I’m back after six months, whilst I took six months out I was trying to think of new powerful topics to come back with, I had the topic names, but not the true content that will remain inside, I couldn’t think of how to start and intros really loop everything together, yet the simplest of things I just couldn’t seem to think of.

However, Teeks is back better than ever before with my new topic ‘Say their names’ and in the midst of where we are today it needs to be spoken upon.

I’m going to be talking on the black community because that’s what I am BLACK BLACKITY BLACK, racism, discrimination, colourism and whatever else I find suitable, I’ll be adding in links from previous topics where possible as I’ve already blogged about it more deeply and intensely.

This blog will be a mix of my own opinions, it’s your choice to agree or disagree,  and I’ll be including facts and statistics which you can’t argue about because it’s the truth, cry about it if you want but that is your own.

I’ll also add in trigger warnings in, which will be big and bold in red, as I know a lot of the images and videos I’ll be including can be triggering and cause distress, so a warning before you see it as you scroll is fair right?

I was meant to do 10 people from the UK and 10 people from the USA but that’s virtually impossible for me to include everyone, but I’ll try my best to include as many people as I can, however, names you don’t see you will be remembered, all the black people in jail for petty crimes or wrongful convictions from the very organisations that are meant to ‘Protect & Serve’ my heart is with you, all of the black people that are being hidden and ‘secretly’ deported by ICE, when our ancestors BUILT the very land they’re ruling on, turfing and surfing us, putting several bullets through our bodies, choking and killing us, knee to the neck making sure every breath is our last, why because our shade is darker than your own? Our missing black community, no trace no case, maybe a few days in the media that quickly gets kicked under the carpet again whilst our lights go dim, just a hope of going viral on social media to spread awareness and fight for equality & justice, and that is why I’m writing this blog ‘SAY THEIR NAMES’ Say our fucking names in the media, I don’t want to be known as ‘A black young woman has gone missing in London’ ?? What does that do? Do you know how many black girls are in London? When I mean to say their names, pronounce my name properly, if you didn’t say it right the first time I’ll give you time to get there, don’t just call me any random name, my parents didn’t name me for others to pronounce how they like & what they feel comfortable with.




Born: 5th February 1995,
Miami Gardens, Florida
Parents: Sybrina Fulton (Mother)
               Tracy Martin (Father)

In February 2012, Trayvon was visiting his father Tracy Martins in Sanford, Florida after receiving a 10-day suspension due to drug residue in Trayvon’s book bag.

Trayvon’s had gone on a visit to his father’s fiancées townhouse in the retreat of of ‘Twin lakes’ in Sanford, February 26th Trayvon was walking back to the fiancées’ house from a nearby convenience store.

George Zimmerman neighbourhood watch captain in Sanford, Florida. Zimmerman calls 911 of reports of a suspicious person in the neighbourhood, Zimmerman was instructed to stay in the vehicle and not approach the person, however, Zimmerman disregards these instructions, moments later there was an altercation, Zimmerman fatally shot Trayvon Martin in the chest.

February 27th, Tracy Martin files missing person report as Trayvon didn’t return home the following evening, cops show Tracy Martin an image from the crime scene, he confirmed it as his son Trayvon Martin

Trayvon Martin was a 17-year-old African American murdered by George Zimmerman.

The same George Zimmerman who cops did not charge as there was no evidence to disapprove of his version of events, March 14th 2012.

Doesn’t this story sound familiar? No evidence? Minding your business? Asleep in her bed?

The media portrayed Trayvon as a thug which he was certainly not, loved by his family, loved by his friends, loved by a community, his cousin Stephen Martin February 27th, Tracy Martin files missing person report as Trayvon didn’t return home the following evening, cops show Tracy Martin an image from the crime scene, he confirmed it as his son Trayvon Martinho had been at the park the night before telling jokes with Trayvon, Stephen said him and Trayvon were like brothers growing up and said that Trayvon was very skilled at assembling, repairing and riding pocket/dirt bikes, does that seem thuggish to you? When Trayvon was just 9 years old, he saved his fathers life by pulling his father who had been immobilised by burns to his legs, does that see, thuggish to you? Trayvon washed cars, babysat, mowed lawn to make his money, does that see, thuggish to you? OR does that seem like a kid who knows what he wants in life and by any means will work for it?

Critics judged Trayvon based off of his tattoos, do tattoos on black skin make someone any less of a person?

Also, judging off of an EMPTY marijuana bag?

Trayvon was UNARMED & MURDERED those two words shouldn’t even string together in a sentence, unfortunately being black a large majority of the time we’re unarmed yet we’re still killed in an unforgivable & merciless way.

March 20th 2012

A lawyer for the Martin family, Benjamin Crump holds a conference telling reporters that Trayvon was on the phone to his girlfriend at the time she said she heard an altercation, she said she heard someone ask Trayvon what he was doing, Trayvon asked why he was being followed, at that moment Trayvon’s earpiece fell out and the connection went dead.

March 22nd 2012
A petition on calling for the arrest of George Zimmerman, created by the parents of Trayvon Martin surpassed 2.2M signatures, which became the largest in website history.

Back in 2012, was launching 15,000 campaigns a month

The most recent report of 2018:
– Audience, 265.7M
– Signatures, 603.9M
– 25,000 petitions launched every month
– During 2018, 1.6M people promoted petitions

However, it was Sybrina Fulton & Tracy Martins campaign that propelled the site into public consciousness.

Following on from Trayvon’s Martins death, a movement was created on 13th July 2013 called #BLACKLIVESMATTER, an international human rights movement originating in the African American community that campaigns AGAINST violence and systemic racism towards black people. BLM holds protests speaking out against police brutality which is murder, by the way, no matter which way they want to dress it up, racial profiling and racial inequality in the United States of America.

The USA should stand for ‘The Divisive states of America’ nothing United about that country.


The originators of the hashtag and co-founders are Alicia Garza, Patrisse Cullors & Opal Tometi.


The creation of Black Lives Matter also brought backlash and in response, a further two hashtags were created to discredit the black community, they’re known as #ALLLIVESMATTER & #BLUELIVESMATTER.





  Born: 15th September 1981
          Broadwater Farm, North London

Mark Duggan 29 years old, when he was shot and killed by police in Tottenham, North London 4th August 2011 18:15pm, the metropolitan police stated that officers were attempting to arrest Duggan of suspicions of an attack and that he was in possession of a firearm, the same firearm that was found 14FT away over a wall?

So the police are telling us, the firearm he was ‘supposedly’ in possession with was 14ft away? Over a wall? The lies are tremendous, what a thought process that is!

An inquest jury found the shooting to be ‘lawful’ & the police watchdog didn’t find any wrongdoing by the officer known as V53.

In my eyes this was an unlawful killing, he supposedly picked up a firearm from East London, drove to North London and when the police pulled him over in the taxi, they shot and killed him but in their ideal world the ‘gun’ literally flew over their heads and no one saw it? Ok

Can we look deeply into the two images below, if you don’t see a difference then I must say you’re extremely obtuse and deluded.

Mark Duggan’s death sparked the 2011 Tottenham riots, the biggest riots in modern English history.

The 2011 riots were a series of riots between the 6th August to the 11th August and carried on for a few days, there were several violent clashes with police ensued, along with the destruction of businesses, homes, police vehicles & 4 double-decker buses received a significant amount of damage, the London riots spread like wildfire up and down the country including Birmingham, Bristol, Coventry, Manchester and many other towns and cities around the UK.

The media called the riots copycat energy, I’m sure this is a directive to the Brixton riots in 1995 which only later 5 hours in comparison to the 2011 riots that lasted several days, either way in both situations to black men were murdered by the police.


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1995, Wayne Douglas was in police custody being questioned about a burglary, police reported that he collapsed in Brixton police station due to a heart attack which was revealed on his post mortem, in actual fact, the inquest showed on FOUR different occasions he was handcuffed with his hands behind his back and was being held face down.

