shaped in an exhibit (B)

People with SICKLE CELL CONDITION are born with the condition, it’s not contagious. Sickle cell genes come in pairs, you inherit one set from your father and the other from your mother, a child has to inherit a faulty gene from each parent.

However, a person who receives one sickle cell gene from one parent and a normal gene from the other has a condition called the SICKLE CELL TRAIT.

Sickle cell is a serious inherited condition affecting the blood and a various amount of organs in the body, it affects the red blood cells which cause sickling which produces episodes of pain and other symptoms, in-between episodes of sickling, people with sickle cell disease are normally well, however, long-term complications can occur, finding out if you have sickle cell from early can help with treatment process.

These painful episodes are referred to as the sickle cell crisis, it’s treated with strong painkillers such as morphine.

The main symptoms of the sickle cell disease are anaemia.

Whats sickle cell anaemia? 

Sickle cell anaemia is the name of a specific form of sickle cell disease which is a form of two sickle cell genes.

Blood loss is the most common cause of anaemia, especially iron deficiency. Heavy menstrual periods or bleeding in the digestive or urinary tract can cause a serious amount of blood loss.

Can you die from anaemia?

When you’re anaemic your heart must pump more blood around to compensate for the lack of oxygen in the blood cells, this can lead to an enlarged heart, however, inherited anaemia like sickle cell anaemia can cause life-threatening complications.

Can you cure anaemia?

Anaemia can be cured by a blood transfusion or if you change your diet will allow the body to naturally build red blood cells back up.

Blood Transfusion: A blood transfusion is when you’re given blood from a donor, very safe procedure and can save lives. A blood transfusion can replace the blood you’ve lost or just replace the liquid or cells found in blood.

SYMPTOMS OF SICKLE CELL/ANAEMIA

  •                                                            Fatigue
  •                                                            Pain Crisis
  •                                                            Dactylitis 
  •                                                            Arthritis 
  •                                                            Splenic sequestration 
  •                                                            Bacterial infections 
  •                                                            Liver Congestion 
  •                                                            Lung Injury 
  •                                                            Leg Ulcers 
  •                                                           Eye Damage
  •                                                           Aseptic Necrosis

Meanings:

Fatigue: When tiredness is overwhelming and isn’t relieved by sleep or rest.
Sickle cell crisis: Sickle cell crisis can cause pain as blood vessels can become blocked or the defective blood cells can damage organs in the body.
Dactylitis: Inflammation of your digits (Finger or toe) The word (Dactyl) comes from the Greek word “Daktylos” meaning finger in Greek but can refer to both.
Arthritis: A common condition that causes pain and inflammation in a joint, in the UK around 10 million people have this condition.
Splenic sequestration: A problem with the spleen that can occur a lot in people who have sickle cell, when a lot of red blood cells gets trapped, the spleen can get damaged and not work how it should. 

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Liver congestion:  Represents the increase of blood in a territory, due to dilatation of small vessels.
 Lung Injury: Acute respiratory distress syndrome (ARDS) is a life-threatening condition where the lungs can’t provide the body’s vital organs with enough oxygen.
Leg Ulcers:  leg ulcer is a long-lasting (chronic) sore that takes more than four to six weeks to heal.

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Eye Damage: The most common type of eye complications due to the sickle cell is “Sea fan-shaped frond” of new retinal blood vessel growth.
Aseptic Necrosis: A bone condition that results from poor blood supply to an area of bone, causing localized bone death. This is a serious condition because the dead areas of bone do not function normally, are weakened, and can collapse.
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Hopefully, this diagram can you give a better understanding of how the sickle cell works.

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The only possible cure for sickle cell is bone marrow transplant as known as a stem cell, but this transplant is only possible for the limited amount of affected individuals who have the suitable blood donor.

Bone Marrow Transplant: A bone marrow transplant replaces damaged blood cells with healthy ones.
Stem cell transplants are complicated procedures with significant risks involved.

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Did you know?

Sickle cell is the most hereditary hematologic disorder in the world. It primarily affects Black Africans and Americans, as well as some persons of Mediterranean, East Indian or Latin American heritage. About 8% of the African-American population carries the sickle cell trait.

SCD is inherited from both parents, sickle cell trait is inherited by one parent.

SCD can affect anyone, but mainly people from African & Caribbean backgrounds.

1 in 76 babies born in the UK carries the sickle cell trait.

Approximately 15,000 people in the UK have sickle cell disorder.

Approximately 350 babies with sickle cell disorder are born in the UK every year.

A simple blood test can show whether you have sickle cell disorder or the trait.

Children with SCD are at an increased risk for strokes, the risk is highest between the ages of 2 and 16.

Episodes of pain may occur in sickle cell disorder and are referred to as a sickle crisis.

Twenty-five years ago, a person with sickle cell disease was not expected to live to adulthood, and the average lifespan was 21 years.  Today, the outlook is much more optimistic, and many people are living beyond age 50.

Sickle cell disease is thought to have developed in areas of the world where malaria is present because sickle cell trait provides some protection from malaria.

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Summary:

This blog is short, sweet and hopefully full of enough information, health is important to me and it should be important to you too.

No one has got you like you have yourself, no one will care about your health as much as you either, to find out if you have sickle cell or even the trait is the quickest procedure a five minute blood test can determine whether you have the trait or disease, finding out could benefit you, you could have treatments put in place to help yourself deal with it, or if you have unexplainable sickness this could be part of the problem.

Think about it five years maybe even ten years, you want a family, would you rather find out now? Or later? That you have a trait or disease that you can limit, or find out later with very little options, the only thing keeping us alive is our health, if you can’t sustain that, then death can be a very quick process.

Any illness whether small or big can kill you, not everything has a cure, but you can carry out procedures that can limit it. 

Before I started writing this I hardly knew anything about sickle cell or anaemia, if it wasn’t for my mum constantly pushing to get my blood test done, I would’ve never known anything about this I wouldn’t have written this blog, but I’m really thankful that she pushed me to get out of bed and go to the doctors, I’ve been ill with symptoms that lead back to the sickle trait, and they’ve also been confirmed by my doctor as I don’t want to misdiagnose myself, finding out information on this has been easy but understanding it and literally pushing it through my brain has been hard, when I first found out about sickle cell I literally thought it was an illness for just black and Asians which turned out to be untrue, anyone can get it, but it’s mostly are races that get it, don’t believe everything you hear or see, it can be incorrect (but I’ve done my research nothing here is incorrect) 

I fully believe the cure for every disease known to mankind is out there somewhere, whether it’s being hidden, yet to be discovered or even trapped in someone’s mind, its somewhere.

Push yourself because, no one else is going to do it for you”

I don’t expect everyone reading this to go and get a blood test but even if ten people do, I’m helping ten people help themselves, at the end of the day I’m fine I’ve found out what I have, I can do exercise, buy tablets, see doctors etc… but you can’t if you don’t do a test. 

~June 19th Is Sickle Cell Day~

Furthermore I do have an announcement before I fully wrap this up, I won’t be releasing a blog till October, I really want to lift a few projects off of the ground this year that I have been working on, I also fully need to rebrand my blog properly, life has got on top of me and I haven’t had a chance to start it, so I’m taking a few months off and when I come back I’ll be better. 

I want my blog/name to be known in the next two years, I’m getting there slowly but surely! 

Thank you for taking time out to read, hopefully, you’ve learnt something new today.

Teeks X 

The Creatives Industry

 

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This is an inspired blog from Twitter of course where else, the creatives industry, especially within the black community, is lacking dramatically if you think otherwise you’re clearly deluded, but if you have an opinion then have it all for freedom of speech and all of that, I have seen some companies thrive and do well, they have the followers, content and most importantly the consistency, but some of you in this industry are bitter.

The creatives going to be included:

THE MUSIC INDUSTRY

YOUTUBERS

(ART)ISTS

GRAPHIC DESIGNERS

SOCIAL MEDIA INFLUENCERS

FASHION DESIGNERS

MODELS

I’ve been scrolling through Twitter as I do and, just found tweets that correlated heavily and so many people are woke on this situation but what can be done on something that is literally spiralling out of control at a rapid rate.