I hope they meant copycat behaviour where two black men were murdered by the ‘Protect & Serve’ organisation, how can you kill a man in your custody! This law enforcement organisation need to bake off, how do the police not learn? Once it’s repeated it’s no longer an accident, life isn’t something you can play with, one who commits murder should get the death penalty, I ain’t God but murdering someone you don’t deserve to ‘Start over’. I always get beyond angry when I hear police officers/cops left right and centre being dismissed from a case of misconduct, why should they be let off Scot free but my BLACK brothers and sisters are laying six foot under, due to mistaken identity, raids on properties, unlawful killing, in prison on petty crimes, I will forever be sick to my stomach over the UK & USA justice system forever killing our people no reasonable excuse. Defund the cops, Defund the police & fuck the Feds forever and always.

If you don’t know the full ins and outs regarding Mark Duggan, then please look at the entirety of the case, from the beginning right through to the end, then you can make your own judgements, it was the police, government and publicists flipping the real script to their very own villain story, all police know how to do is falsify information. Lastly, Mark Duggan’s case deserves to be reopened & investigated and so does Wayne Douglas.


Sandra Bland

              Born: February 7th 1987 (28 years old)
        Naperville, Illinois

Sandra Bland was a 28-year-old African American woman who was found hanged in her cell, Waller county, Texas on July 15th just 3 days after being arrested during a pretextual traffic stop.

Sandra’s death was ruled a suicide, this ruling followed by protests against her arrest, disputing the cause of death and racial violence against her.

Brian Encinia, don’t forget his name was the officer who stopped Sandra Bland, Encinia had a history of performing pretextual stops, having issued 1,600 minor tickets in less than 12 months, he performed these in hopes of finding something criminal on said persons.

If an investigation was ever carried out, I would like to know how many minor tickets he gave out to the African American community, because 1,600 tickets in under 12 months, is it crack that you smoke?

Encinia was never indicted on his crime in spite of video graphic evidence of how he treated and spoke to Bland within the heated interaction including “I will light you up” whilst holding a taser, the full video is online including the conversation between Encinia and Bland, Bland’s phone footage was released 4 years after her death which shows a 39-second clip of her view of arrest.

Following new footage, this has prompted calls for a new investigation into her death.

Bland was pulled over for a minor traffic stop, July 10th the exchange resulted in Bland’s arrest and a charge for assaulting an officer, the arrest was partially recorded on Bland’s dashcam, Bland’s phone and also a bystanders phone.

 Minor as in failing to signal, FAILING TO SIGNAL

Texas authorities and the FBI conducted an investigation into Bland’s death and determined Waller county jail did not follow policies including time checks and ensuring that employees had completed mental health training, but the police/Cops are meant to ‘Protect and Serve’?


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Are you telling me she isn’t dead in these mugshots? Her skin colour has discoloured, she looked like she had been battered, her head is leaning back and on a sideways tilt as if she was lying down her shoulders? Eyes don’t fully focus when you’re dead, half-open eyes which the lower image signifies means she was dead on the top image, on the lower image they either edited the photo or tampered with her body.




         Born: 11th February 1968

Rigg lived in a hostel for people with a forensic mental health history, following a deterioration in mental health, Rigg became uncooperative and aggressive which led to five 999 calls being made within a period of three hours by the hostel staff, the police simply said it wasn’t their issue and that the staff should take it up with their local MP, police eventually responded to calls from members of the public due to ‘strange behaviour’

FOUR police officers gave a chase to Rigg, who was handcuffed and restrained in a face-down position as officers lent on him for eight minutes, 8 whole minutes? Are you seeing how history repeats itself no matter where you’re located in the world? Rigg was arrested for assaulting a police officer, public disorder and ‘theft’ of a passport which was actually his own, Rigg was then placed face down with his legs bent behind him in the caged section of the police van, during the journey to Brixton police station, Riggs mental and physical health was deteriorating & he was extremely unwell, I’ll never in my life forgive these officers,  FOUR officers to one man and to add on top he had mental health issues and they treated him like an animal.

The police LIED to medical examiners on his state, all the officers denied seeing any physical injuries to Rigg, despite the jury seeing several fresh abrasion on his face, and a large bruise on his right shoulder, but the police are meant to ‘Protect & Serve’?

Sean Rigg didn’t utter a single word from the time he got arrested right up until his death, Rigg died in police custody.


Shy Kemmia Pate


   Born: Unadilla, Georgia
                   Missing since: September 4th 1998

You’ve probably never heard of Shy Kemmia Pate, let alone the full story may be because black girls/woman go missing and get lost amid the flurry of attention that our white counterparts receive instead which is true in a sense for example ‘missing white woman syndrome’ a term used by social scientists and media commentators to refer to coverage especially on television of missing cases involving a young white woman from middle/upper-class backgrounds compared to black women, men of lower social classes.

Stories involving missing children have captivated the public since The 80s when widespread panic over stranger snatching, which struck American families in 1984, children had gone missing before but it was in 1984 that their faces began appearing on milk cartons.

Shy was meant to ride with her older sister to a football game that night, however when it was time to go her older sister couldn’t locate her, the county sheriffs, Georgia bureau of investigations & FBI couldn’t locate shy in the following days, weeks, months and years to commence.

The cops incorrectly told her family that a person has to be missing for 24 hours before they could report Shy as missing, they could’ve started the investigation when they first got alerted on the situation, unfortunately, falsifying information had big consequences for Shy’s family as till this day she still has not been found.

Authorities received the various amount of tip-offs but due to no solid evidence they couldn’t go any further with the investigation, neighbours in the area allowed police to search their homes but still no evidence gained.

Shy was described as an outgoing child who loved skating and purchasing new clothes, she was involved with her families church, authorities believe she was abducted by someone she was familiar with however due to extensive search of her area and her neighbours cooperating no new leads, Shy Kemmia Pate is now 30 years old.

Shy was only 8 years old when she went missing, hardly any media attention just a family who hopes she’ll return home one day.

In 2014, the black and missing foundation reported that 64,000 black woman and girls were missing throughout America.

Black Americans only make up 13% of the US population, however, more than 30% of all missing people were black in 2018, according to the US bureau.

Only 1/5 of black missing cases get covered by the news, however, the rest of them are dropped and down to social media to spread the word to gain large traction.

Black families in America have expressed that their missing loved ones aren’t classed as just ‘missing’ but are more likely to be classed as runaways and that somehow they’re not a focus to the police or media.

An analysis of US census data by the New York Times shows that around 1.6M black men are missing from everyday life due to disproportionate incarceration, early ‘deaths’ more presumably murder and overseas deployment.




Stephen Lawrence was born in Greenwich on 13th September 1974 to Jamaican parents who emigrated to the UK in the 1960s.

Bought up in Plumstead, South-East London, eldest out of three.

During his teenager years, Lawrence excelled in running, competing in the local Cambridge harriers athletics club and appeared as an extra in Denzel’s Washingtons film ‘For Queen and country’

Stephen Lawrence was a normal teenager, active social life, school work, family commitments and a dream to become an architect, unfortunately, his dream was cut short when he was murdered in a racially provoked attack 22nd April 1993 at the age of 18.

Lawrence was waiting for a bus home with his friend Brookes, when 5 or 6 white guys crossed the road whilst saying ‘what, what nigger’ they all engulfed him, the attackers forced Lawrence to the ground then stabbed him to the depth of 5cm on each side of his body, the right collarbone and left shoulder, Lawrence was losing blood from four major blood vessels.

Lawrence ran 130 yards as his friend Brookes shouted at him to run to escape the attack, Lawrence collapsed and bled to death.

Two young black boys waiting for a bus home minding their business and one gets stabbed multiple times for minding his business, does that make sense?