The creative sector currently employs 3 million people, the number of jobs in creative arts and design rose by 5 % in 2016 and the growth of the sector is expected to carry on rising.

THE MUSIC INDUSTRY

“The scene is so fake.” @Jamzldnkmt

The music scene has so much potential within the realm of possibilities, however, there are too many people who don’t know what category they belong to at all, it is starting to look like a travesty.

Grime is getting mixed up with drill, singers are hopping into the drill scene, Afrobeats and Bashment are clashing continuously, some people won’t collaborate at all, the females within the scene it’s too small, it’s a shambles.

We have people coming on the scene taking the mick, like the You tuber Vanbanter, some people really have gassed him up for what reason, you’re giving attention to people that don’t need it yet there’s a rapper/singer out there looking for the same attention but their not getting it.

We as a collective need to stop shouting ‘We need to get this person signed’ please we cannot come like that American guy @IamAkademiks he’s made the likes of ‘boonk’ famous, he entertains all these dumb people for retweets and likes, this stupidness cannot come and land itself in the UK.

The way some people overhype their friends in this industry is ludicrous, especially when the song is wham. Some music that gets put out it’s like some of you are deaf, the beats are first class until some of you spit over the beat or even sing and it just ruins the whole aura.

I’ve personally been sent songs to review and I honestly enjoy doing it and giving my opinion and feedback where needed, please if your looking for your song to be reviewed get someone out of your circle to do so, because lies can really take shit music far, also when advice is given don’t get defensive because the music industry is far from a walk in the park, it can be a dream come true or a nightmare about to begin.

” The lack of professionalism shown by UK musicians is genuinely baffling” @Or_cle

“From when some of them can’t take criticism, no way they are going to be professional”  @StevenChap

Personally I think the UK creatives industry is lacking professionalism, you’ll make a comment about someone’s music and the way they’ll come for you like nobody’s business it is insane, the music is for the people, doesn’t matter what audience but your projecting towards us, so if your music is shit we should be able to project our voices without constant issues, I’ve made comments about people’s music and even though I can’t sing/ rap whatever, I can filter between worthy and unworthy music, I’ve seen musicians personally search for people’s @’s on Twitter to look for comments, honestly it’s too sad, either do your thing and accept the good and bad comments and improve or move from the scene and give someone else a chance, there’s enough space for everyone in the scene but it’s how you get noticed.

Ramz- Barking, I admit from the start I didn’t like this song only because to me the lyrics actually made no logical sense to me ” I might link my ting from Barking 7am in the morning” can’t lie that bar spun me into another dimension, who’s linking who at 7am? Not even PM a whole AM, but I started hearing this tune daily, then hourly I added it to one of my YouTube playlists and that was it for me, it’s so catchy like ‘Addison Lee’ or ‘Man’s not hot’ I feel like it’s very similar to Addison Lee well the video scene, but either than that Ramz is taking the UK charts by storm, the highest charting rap in the UK in 3 years, if that’s not an accomplishment then I don’t know what is, the hate I’ve seen Ramz receive though it’s actually horrible fair enough your allowed to have your opinion but you lot are deep, every bit of hate he’s received he’s bounced back he even apologised to someone because they said his song was shit, he continued to say that he can only do better and improve.

Ramz is only 20, from South London honestly you people always want people from ends to blow but you won’t even give this artist a time of day, South London is on the map again, you people hating did the exact same thing with Not3s & Michael Dapaah honestly give it a rest.

Stop dividing our race and support your black brothers & sisters.

Real Recognise Real”

On the week beginning 08/01/18 I decided to collect some information, here are my results:

Personally, I think it’s lacking both, some people are really professional and some people really need a tutorial on how to come correct.

Creativity is lacking a lot, we have people spitting bars about hood life when they live a good quiet life.

Recently there was a dispute on the TL between Dimzy and his self because I’m pretty sure Michael Dapaah didn’t do anything purposely wrong.

For anyone that didn’t quite understand what was going on here is what I got out of it so ‘Man’s not hot’ went viral over 177 million hits on YouTube, Mr Dapaah has flown around the world performing his new hit, now where it got sticky is 67 said that Mr Dapaah should’ve given them more exposure as it was their beat which went with their song ‘Let’s lurk’ which was released a year ago and received 12 million hits, but Twitter being Twitter people clearly knew where the beat originally came from and it was 86, not being funny but I didn’t see 86 complain, I would’ve bought royalties to the beat, but Michael Dapaah really grabbed his opportunity and I’m mad happy for him.

No losses just lessons” ~ @23Unofficial

 

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Within the black community with females I’m not seeing a lot in the industry, I really think it’s harder for black females to break out, always have to look a certain way, certain sound, honestly it’s easier for males.

There are so many black females that deserve exposure, so I’ll list a few of my favourites:

@Aprilmusic ‘Turn away’

@RebeccaWinter_x ‘Dance with me’

@Nallie_SheTrap ‘Which gyal man’

@DeliciaEmusic ‘Your mine’

@Bleuautumn New Single ‘Good girl’ behind the scenes footage

@MissLottieJade – ‘Oh well’

 

21/01/18 I conducted more questions on Twitter, I swear I was meant to ask five questions but honestly I saw people answering them so I was like to myself “Yo this is fun lets just carry it on”forty-nine questions later I rounded it up and told everyone I was tired, I was not tired but honestly I got some spectacular results, I’ll list a few of the questions down below along with responses.

Who’s your favourite artist and why?

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Who’s the hardest drill artist out there?

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K-Trap, Headie One was definitely winning.

Skengdo X AM & Loski, these three were very close behind.

 

Who’s the hardest rapper out there?

Which artists do you think will blow this year? (UK) 

What are the negatives & positives of the music industry?

Is drill a bad influence on the younger generation?

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As I know a few of you won’t have twitter here’s a link to the full question thread ‘Creatives Thread’

Take a look around you, different views on the same topic shared daily.

I listen to Soundcloud a lot, it’s the point when I get bored of Apple Music, and the artists from Soundcloud that I want on Apple Music just aren’t there, so I have to swap! However Soundcloud has the mixes I want to hear or just different rappers or singers, I’ve discovered a lot of people through there and there’s honestly so many people that deserve exposure or a few minutes out of someone’s day to help them blow, so I’ll list a few of mine.

Wisdom – Addicted 

Dok- Stressin me

Bruvahood – Certain man

Teks Sinatra – Letter to my unborn 

Ratlin- More money, more problems 

Dinero- crush it 

Mischief- Uckerz Badderz 

Sketch- Nights in the trap

Tolu mogul- We came a long way 

Dolo brassi- Round here 

Ambush X SP Montiz- Extra 

Tex- Cold love & Cold love (part 2)

Richlove- All for you 

Tisrome- Nigga like me 

100KAY- Class A

Central C- Line

OfficiallySVR- Perspective

Renne- Addicted Ft Lottie Jade

Nics – EPsode 1: Recognise

I’m going to post all my Soundcloud playlists below, please some of them don’t make sense though, I just add music to any list but one day, not this year I’ll rearrange them.

Supposed Grime Playlist

Mix & Mash

Strictly Drill

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++Destination Unkwn++

Album Produced by @LWRNCE1 & @PRVXMITI

Sound Engineered, mixed & mastered by @LWRNCE1

Featuring: @MAGSDBF @KINGKYLA @MULANROUGE

Released 22/01/18

If you know what’s good for you, you’ll stream/ buy this album, available on all platforms

Links will be below:

Apple Music

Amazon

Google Play

Tidal

Spotify

 

One Take

@Only1Tizz

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#PEN2CHALLENGE

@VezzyCrooks

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Looking for a new collaboration?

Have a listen to both & please follow their socials.

YOUTUBERS

YouTubers are literally the second worst in my category, I’ve seen that some of them literally converse with the same people, videos with the same people and when a new person jumps on the scene and asks for simple advice a majority of them are just shut down, everyone wants to ‘win’ so badly but won’t help each other prosper, this behaviour is very foul. Personally, I’ve wanted to join YouTube for time but how the scene is at the moment I might just have to take a seat until people start to come correct, the only people that can change it is us, not just creatives but everyone.