After the initial investigation, five suspects were arrested but not CONVICTED. A public inquiry into the handling of Stephen Lawrence’s case was held in 1998, leading to the publication of the Macpherson report which has been called ‘one of the most important moments in the modern history of criminal justice in Britain’

It led to profound cultural changes in attitudes towards racism, to the law and police practice.

Now we’re in 2020, I have every right to question this statement because the UK is still racist, this gets shown on multiple occasions within the media, businesses, in public yet the UK government always deny the fact that they aren’t, I find it incredible that some people see their own ideal fairytale world and not a world we’re facing today, 400+ years ago and in my opinion forever, I want to see justice I want peace but in a very real reality we are not going to get that, I don’t believe all white people are racist but unfortunately, the majority that is overclouding the minority that isn’t.

Dobson NorrisJanuary 2012, 18 years after Stephen Lawrence was murdered, Dorris and Nobson were finally convicted of murder after a 6 week trial into the death, both men received ‘life sentences’ Life sentences in the UK is nothing compared to America, Life sentence in the UK is 15 years and it’s exactly what these two got.

11th April 2018, Scotland yard admit they have no new lines of inquiries into the investigation and will consider closing the case.

Stephen Lawrence was a normal teenager except he was BLACK.

Did you know?

Did you know Presidents’ Day (George Washington’s) birthday was created in 1885 to honour the man who enslaved 316 slaves at his Mt Vernon plantation, George Washington’s dentures were made of ivory and human teeth, yes you read that correct he yanked slaves teeth out and got them moulded into a denture and wore them. 

Did you know, Benjamin Franklin attempted to abolish slavery in 1790, he wanted to promote mercy and justice towards the distressed race but it was immediately denounced by pro-slavery and caused a heated debate in both the house & senate. 

Did you know? Most of the White House was built by slaves 

Did you know? The pyramids in Egypt were built by paid labourers, not slaves that were a myth by Herodotus, the Greek historian. 

Did you know? Slavery was not made a statutory offence in the UK until April 6th 2010, if a criminal forced a victim already inside the UK of from the EU into servitude, they could not be prosecuted for trafficking. 

Did you know? There are more people in slavery today than at any other time in history. 27 million people are enslaved today, more than double the total number believed to have been taken from Africa during the transatlantic slave trade. 

Slavery was abolished in Saudia Arabia & Yemen as recent as 1962, Niger abolished in 1960, Bhutan in 1958, Qatar in 1952 & Kuwait in 1948. 

Did you know around 4 million slaves were taken from Africa to Brazil about 40% of all Americas, some estimate that 4.9M slaves were brought to Brazil from Africa during the period from 1501 to 1866, the most of any country? First sugar, then gold, diamonds, cattle ranching & foodstuff, in 1888 Brazil became the last country in the western world to abolish slavery. 

Did you know, by 1850 American slaves were worth the US $1.3B, one-fifth of the nation’s wealth 




   Born: May 20th 1996
 Ferguson, Missouri
Michael Brown was an ordinary teenager, drank alcohol, smoked marijuana, played video games, active social life his friends & family knew Michael as Big Mike or Mike Mike since was 6’4, despite his height Michael was seen as a gentle giant he shielded himself away from confrontation and used his size to intimidate people from fighting with him, he also embraced Christianity.

On August 9th 2014, 18-year-old Michael Brown was fatally shot by 28-year-old Missouri cop Darren Wilson in the city Ferguson. Brown was accompanied by his 22-year-old friend Dorian Johnson, Brown was left in the street to bleed out for hours without any medical attention which sparked outrage in Ferguson and across America.

Article on Darren Wilson Offers Window on His Life After Ferguson ...

Michael Brown was UNARMED

There was an altercation before Brown was shot, Wilson asked Brown not to walk in the middle of the road, the officer reportedly realised Brown was a robbery suspect and stole Cigarillos from a nearby convenience store.

Wilson claimed Brown was ‘violent’ throughout there encounter, even charging at Wilson even after shots had been fired, however a witness said Brown was trying to flee Wilson it’ll never be perfectly clear what happened that day, Brown was trying to flee from Wilson but eventually surrendered with his hands up.

The grand jury and the US Department of Justice didn’t believe there was a sufficient amount of evidence to convict Wilson.   

The Ferguson Unrest protests and riots began the day after the fatal shooting of Michael Brown beginning on August 10th – August 25th 2014. The Ferguson Riots had 3 waves, Augusts were the first, 24th November – December 2nd 2014 (Darren Wilson not indicted) and lastly August 9th – August 11th 2015 (Anniversary of shooting)

August 2014 a makeshift memorial of flowers & candles that the residents made was put in place where Brown died, an unidentified policeman allowed their dog to urinate on the memorial and police vehicle later crushed the memorial.

Michael Brown memorial hit by car, then rebuilt - Los Angeles Times

And the police want to ask us why they’re not respected?

September 2014 a memorial to Michael Brown was burned to the ground.

November 2015, the body of 20-year-old Deandre Joshua was found inside a parked car within a few blocks of where Michael Brown was killed, initially, the cops found it suspicious then ruled the case a homicide, he had been shot in the head and burned.

The question surrounding this case was “Was Deandre Joshua murdered after testifying in Ferguson?”

The incident happened on the same night the grand jury decision not to indict Darren Wilson.

September 2016, Darren Seals a leader in the Ferguson protests was found shot and killed inside a burning car very similar to Deandre Johnson.


Edward Crawford known for the iconic photograph of him throwing tear gas canister during the protests, Crawford said ” I didn’t throw a burning can back at police, I threw it out the way of children” Crawford died of self-inflicted gun wounds.

August 2015

August 9th the anniversary of Michael Brown’s fatal shooting, peaceful demonstrations occurred and attendants observed four and half minutes of silence signifying the 4 and half hours Brown was left on the streets.

Michael Brown Memorial Removed

August 2016 on the second anniversary of Michael Brown’s death, mourners decided to hold a protest by blocking a roadway, a vehicle later drove through the protestors hitting one and flinging them into the air, protestors then began to shoot at the fleeing vehicle, the injured protestor was brought to the hospital and the driver cooperated with the cops.

As of March 2019, Ferguson protestors have continued to receive threats to their lives or well being, a number have died under circumstances that seem suspicious, this leads to a continuing of mistrust between the cops and community.

We get ushered around by the police every week, 24 hours a day, police putting their dirty hands on us, a kick to the ribs? A knee on the neck? Uncompromised positions to degrade us like we’re animals, speak down to us like we are any less to them, putting so much force on someone during an arrest you leave them paralysed, that must sound familiar, am I right?  if anyone in the police scene is reading this (opps btw) does that sound familiar to you? Victims doES this force sound familiar to you?

Regarding the police leaving someone paralysed, I present to you:


Julian Cole: Police officers sacked for lying about arrest when 19 ...


In 2013 Julian Cole was arrested by SIX police officers outside a nightclub in Bedford, England.


The police broke his neck, he is now paralysed and suffers from severe brain damage.

The same organisation that is meant to ‘Protect and serve’ does that look like protecting and serving?

No one deserves this, Julian was a student at Bedford University studying Sports Science, the police just tear people’s lives away, strip them of everything they were working towards.

Julian cole was involved in a scuffle outside a nightclub called ‘Elements’ on the 5th May 2013, he was just 19 out on the town with friends but was ejected through a side door, he was refused a refund and kept trying to get back in, staff the called the police at 1:34am 6th May.

During one attempt a bouncer took him down but luckily he stood up, at 1:48am he was taken down to the ground by officers Oates, Kalyan and ross then handcuffed whilst his face was down on the ground?

Hypothetically speaking IF the club just gave him his refund I’m sure none of this would’ve happened, how can you chuck someone out and not expect them to get a refund?

THREE OFFICERS lifted him from the ground and took him to a police station.

PC Ross made a call to the ambulance at 2:02am as reports that Julian wasn’t breathing, 30 minutes later they took Julian to hospital and discovered broken vertebrae.