 

We’ve had the likes of Oloni ( Award-winning sex & relationships blogger) try and help pave the way for new YouTubers, on the 17/01/18 @Oloni created a thread prompting new YouTubers to share their links, the tweet itself gained over 2000+ replies and it helped a lot of people gain subscribers.

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Personally, I thought this was an incredible idea, so many people got involved even people I followed who I never knew had YouTube tagged themselves in and shared.

“This really isn’t my market but 2018 black British YouTubers, please start collaborating more with each other, not this cliquey thing, bring each other up and support each other and get your coins, lastly be genuine about it too, don’t try work with someone to get your clout up.” @Ghostbanks ( Sauce Ctrl)

This is so correct to me, Ghost Banks is a creative himself and even sees the industry itself for what it really is, this whole clique nonsense needs to get cancelled, redirected and teleported back to 2017.

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From @Ghostbanks, @ProdbyMk & @shotbykaiz they’ve all come together to create:  “Wave Like Me”

                                                       Here’s a small snippet, Full video on YouTube

 Wave Like Me

Video Vixens you’re up next, you vixens can stay in the YouTube category because some of you are either front and centre of just in the background making some sort of movement, some of you vixens make me laugh, the music videos I’ve watched and seen some of these girls in with no purpose to be there just make me scream.

The one music video I’ve watched for me to gather an opinion is ‘Sun goes down’ by Belly Squad X Section Boyz if you haven’t then please click the link and watch the girls, to me the girls look like they actually don’t want to be there at all, they’re all bopping to different beats, it’s actually a mess, however I have nothing against these girls clearly because I don’t know them, however the song is levels.

 

21/01/18 Regarding my results on video vixens with the ‘Sun goes down’ visuals I found two people who had more of the same opinion as me.

What music video do you think has the most useless video vixens?

 

(ART)ISTS

The art I’ve seen on my timeline over the past few years I’m honestly amazed, I could never draw as a kid let alone in art class at school, my stickmen looked like they were on crack! Being an artist is a real talent, the work, hours, reaching standards, getting noticed looks like a lot of work but must be so rewarding sharing your work with the world.

There are only a five people that consistently catch my eye, so if I was you check them out:

@Pricisionart

@SelluBanya1

@KirzArt

@PedroAB_

@KashARTwork

GRAPHIC DESIGNERS

One word

Talented.

I can’t even draw on paint, I have no patience and to do this I know you have to have a lot of that.

There are only two graphic designers I actually really like or pay attention too and will defiantly be using their services in the coming months.

Joe (@Unfamiliarjoe) Owner of (www.thefilterplug.com)

The one thing filter plug is clearly known for is snapchat filters, you’re probably thinking but you can get filters from snapchat.

If you are thinking that yes you’re correct but I’m sorry if you buy your filters from snapchat you’re very mad.

First of all snapchat filters from snapchat are boring and basic looking, I tested out the service for myself and let me tell you never again, I compared areas and the pricing goes up depending on your geographical area, imagine paying more for a service because you live in London or less because you live in the countryside, sorry but I don’t think so.

The same snapchat that wanted to charge us for certain filters or that one where it would cost 79p for a replay a REPLAY, come say I miss my a snap by accident and I have to pay to see it again, I certainly cannot come and kill myself, your probably thinking but 79p isn’t a lot of money, the way I miss people’s snaps by skipping them when they get sent to me I’d be spending £10 in one sitting.

Why buy Geo – filters from snap chat when you can go to ( The filter plug) get one specially made for any occasion and they’re all unique.

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Want a Snapchat filter? Want a logo? Business Card? The filter plug is your new go-to!

(@Whybleach) Owner of (dbwb.co.uk)

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Design your own package? You now know where to go.

 

SOCIAL MEDIA INFLUENCERS

19/01/18 Today I read a news article regarding Elle Darby a social media influencer, she focuses mostly on fitness, lifestyle, travel & beauty. Elle Darby sent an email to a luxury hotel in Dublin requesting a 5 night free stay in exchange for exposure, the hotel turned around and declined this request, the hotel owner Paul Stenson released the email and rubbed out the influencers name but it wasn’t done properly, you could slyly see her second name, once people recognised who it was Elle received a substantial amount of backlash from the public.

 

Images from ( @d_alesheaMUA)

My personal opinion of all of this, I’m livid and the news article also gave me brain damage for a few hours, this girl is absolutely insane, so Elle Darby thought because she is a social media influencer she could get a free stay in exchange for some poxy exposure, the hotel is luxury and she offered exposure, some of you social media influencers think your the dog’s bollocks, couple thousand followers and requesting free shit, look at the economy and you want to be asking for FREE stuff.

Half of you buy your followers for what reason I will never work out, saying you have a business through your following count but baby please who are you promoting too if half of them are fake/ghost?

The entitlement you ‘social media influencers’ think your worthy of is ridiculous, don’t forget you’re normal people as well, wouldn’t catch me emailing brands asking for collaborations it would have to be the other way round.

Moving on slightly some of you ‘social media influencers’ who ask for people to pay for promotions, fair enough everyone makes’s their money in various ways, but it’s you lot that someone will pay you and then you say you’ll promote and you don’t do it are you sick? And please some of you aren’t slick people can defiantly tell the difference between paid and genuine promotion, paid you lot don’t put in any effort, this singing/rapping venture whatever some people are into, is actually their grind and for it not to be promoted properly while it’s been paid for, I’d really fight someone.

I’ve seen someone with 300k followers promote a song and it got a marga 20 likes & 30 retweets, I was so confused.

I first joined Twitter seven years ago, honestly back in the day I had every social media platform there was, I wanted to be in with the times and didn’t want to be left behind, at the start I did not understand twitter at all, likes, retweets, DM ( I didn’t know what ‘DM’ stood for, I left twitter and came back in 2012 when Twitter was in it’s prime, honestly all my tweets from when I first joined are still around, I tweeted the stupidest shit ever, however I learnt for myself how to work twitter, I gained followers and continued that growth, I really learnt what a simple retweet could do I was so astonished, I’ve made friendships, business contacts all through just socialising, honestly I would’ve never started a blog if my followers weren’t up but all my followers are authentic, and if you deem yourself to be a ‘social media influencer’ yours should be too can’t be selling dreams.

 

FASHION DESIGNERS

 

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Hello…hi, this tweet honestly made me scream with laughter because it’s so true, some of you slap your logo on a cheap product and sell it for triple the price, I’m sorry I’ll happily shop from the white man, people are honestly creating logo’s and slapping them here, there and everywhere they want to call themselves a fashion designer/graphic designer, sorry but it doesn’t work like that at all, it’s actually very cheeky.

I’ve seen people personally work consistently on a craft day in day out, fashion designers are perfectionists, imagine throwing a design away because there’s something just not right but you can’t figure out what.

Perfect your craft and graft effortlessly till you know it’s something you want to see someone styling out.

I’ve only seen a few black clothing lines I’d buy off and they are:

EL Velvet

Grind shine LDN

Gone Club

 

MODELS

“Beautiful” “Hold that pose” “Work the camera” “Ok now I want you to take off your clothes” “Sorry but you’re not tall enough for the runway, maybe commercial” “You’re too big to model, slim down maybe” “This is your career” “Do this shoot, then you can have fun”

Any of these sayings sound familiar to you?

I’ve been to a few shoots myself, some of them were fun, some not so much, the not so fun ones where you had to do outfit changes in minutes, going to and from hair and makeup, back on the set, honestly it’s tiring I’ve had to give it a rest.

The modelling industry, one of the hardest industries to get into, having to look a certain way, specific heights, you have to have the LOOK! I don’t know what the ‘look’ is but I guess agencies know what they are looking for and what the new in thing is!

Personally from looking at the modelling industry a few years ago to now, it’s come a long way, plus size models did not exist, it was a size 4-8 or nothing, I found that a bit absurd I really use to think who could fit into a size 4, well it’s me I used to be able to, let me repeat USED to, not anymore now I’m a mere size 6-8, I used to hate being so small everyday “Your anorexic”  more time it was just a high metabolism that I had/have no control over, but a few years later I’m overly thankful as I can eat whatever I want without worrying about gaining weight.