PC Ross made up her account and said that she could see movement in the legs in an attempt to demonstrate she had taken Julian report of neck pain seriously if someone is unconscious then where did you see leg movement??

There’s so much more to this story but the fact is the police lied and tried to cover up the truth, SIX officers on one man that led Julian being left paralysed all down to a nightclub scuffle which wasn’t the fault of the victim.

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Doesn’t this story sound familiar to you?


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             Olaseni Lewis died on the 4th September 2010 after being restrained by 11 police officers whilst he was seeking help as a vulnerable voluntary patient at the Bethlem Royal Hospital, Croydon.

Lewis was admitted early in the evening of 31st August 2010 & had been at the hospital for only a few hours before the incident occurred. 

11 officers pinned down a black man who was experiencing mental health issues, he never regained consciousness, so 11 officers took it upon themselves to restrain a man at a mental health hospital. The family claims he was held face down for 40 minutes, doesn’t this story sound a bit dear to previous ones? 

2017, 6 police officers involved in the death of a man subjected to excessive and prolonged restraint at a mental health hospital in London have been cleared of wrongdoing over death.

Who knew it takes 12 weeks to become a police officer, put a police uniform on and becoming part of the biggest gangs that you can just kill people and get cleared off of an entire case. 

Lewis who was 23 died 3 days after an excessive amount of restraint, he had NO HISTORY of violence or mental health he had been taken to the hospital by his parents after an episode of mental ill-health that began over the bank holiday weekend. 

The police tried to lock him in a seclusion room, that’s when his behaviour changed he sustained injuries during this altercation. 

A doctor called the police in assistance to detain Lewis after he attempted to leave, don’t work in an organisation where you know you have to deal with difficult clients if you can’t handle the pressure, instead of Lewis to be receiving care and help he was met with incompetent staff with them being so undertrained they called the police on someone who had 0 histories of mental health. 


What We Know About Eric Garner Death - Business Insider


July 17th, 2014, Eric Garner was murdered on the streets of New York by a police officer Daniel Pantaleo put him in a chokehold whilst arresting him, chokeholds have been illegal in New York since 1993. Video footage captured by Ramsey Orta of the incident generated widespread national attention and raised questions about the appropriate use of force by law enforcement. 

NYPD suspected Garner of selling single cigarettes without tax stamps, Garner expressed how he was tired of being harassed by the cops, and that he was not selling cigarettes, the officers attempted to arrest Garner as soon as Pantaleo placed his hands on Garner, Garner pulled his arms away, Pantaleo then placed his arm around garners neck and wrestled him to the ground. 

With multiple officers pinning him down, Garner said ‘I can’t breathe’ 11 times whilst lying down on the sidewalk. 


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December 4th 2014, a Richmond County grand jury decided not to indict Pantaleo. This decision stirred public protests and rallies with charges of police brutality, by December 28th there had been 50 demonstrations had been held nationwide in response to the Garner case. 

July 13th 2015, an out of court settlement was announced in which the city of New York would pay the Garner family 5.9M. 

2019 the US department of justice declined to bring criminal charges against Pantaleo. 

But wasn’t the chokehold made illegal from 1993 in New York? 

Pantaleo was fired on August 19th 2019, more than five years after Garner’s death. 

Ramsey Orta was arrested for taking the video of Eric Gardner which received worldwide attention, he was arrested in 2015 and was  released on 28th May 2020

Are YOU seeing a pattern between each case?

Edson Da Costa

Edson Da Costa: Young father restrained by police died by ... 


Edson Da Costa was a 25-year-old black Portuguese man who died on 21 June 2017 after being stopped by police in Beckton, the unclear circumstances of his death led to protests. 

Da Costa was put face down in the prone position, with his arms handcuffed behind his back, hit twice and sprayed with CS gas. 

In June 2019 an inquest jury found that da Costa died by misadventure from the consequences of a cardiorespiratory arrest after he placed a plastic bag containing 88 wraps of class A drugs down his throat. 

Rashan Charles

Police officer investigated over death of 20-year-old father ...


Rashan Charles, a 20-year-old black British man, died on 22nd July 2017 following contact from the metropolitan police in Dalston. 

Charles died after being chased and restrained by a police officer and swallowing a ‘supposed’ package containing caffeine and paracetamol. 

The officer who wore a body can throw Charles to the ground held him down by the neck and tried to reach inside his throat, a member of the public helped the police to further restrain him. 

First of all, if someone is choking you don’t restrain them, and then bring your longhand to stick down their throat, sticking your hand down someone’s throat whilst there’s something lodged in there will actually shove it further down causing said persons to choke. 

Also to the member of the public that tried to ‘help’ the police officer I hope you know that you assisted into murder. 

Charles became ill, was given emergency treatment at the scene and was taken by ambulance to Royal London Hospital where he died later that morning, the object of a package the police officer thought he saw in Charles’s mouth was reportedly recovered at the scene.

Alexis Patterson



Born: April 4th 1995
          Milwaukee, Wisconsin

Seven years old, Alexis resided with her mother (Ayanna) & stepfather (LaRon Bourgeois) in Milwaukee, Wisconsin.

May 3rd 2002, LeRon watched Alexis walk towards the playground then to school, he then turned around and walked back to his residence.

Alexis didn’t attend any lessons that day…students reported seeing her crying in the playground before and after school.

She has never been heard from since.

Ayanna and LeRon were not notified of Alexis’s non-attendance until 3pm that day. They initially believed Alexis didn’t attend classes due to an argument they had over Alexis not completing her homework and that she was not allowed to bring in cupcakes the next day as it was her snack day to bring something in.

Alexis was not known to be a runaway, she had perfect attendance prior to the disappearance.

The surrounding areas were searched immediately after Alexis went missing, investigators canvassed Washington park, divers searched the lagoon, nothing came back.

Investigators announced that Alexis Patterson’s case would go from ‘missing child’ to ‘Criminal investigation’ by May 14th.

Alexis father (Kenya Campbell) was imprisoned in Milwaukee at the time of Alexis’s disappearance, he was released 3 days after and cooperated with authorities as well as Ayanna & LeRon.

LeRon has a criminal history as well, however, the investigators announced that they don’t believe either Kenya or LeRon were involved with the disappearance of Alexis.

Ayanna describe LeRon as abusive and threatening towards her, but the case was dropped, a year after Ayanna went missing, in 2003 LeRon failed a polygraph test & was charged for an unrelated crime, he had a domestic with Ayanna as she was trying to leave him for a while, he was ordered to stay away from her.

In September 2002, investigators announced that there was foul play involved, but as of 2020 Alexis Patterson is still missing, she would be 25 now, someone out there knows something, a scar under her right eye, a bump on her left pinky finger.

Someone out there knows something.

Kenneka Jenkins

Commentary: Kenneka Jenkins case was a nightmare for family but it ...


Anyone else remembers seeing this on twitter? But like you saw it on twitter first before any news headline, yeah? Because that was me too.

It’s funny all these stories about the black community that deserve to be on the news yet get dusted numerous amount of times under the carpet like we have to come on social media to find out what else is happening in the world, I’m a full believer in believing the news is controlled, the media definitely show us what they want us to see, but in reality, I want to see every last nitty-gritty detail, but nope I have to go onto Twitter to see who’s been murdered now by the police, who’s case is being classed as a suicide instead of a murder in a communal area with apparently no CCTV? No witnesses? Hung from a tree? A black man? Hung from a tree? Lynched even? I don’t believe it. 

I have to go on Instagram, to find out another person in my community has been choked to death? By seeing a constant viral video but if I turn on channel 4 news, you guessed it, no sign of said story on my local operator. 

A girl climbed into a freezer? And there was no CCTV? 


Kenneka Jenkins was celebrating with friends at a party that took place at Crowne Plaza room 926 Chicago, the party started at 11:30pm September 8th 2017. 