In addition to the modelling industry it’s improving dramatically I never thought I would see change, but its happening the first plus-sized model was Emme Aronson, Emme is a body positive supermodel that has paved the way for the woman to know that beauty comes in all shapes and sizes.

Nevertheless, beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

I want to dedicate this part of my blog to Harry Uzoka.

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Our black brother is no longer with us and he never deserved what happened to him.

Jehovah Jireh, there is none like you. Everyday we want to praise & worship your glorious name. Today we weep at the death of our friends, family, or loved ones, but blessed father, we can rest assured knowing we can find comfort and peace within you, in the midst of our tears & our grief. Lord, we shout your praises, because you have turned our mourning into dancing.” 

Peace go with you.

God’s quiet within the noise

God’s hope within the uncertainty

God’s rest with the toil

God’s presence within your soul

Peace go with you”

May his soul rest in perfect peace.

 

There is a lot of platforms that are for sure getting the scene seen more, and they’re honestly my favourites pages, which are:

Make sure to follow them up!

At long last I have come to the end of writing out this blog, I’ve really enjoyed writing this, hopefully, I have opened a few eyes on what is really going on in the creatives industry too many people get thrown under the bus and honestly it needs to stop.

People need to learn to come together and support each other I’ve screamed about support in previous blogs and this will be the last one (I’m probably lying, don’t mind me) I’ll be mentioning it in, it’s ridiculous what I’ve been seeing lately, support your brothers and sisters we are all striving for the top and to be successful.

Please continue to support each other there is enough space at the top for everyone, there’s no reason to knock someone’s grind, opinions are allowed but be careful how you go about it.

Real rap needs to come back onto the scene. Real hood storytellers none of this fake shit.

We need to see more versatility, flows, melodies, lyricism, we need deliverance.

We need experimental music, so far we have Afro- trap, Afro beats, we need more, being different is what the scene needs. UK music will and shall always prosper.

We need fresh faces. We need to give fresh talent a chance.

Anyone in the creatives section needs a strong team behind them binding them together.

We can’t do this shit on our own, support is vital.

But it will only prosper if we allow it too, there’s too much negativity in each and every sector, it can only move forward if we accept it.

I actually enjoyed doing the question thread, first off I really needed those responses and I loved seeing everyone come together with their opinions everything was so positive as in there was no arguments started there was minor debates and just agreements, that’s what I like to see.

I’ve tried to feature as many people as I could within this blog, all @’s our included I’m not a person where I’ll drop names out unlike some.

2018, we are out here chasing dreams, aspire to inspire before we expire” ~Teeks

Thank you to everyone who continues to support I really appreciate it.
See you in my next one.
Teeks X

 

You hurt me.

5ef3a7081edfd4b13eea53b1df62318e--drawing-art-drawing-ideasYou hurt me. 

One thing I always get asked/told  ‘why don’t you have a man’ or ‘you don’t seem like the type who would be in a relationship’

He hurt me, physically, mentally, emotionally, he said he loved me, and of course I believed him, he said he wanted me to be apart of his future, I believed him, he was so nice and caring at the beginning and then things started to take a dramatic turn downhill.

I started drinking enjoying my days of being a teenager, he didn’t like it, in fact, he hated it and started to resent me, told me I was an alcoholic, started torturing my mind, spitting vile poison in me, and then the next day a whole ME would apologise for being myself enjoying, he didn’t like me having fun, he just wanted me around him all the time, didn’t want me talking to anyone else, I was simply being me, but my alcohol days got worse and worse, a couple of drinks before bed, partying more, all he saw was red, but I don’t know why.

He hurt me physically, mentally and emotionally.

But I became stronger, I found the courage within myself to leave, I know what he was doing wasn’t right, but what made me stay? I loved him, head over heels, but it wasn’t healthy I needed to get out.

I got out and kept on drinking, it made me feel better, but also worse I was getting ill but I blocked it out.

Another one used and abused me, he wouldn’t get off, I kept on saying “no please get of off me” my words were slurring, my vision was oh so blurry, but it happened, he left the room and I wanted to get away but I couldn’t my body was weak so I stayed, he came back and did it again. I wanted to scream but who would’ve heard me?