An acquaintance who arrived at the party noticed Jenkins swaying back & forth as she embraced him in a hug, several witnesses reported Jenkins of drinking cognac but denied her doing any marijuana or any other drugs. Another witness reported that Jenkins wasn’t acting her usual self, she would dance a little then go to sit down and appeared sad. Jenkins was briefly seen walking around the hotel, camera footage showed of Jenkins staggering near the front desk at 3:20am. 

At 4:20 Jenkins friends contacted Teresa Martin who turned up at the hotel at 5:30am, banging on doors from the top floor to bottom, hotel employee rang 911 due to complaints, hotel management, in addition, said they could not provide video footage from the night before until someone reported Jenkins missing to the police, who officially reported her missing to hotel management at 1:15pm Saturday. The first check of camera footage at 10pm, police spotted footage of Jenkins stumbling through the hotel, her whereabouts remained unknown…until they found her in the hotel freezer pronounced dead at 12:48am Sunday. 

Kenneka Jenkins was found lying face down on her side, with one shoe off, no sign of trauma just a small cut on her foot. The temperature inside was 1° approximately 2 hours after the doors had been left open. 

The investigation of this case is very unnerving. 

The freezer was described as a walk-in freezer, it was also on in an unused kitchen, lights were off in both chambers. 

Why was the freezer on? And why was it on in unused kitchen space? 

Motion detecting cameras showed Jenkins staggering through the hotel drunk apparently intoxicated, eventually arriving at the kitchen, but the freezer door had no CCTV footage. 

Jenkins friends story inconsistencies kept on changing, her ‘friends’ left her alone in a hotel to go back and retrieve a phone from one of the hotel rooms, her friends left her, if her friends didn’t leave her it would be at a very high percentage that this ‘accident’ wouldn’t have happened if the camera was above the freezer door and inside the freezer would the investigation still be open? Would there of been more ‘people of interest’ it’s a hotel, you’re telling me no one saw her? Why is their not CCTV in every inch of that hotel? Is someone hiding something? So many avenues to this case, should’ve, could’ve, would’ve but the police closed the case on October 20th 2017, 42 days that’s how brief the case was, a 19-year-old girl goes missing at a hotel, she’s found in a freezer? And that’s how short the case was, the authorities can do more and should do more!




February 23rd, Ahmaud Arbery an unarmed 25-year-old African American black man fatally shot whilst jogging, Arbery had been pursued and confronted by two white residents Travis McMichael & his father Gregory who was armed and driving a pickup truck, a satila shores resident recorded the murder known as William Bryan. 

Neither the son nor father were arrested or charged with a crime until late May, even though Gregory ADMITTED to the police that Travis was responsible for the crime, the truth was right there and the authorities denied it.

Ahmaud Arbery was hit with a truck before he died, and his killer ...

This story was spoken about internationally

The death and events have sparked debates concerning lack of racial equality, doesn’t this story sound familiar to one from across the pond? 

After an article put out by the New York Times, the release of the video of the February confrontation that was leaked on 5th May & increased attention from lawmakers, celebrities, civil rights activists, Georgia bureau of investigations finally stepped in. 

Arbery can be seen running down the street when he comes across a truck parked in the middle of the street, a white man is standing beside the driver’s door brandishing a firearm, Arbery attempts to go around but struggled, moments later gunshots are fired and Arbery falls to his knees. 

Since the video leaked, national political figures demanded justice for Ahmaud Arbery, the likes of Joe Biden, Lebron James & Ava Duvernay, many compared Arbery’s death to Trayvon Martin, Botham Jean, maybe even Stephen Lawrence. 

On June 24th, they indicted the Mcmichaels & Bryan on nine counts each, including, Felony Murder, Malice Murder, aggregated assault, false imprisonment, and criminal attempt to commit imprisonment, 74 days it took for the Mcmichaels to be arrested and charged. 




Every day that passes by, every week, every month, every year, a black person has been shot and killed by the authorities, remember‘ To protect & Serve’ Breonna Taylor went to sleep one night and didn’t wake up the next day due to police storming her apartment and shooting her 8 times. 

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Breonna Taylor 26-year-old African American emergency medical technician was fatally shot by Louisville police department.

March 13th 2020, plainclothes cops entered Taylor’s apartment with the ‘no-knock search warrant’ Gunfire was exchanged between Kenneth Walker (Breonna’s boyfriend) & the cops, Walker believed that the officers were intruders, over 20 shots fired and Breonna received 8 of them. 

Police stated that they announced themselves before entering the apartment & knocking several times, yet they had a no-knock search warrant? Neighbours and Taylor’s family dispute this 

The police were searching for drugs at the apartment, even though the drug search was unrelated to the Taylors, it was relatable to two offenders down the street. 

The case was never about Breonna Taylor, yet they still raided her apartment? They lied on their statements making it out to the public that they did announce themselves, yet no one else heard this? No neighbours heard anything, yet you forced your way into their apartment gone midnight? 

This case made international news headlines, and is still strong today because we want answers, justice and most of all equality! 

You shoot someone 8 times and doesn’t think her family want justice, or her community wants justice? Never mistake the black community as any lesser than white counterparts because we can put up a fight and we will get justice for Breonna Taylor 

This year Breonna celebrated her birthday in heaven when she should’ve been on earth living her moment, starting a new age, enjoying with family and just living and being free, but instead, the justice system never gives our community the easy road to justice, we are fighting, showing emotion, protesting all in the right to be equal, why can cops kill us but when it’s time for us to stand up and fight back we are doing too much? SWAT teams come out, rubber bullets flying into crowds of people, tear gas being thrown at such close proximity? Police cars being ploughed through 100s of peaceful protesters? 

Here's where Breonna Taylor's case stands now - CNN

All lives don’t matter until black lives matter 

“I’m not a racist but” 

“My kid’s dad is black, and my child is mixed so I can’t be racist”

“I have black friends so I can’t be a racist” 

There’s no counterproductive argument to racism, racism isn’t an opinion it’s just facts.

There’s no ‘but’ 

Because it’ll always be BUT your racist

Racism is taught, racism is engrained into toxic minds who only see one fit of race and it isn’t black and it certainly isn’t an ethnic minority. 

You can ask a racist why they’re racist and the response is very much down to class, where they compare yourselves to them, they don’t see us as equal. 

In 2019 there were only 27 days of 2019 where police in the USA did not kill someone, yet people are against defunding the police? 

Police have killed 576 people in the USA in 2020 regarding I’m typing this (27th June 22:03) this figure could change by the time you’ll read this. 

Black people are 3 times more likely to be killed by the police than their white counterparts. 

99% of police killings by police between 2013 to 2019 have not resulted in officers being charged in the crime. 

Let me repeat myself in a chart format so everyone understands in reading format and seeing format, there is no accountability and that is one problem within many: 





May 25th 2020, George Floyd a black African American, 46 years old was restrained & arrested in the streets of Minneapolis, Minnesota over suspicions of using a counterfeit $20 bill. Derek Chauvin a white police officer knelt on Floyd’s neck for 8 minutes, whilst Floyd was handcuffed and lying face down repeatedly saying ‘ I can’t breathe’ Officers J. Alexander Kueng & Thomas Lane further restrained Floyd whilst another officer Tou Thao prevented bystanders from intervening. 

George Floyd: All four former Minneapolis Police officers involved ...

During the final 3 minutes, Floyd was motionless & had no pulse, Chauvin didn’t remove his knee until medics instructed him too even though onlookers pleaded with him he ignored and continued. 

Every single black live murdered, lynched, shot, they all had a life before death, death took away, each and every person mentioned here all have families, aspirations, goals, but the sheer hatred of white counterparts don’t let some of us see so far ahead in life. 

George Floyds daughter will have to grow up without a dad, a mother can’t teach their child everything, a mother can’t have the same bond a father can with their child, a bond is now shattered over a counterfeit bill, does that mean his life was not valued at all or it was valued to a $20 bill? 

Whilst George Floyd’s death is extremely sad, we must thank a brave onlooker who recorded the whole incident, Darnella Frazier 17 years old, she received online hate as trolls said why didn’t she step in to help



Minneapolis cop charged in George Floyd death – The Bay Observer

8 whole minutes.


Police in the USA killed 120 people since George Floyd.

20 days, 120 lives

Every day I am reminded that the ‘UK isn’t racist’ but every time I hear those very words it’s always from someone that isn’t of my complexion let alone part of my community, I always wonder how backwards you must be to say a country isn’t racist when it’s displayed every day, I hear white people call other white people ‘niggers’ ?? it doesn’t even make sense, some white people know they’re racist though because they’ll be around a black person and be stuttering to say nigga but earlier on in the day when you were around your own people I’m sure it would be rolling off of their tongue easily.

The Media shows racism every day

Football games shows racism every match

The government show racism every second that they can

  • Boris Johnson has called gay men ‘Bum boys’ & compared Muslim woman to letterboxes
  • Boris Johnson labelled black Africans ‘piccaninnies’ with ‘Watermelon smiles’
  • Boris Johson also suggested that Malaysian women only go to university ‘to find men to marry’
  • Boris Johnson has recently suggested that he understood the anger black people felt in the UK’s history
  • In 2002 a column was written Boris said “The problem is not that we were once in charge, the problem is that we aren’t anymore

Must I go on?

And this is some people’s favourite prime minster?

Racist, Homophobic?

I have the source if anyone would like to come forward and tell me the UK isn’t racist, I have time.

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How many more of us have to be murdered before they realise we matter as well?

Do they even see us as people or just a number to the system?

Between 2013-2019, police in the United States have killed 7,666 black people.


This country & USA and the citizens take everything as a joke

Breathing is such a privilege that our white counterparts think it’s clearly a joke.


If racism doesn’t exist, then what’s the difference between these 3 images?


If racism doesn’t exist, then I wouldn’t need to fight for justice every day for these people, if racism didn’t exist then I wouldn’t need to attend protests if racism doesn’t exist then all these people would still be existing and living, but the colour of our skin gives us our own life expectancy and it’s a short-haul for some of us.

Apologies if my blog is everywhere, but this is one of the hardest blogs I’ve ever had to write, there are so many names to say, so many stories about each person, the stories make them different, but the bottom line is everyone mentioned in this blog victim wise is black, and the instigators, interrogators and murderers are white.

I have mentioned as much as I can here but feel free to read my other blogs that are related to this one:

Access Denied

Colourism, Racism & Discrimination

Since George Floyd died and even before there were so many police brutalities mainly in America compared to the UK, this happens in the UK as well everyone likes to think because the UK hasn’t legalised guns that we are any different, America is 40 times the size of the UK that is the difference, but the UK has a fair share of police brutalities, I’m also annoyed at how the government truly believe that the UK isn’t racist, Go on any post regarding black people good/bad, you will see the racists alive and kicking at 7am, we have the EDL led by Tommy Robinson a far-right Islamophobic, he hates Muslims, he hates anyone that doesn’t agree with his terms and conditions about them, people in the EDL group have even called the group racist yet apparently the UK isn’t racist? Some people love to see racism as a competition, like ‘America is more racist than the UK’ ?? Since when did racism become a competition? It doesn’t matter where or which country is more racist the bottom line is RACISM has no place in society, I haven’t included everything I could possibly want in this blog, however, I added what I thought stood a good chance, I’m not google the rest of what I’ve missed is on the internet free of charge. 

I’ve gone past the stage of angry, I’ve gone past the stage of hurting because I’ve seen everything I never thought I’d encounter, I just want JUSTICE, EQUALITY & FREEDOM. 

I want justice and peace for everyone but most importantly my community first, the injustices that we have endured from 1619 all the way up until 2020, the injustices our ancestors were facing during slavery, being raped by the white man, being caned by the white man, being whipped whilst out picking cotton, Black Friday? Buying slaves for cheaper to assist other slaver traders in aid during the winter months? Now we’ve adopted Black Friday into our society where shopping is cheaper, we are buying into a now holiday tradition but it originally dates back to slavery. We can’t forget the white women that gave their children to slaves so their babies could eat and having no breast milk left for their own, the wickedness kissing my teeth as I typed that.

We are now in 2020, slavery still exists it might of been abolished but it’s still there in the shadows, we still face racism, discrimination, colourism but instead of slavery we get shot, we get kneeled on, we get choked, stop and searched, treated like animals, we just face accusations from Karen’s, it’s always the Karen ladies that find an acting degree within 2 seconds, so over reactive, everyday ‘get out my country’ but my country says England so where should I go? Always hear ‘but the uk ain’t that racist to America’ Racism is racism, no matter which way you put it, racism ain’t a competition of which country gets more, the bottom line is racism is wrong. 

I’m judged by the colour of my skin isn’t that just weird? If I could change my colour I wouldn’t, I face injustices because of my skin.

I’ve stopped discussing  racism with people who don’t understand, or people who don’t see colour or people who tell me ‘I’m not racist but’ it’s not me you’ll try and justify racism too,  don’t classify me as ‘blacks’ or say ‘half casts’ to me because what is that? You can’t call me a nigga and justify that, you can’t kill a member of my family by restraint and justify that, you can’t shoot someone 8 times and justify that, you can’t shoot someone 40 times and justify that, why is someone receiving 8 shots to the chest, you don’t think they’re dead after the 2nd? I’ve stopped discussing topics with people who believe every wrong action is justifiable.

Someone said to me ‘The horses that got attacked at the London riots by those people is disgusting, how can people attack animals?’ HOW CAN PEOPLE HATE SOMEONE FOR THE COLOUR OF THEIR SKIN? When the grand nationals are on television every year, I don’t hear no complaints about the horses that are injured and die there but apparently if it’s black people fighting for justice it’s wrong, the police brought a horse with prosthetic legs to the protest, you don’t think the animal has suffered enough? Who brings horses to protests, it was a protest not a riot by the way,

Who brings horses to protests, horses have been attacked before so why are the police not learning their lessons? A horse was let loose in London during the riots and injured a young black woman, don’t bring an animal to a protest if you can’t control them, including dogs police officers know exactly how to rile a dog to make it further attack you.

Racism isn’t a point of view, racism is taught from early, it’s engrained.

I don’t have time to unteach racism, why should I stress myself out on teaching you why racism is wrong?

You cannot educate someone who doesn’t have the willingness to learn.

‘Black on black’ crime is a clever concept purely used to weaponise & demonise one race, all other races are free to commit because white on white crime doesn’t exist clearly, black on black crime does not exist it was construed to highlight the black communities wrong doings

“I don’t see colour but black on black crime exists”

Funny how these people don’t see colour then next thing you know they’ve picked up an eye prescription and can all of a sudden see black on black crime.

Isn’t it funny how they’ve called each and everyone on these lynchings ‘suicide’ the authorities are quick to class it as something else to just close the case, so you’re telling me no one saw these people commit suicide from a tree in a communal area at night? No CCTV footage? Or footage not available to the public? I always question the answers.


Kendrick Johnson found rolled up in a gym mat decapitated with his organs missing, the police ruled that as suicide? Do you know how dense you have to be to believe that was suicide?

Justice for Kendrick Johnson

Peppered spray to death? Is that justifiable behaviour? 

Justice for Jamal Edwards

Killed by police in front of his 4 year daughter and girlfriend, whilst reaching for his ID, is that justifiable?

Justice for Philandro Castillo

Protesting peacefully in downtown Omaha and murdered by white supremacists?

Justice for James Scurlocks

It’s not just the police killing us, it’s white doctors ignoring are cries of pain and telling us to go home and focus on something else, it’s white judges issuing out life sentences, it’s white citizens being able to freely kill us on the street.