He took me for a mug, he said he loved me but loved someone else, it hurt so so much, but I was sort of getting used to the same treatment, being used and abused, my heart used to be so full of love now it’s half empty, full of regret why did I let these vicious people enter my life, but then again true colours never show at the start, always near to the end.

We were talking for a year, everyday phone-calls, everyday FaceTimes, meeting up, opening up to each other telling small details that meant a lot, telling each other things that no one else knew, putting each other as top priorities, but well guess what that one spiralled completely out of control, we had feelings for each other, we were doing so well, but he kept on breaking promises, promises is one thing I don’t FUCK WITH, I hate promises completely, but I gave him an ounce of my trust and where did the trust end up going, out of the fucking window. He claimed me when it suited him best.

I always give my all when I’m with someone, and as time goes by it just starts to be a waste of time, I fall hard and can never seem to shake it off, it’s annoying, irritating why do these traits follow me around like a lost dog? Why me? What have I done that was so wrong? I try my best and always get a fat F planted on my heart, do I love too hard? Do I give in easily to what they want? I’ve never been able to work it out.

Maybe I do chat to a few people here and there but really I don’t think anything amazing to come out of it, I don’t ever paint people with the same brush but I’m highly cautious now on who I involve myself with, but no matter how much I try to protect myself something always comes along and ruins it.

None of them realised the later effects it had on me, I’m reserved, it may not seem like it but I am.

I’m not saying I’m perfect, because I’m certainly not and don’t ever plan to be, I probably did trigger some of these, but who knows I’ll never know, and quite honestly I don’t want to know, it’s in the past and I’m now living in the present.

Does this answer your questions? My truth, some of my life out in the open, the disgusting people that have come and done this, I don’t like opening up to people because I tell someone and laugh about it, not because it’s funny but more of a nervous laugh to hold back the tears, I don’t like tears escaping because once one trickles down my cheek there’s no stopping, I come across fearless my comebacks to everything is strong, a cry every now and again is good but I simply just don’t like crying, I don’t like sympathy at all. I love loving people, and sometimes it’s too much for my own good.

I tell people I love them and they think I’m crazy, screaming “you don’t know me like that b” “we’ve just met” blah blah blah, sometimes it’s just your vibe I like, if we can’t vibe then sorry, the connection has failed.

All I hear is ‘you chat to so many men’ I don’t understand what point some of you are trying to make, I’m obliged to talk to whoever I want.

But recently I’ve stepped back a lot, I don’t talk to anyone because that means I have to open up it takes me a lot a LOT to just tell someone things about me, I’ll flip the script and will want to hear about your life, I’ll ignore you when you ask about mine, it’s just normal now.

Words from me!

Yes this is about me, but I decided to share this because I’m done suffering in silence and keep getting asked constant questions, I know there are a million of other people where things like this have happened to them, it’s sad to think other people go through this, but it’s also to scream and shout awareness that you’re not suffering alone whether you’re a woman/man. There are about 5 stories mixed into this but there are separate people involved, some of them are very minor but some are serious. I’ve spoken about some of these situations with ‘friends’ they didn’t even care one ounce, but that’s okay because I sent them on their way.

If you’re getting abused, physically, mentally, emotionally then speak out!

I will always use my platform to spread awareness or for my controversial topics.

It doesn’t matter what age, gender, the colour you are, if something is not right within your relationship, situationship or friendship speak out, we have freedom of speech use it!

I simply haven’t had a man for a long time because I’m scared of who’s entering my life, I’m scared what they’ll do, are their intentions as true as they’ll say, do they want me or my body? Do they want to love or lust? Do they want my heart? Have I done something? My mind is never ending thoughts, but that’s okay I’ll rather have thoughts then being thoughtless.

This is what happens at 2am in the morning when I’m overthinking or thinking about the past I feel to write, it’s so much easier to get my thoughts out by typing them down, this has been stacked in my notes for a while now and I’ve just always scrolled past not knowing whether I should release or hold back, but here I am about to click ‘publish’.

“Controllers, abusers & manipulative people don’t question themselves. They don’t ask if the problem is them. They always say the problem is someone else.” – Darlene Quimet

Thank you to everyone that continues to read and gives feedback, highly appreciated!

Teeks X