America have a gun/accountability problem

England have an accountability problem

The exact same happens in the UK, we just don’t have a gun problem.

Say their names

Jonathan Ferrell
Brandon Webber
Christoper Kassa

If you can’t stand a few days of protests, you’d hate 400+ years of systemic discrimination and oppression.

I’m black I don’t have privilege, I don’t get equal opportunities, I don’t get the same life expectancy on this earth opposed to my white counterparts, I always got told “you’ll have to work 10x harder” Doctors treat my body as like it’s a game of operation, they don’t believe I’m sick, they don’t believe my pain.

I don’t believe all white people are racist but it’s the minority that outshines the majority that isn’t.

It’s white people who have made my life harder and made my communities life unbearable to live, we just want equality, justice and freedom.

Until we get that ‘NO JUSTICE NO PEACE’



















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2020 was a year like no other and I mean like no other because I’ve experienced things I thought I would never for example a global panoramic!

Thankfully I got to celebrate my 22nd birthday I wish I did more because I’m pretty sure I sat at home high listening to music I wish I lived it up more, but I don’t have a big abundance of friends like I used too and plus I wouldn’t of wanted to spend my birthday with fake hoes anyways, so by myself was a vibe but I should’ve lived it up more because I knew the country was locking down I just didn’t know when, but still I celebrated & that’s all that matters.

2020 has filled me with so much joy weirdly enough, I’ve had new people enter my life and never felt happiness like this before, you know them ones where you just have a constant smile on your face, small things would just make me happy, I’m so thankful for everyone that’s entered my life this year and the ones that have been with me for years and stayed.

I’ve dealt with a lot work wise, one thing I can say about me is that I work hard, I work myself into the ground, I work myself hard so I can get what I want in life, I don’t have a leaning post where I constantly lean and ask for help, one thing about me I don’t ask for help I’ll struggle and find my own solution because sometimes when you ask people for small favour you’ll be waiting so long, I could rebuild Timbuktu by the time they even start said favour, more time if I do it myself, I know I’ll get it done plus this is my journey I’m not trying to have people come to me with the lines ‘you wouldn’t have this if it weren’t for me’ I’m not with that, cause some people are just bitter bettys, and I don’t need a constant reminder of ‘you wouldn’t be in this position if it weren’t for me’.

A lot of the situations I’ve put myself in I’ve wanted to ask for help and there’s been one situation this year where I asked for help from someone in my family, they accepted then a few days later I backed out and said I no longer needed it & the only thing that is getting me through is

“If I’ve created this situation for myself, then I can get myself out and I will get myself out”

Many situations I’ve been in, I’ve got myself into, no one pushed me to do some of the things I’ve done, so me myself can get myself out

However with me I used to love helping people, keyword ‘used to’ but you’ll do some people favours or help them out monetarily and then a few months down the line they’ll act brand new and like they don’t wanna know you anymore, I’m not with that either so 2021 plus all the other years after that I’m just doing me and I will strive for greatness until I feel comfortable, I don’t want to be a billionaire, I don’t want crazy amounts of money I just want to be comfortable with a 100 bands (I want more than 100 bands it just sounded cool) in my bank account & that’s just me.

Continuing from work wise, I was with a company, went for a new job within the same company however it never took off because of coronavirus but I still had my original job, however as time went by I wanted a bigger challenge, I wanted to be pushed further and see what else I can pursue, so I applied for a new job, had an interview got the job the same day and quit my current one, I start on the 6th January and absolutely cannot wait, I’ll be working within high intensity rehabilitation already seems like a challenge.

I have so many goals for next year, but I’m going to start off with three, I’m not going to put a timescale on anything as time is no object to me, but I’ll put small objectives in place to make sure I get there effectively, I’ve never told anyone my goals except from the obvious one of me wanting to be on the property ladder one day, I’m in no rush to move out however I do wanna move out before or just around my 25th birthday, however any other goals or objectives I don’t speak about, I believe highly in bad mind people and evil eye and I’m just not with it, because if I tell my goals to someone, what will that achieve for me? I haven’t reached it, yet here I am splurging them out, my goals are for me and only me so when I reach a milestone maybe I might say maybe I won’t

And when I get a S/O then I’ll share my goals but only if it’s concrete

I’ve had a lot of time to think this year, and my head feels more levelled than it has in previous years maybe because I’m growing up and speaking less and listening more or engaging more and learning, idk though, but I have learnt a lot, I’ve been writing a lot more things down, I’ve been calculating things, I’ve been researching more and just trying to make myself be the person I’m destined to be, I’ve been spending less and saving more, I’ve been more stressed than ever, I’ve been ill for the entirety of 2020 and no one really ever knew, I mean a few people and family but literally no one because I don’t talk much and don’t plan to, talk is cheap most days and when I talk and people don’t understand even though I try to put it in different perspectives each time, after a while I do get bored and I’m not afraid to show it, I’m not afraid to talk my mind but with talking your mind you get obtuse people that literally want to wrong you in every way possible, but hey that’s just my life, keyword ‘my life’ so don’t be offended.

We’re now at the end of 2020 and I’m glad because it has been a tiresome year, however I’m still grateful each day when I open my eyes, I’m grateful to people who are around me and still put up with me till this day, not to say I’m hard work because I’m not, I’m very chill, chill not stupid, but as I leave 2020 I’m leaving a lot of things behind me, a lot of the things I’m leaving behind I should’ve done it a long time ago but as I don’t let many things affect me I just let some things carry on the path of destruction until I got bored and have to rectify them.

I know this blog may seem boring to you because it’s very empty, like I said I don’t talk much I don’t let people in much because what is the actual point? People say they care when they don’t care and I’ve said that to people too, not that I don’t care I’m always given a reason to not to and I’m completely fine with that, like you make your bed hun, you lie in it and don’t look to me for help

I’m still leaving 2020 with trauma and hurt and that’s still okay because I’m not ready to let go I’m not ready to ‘talk’ cause everything will not be alright, I’m not ready to ‘forgive and forget’ some people have damaged me far to much for me to even consider that an option, and forgiveness is not for everyone, some things cannot and will not be forgiven in this lifetime or the next I will drag it everywhere with me, because unfortunately this is my story and when I’m ready to let go I will but up and till then I will wallow not cry wallow, I don’t cry maybe when I have a bit of hay fever kicking around then maybe then, but any other time? Nah, funeral? Nope Babyshower? Nah wedding? Absolutely not, I cry about once a year and this year I have cried twice so I’m really exceeding my limit.

But now I’m going to leave 2020, leave 2020 and enter the following years as a better person each time, but a better person in my perspective and not anyone else’s, because you people do not pay my bills.

My head is set so straight for 2021 it’s unbelievable, I have a few things that you as my audience maybe interested in so feel free to follow my journey as and when I drop things, I’ve decided to come back to blogging because this is really my happy place. 

Amen, 2021 here I come


2019 WRAP UP, 2020 STARTUP!

147 days later and I’m back to blogging, wheww chile what a long time, I would apologise for being inactive but I’m not going to because having writer’s block is REAL, I have blogs in my drafts that have been started but not finished hopefully I can get those out to you lot sometime next year, not hopefully I WILL get those completed and put them out next year.


Bet you’ve been wondering where I’ve been…If you answered no, free you because I know you’re going to continue reading and want to know what’s been happening in my life and if you said yes you’re either nosey or you genuinely want to know where the fuck I’ve been, I’ve wondered too, but somedays I look back at the whole year and it’s certainly been busy, I’m generally a very busy girl, this year has also been hard for me work-wise I had a manager that didn’t believe in my career prospects it made me alter how I saw myself for months, it made me question myself every day, whether I was fit for the position, whether I could actually be a leader, so many things were shuffling around in my mind, however, if you’re sane enough in life you’d know not to mess around with my career because I’ll only come back stronger, I remember I had a meeting with my manager and she thought I was dumb I remembered something she didn’t my ammunition must’ve taken her aback because she was certainly lost for words, anyways long story short she either resigned or got fired I believe she got fired because I definetely reported her ass to management and when I was telling management what was going on LOOOOL she didn’t stand a chance.


We got a new manager and I thank God for her also my deputy manager and all my colleagues so now I’m training for senior care worker which I’ve always wanted, I’m also doing a Level 3 certificate in web design and development, I’m excited for what 2020 can bring hopefully more career opportunities, twenty-one years on this earth and I’ve learnt so much and I  never want to stop.


Anyways yardiyardiyaaaa enough about the boring part of my life, I’ve recently just come back from Amsterdam, 10/10 experience apart from DBE cancelling rest up LB though.


If this part of the blog doesn’t make you want to go Amsterdam, then please go get high and come back to this section, because it’s not me that’s holding you back.

Amsterdam 2019 let’s get into it:

I booked Amsterdam 31st May 2019 with my friend ‘Adz’ well she booked it I just sent my money each month, we booked on ‘Love holidays’ however our holiday was discounted as they always have sales on, the cost should’ve been £903 altogether but we paid £292 each which included flight (Easyjet) + hotel (Ozo Hotel 4*) we paid extra for a private shuttle which was £33 each and two suitcases which were £33 each and this was all for 5 days so final price was £584, we booked all our activities via ‘Get your guide’ app if you haven’t heard of it get to know, we booked about seven activities via the app which was £117 each, if you book without the app I promise you look in your pocket and you’ll discover a burn mark. 


Spending money, I changed up £358 which gave me €400 I nearly vomited in Tesco’s, this was money for food, weed and transport, my friend took away €150 but also had her debit card with her, we paid for 3 extra activities out there but it wasn’t crazy expensive.


Small disclaimer

I met Adz (Adonae) the day before we flew out, as she stayed round mine it makes more sense I lived closer to Luton, We became friends through Twitter and have been good friends for roughly 2+ years, crazyyyy right!

The first time meeting wasn’t anything crazy you can learn about someone through text, and also learn a lot more when you meet them too, literally the best person to go with, she’s a lot like me which scared me a lil bit, we liked the same things from food to activities, we gave people the same looks in public when we saw something funny or weird and looked back at each other for reference, I can’t fault her she literally booked the holiday and activities and I praise her because I would’ve preferred for her to do it and me to just fling the money over, I can hear the whinging bastards already “WhEre’S YoUr ReAl fRiEnDs” “wErEn’T YoU ScArEd Of bEiNg RoBbEd”  My gut instinct has been swindled a few times but I’m not stupid I’m picky on who I meet in a real-life if I said I’ll meet you, in reality, hold on to your hats 2020 is coming, however, twitter teaches me every day about madness occurring, I wouldn’t hand over 100s of £££s without being certain, and look I’m in my house now back from dam, no damage is done just memories made.


Lastly each day I figured out mine and Adz’s morning routine, I found it hilarious, so we’d wake up at some awkward hour like 6am go on our phones for a few minutes then go back to sleep, then we’d wake up again at 11am and go to each other “We’ll get up in half an hour” both agree to continue to watch TV or be on our phones, ask me did that half an hour ever come? During that time we’ll also be snacking, then around midday, we’d get ready for our day, every morning same routine, it’d be funny cause it was the same and we’d just laugh about it.

23rd November:

Adonae arrived around 15:20pm, she met my family who was already at home, but I already had something planned so my brother dropped us both to my work, it was the weekend I planned for my dad to come into my work to do a reggae/soca evening for my residents, they loved it including my colleagues and me, long story short we got home around 7, both ate, watched a few episodes of something on Amazon prime then proceeded to pack at 10pm, Long story short we were overweight but hear this only by 3.1kg we still had pay £12 each extra loooool, Easyjet can honestly fuck off, nothing easy about ‘easy’ jet, why is there an Easyjet plus who’s paying £150+ for extra’s are you tapped in the head? DO YOU KNOW WHAT PISSES ME OFF WITH SMALL AIRLINES? NO? Well, you’re going to find out, wait for it…Priority boarding, why do Easyjet have priority boarding it makes zero sense, not even just EasyJet small airlines WHY? We’re all going to the same destination are we not? Or is the plane going to stop off in the middle of England and Amsterdam and tell people ‘Please mind the drop between the plane and the clouds’ and it’s always the posh cunts in suits as well, tossers. 

Moving on, we finished packing and once we closed our suitcase there was no way on God’s green earth that it was being opened till we got to the hotel, it was full to the brim, even our hand luggage was full, we went to bed at 2am and was up for 4am, my friend picked us up and off to the airport we went, someone tell me where is Luton Airport, why is the airport still in construction mode? Luton Airport is so ghetto, I’m surprised they even had booking scanners in there, and London claims Luton since it’s London Luton airport if Luton was a place in London it’d be Harlesden, free dem.

24th November:

We boarded our plane on time, left on time but our plane only had to slow down because too many planes were landing at Schipol airport, I’m pretty sure it was an hour thirty-minute flight or something, can I just say England are so behind in technology compared to everywhere else in the world, like so behind it’s a joke! I won’t reveal too much go discover for yourselves.

We got to our hotel around 11ish and got told we couldn’t check in till 2, but we got around it and checked in at 1, our hotel and room were so nice like it actually resembled the photos on the website, it was a 10-minute walk to the metro where are hotel was it resembled part Canary Wharf, part Milton Keynes it was weird but made sense.

We chilled, napped got ready for our first activity the ‘A’ dam lookout’ we went purely for the ‘over the edge swing’ I was excited before I nearly sat down on the swing, quickly glanced up and over the edge and pussied out real quick, as in I grabbed my bag and was on my way, my friend, of course, did it, I wished her luck and everything, it didn’t exactly help my nerves that there was a measly bar to keep me secured over my legs, ARE YOU DUMB? A bar uno am I a dick’ ed? If my chest thrust forward while up there 2 million per cent + my savings I would’ve fallen out, I don’t even have life insurance I couldn’t even afford my funeral if I died, I’m black I didn’t see any other black people up there so I took myself out the equation, y u bEiNg rACiST tEeKs, it’s actually called stereotyping, idiots.


Soooo I left my friend to go on her own, I was giving support with my feet firmly on the ground, we took pictures after then went to the bar we both don’t drink so we just got normal fruit juice and enjoyed the incredible view. 

Let me tell you guys something about this trip, the A’dam lookout is across the river and I was thinking how am I going to get there cause my name ain’t dynamo I can’t step on water and expect to stay on TOP of water, anyways so we asked around and my girl in the tourist shop said FREE boat to the other side, the way she said FREE so calmly in this England is anything free? Not even the oxygen I breathe is free I’m sure it’s taxed. 

Long story short, we went to a coffee shop but we didn’t stay I just picked up all my essentials, which included two tubs of cookies, two pre-rolled zoots and just some baggies of weed, I smoked a spliff before bed then went back up made a cup of tea and dunked my cookies in which I’m 100% sure the weed disappeared as soon as I dunked as I didn’t feel an ounce bit different, I was even nodding going “Mhmmm yeah this is nice” all this mhmm yeah for me to feel fuck all did I spend €15 on two tubs for a fucking laugh? It was the tea I just know it but honestly, in this life, you’ll never see me digest a biscuit without a hot drink to go with it.

Don’t offer me a biscuit with no hot beverage, you can even offer hot water.

25th November:

So Monday we went to the zoo, the zoo was 10/10, it was actually amazing, I’m going to drop all the videos/pictures down below, wOrDpReSs rUinED ThE QuAliTy.


These lions were very close to us I’m sure they were tranquilised cause if they wanted to attack us they could’ve, no fence to protect us, just me and oxygen.

I can’t lie I hate entertainment shows that involve animals, but this fat ting didn’t want to jump just wanted food all the time, found it hilarious I know this sea lion must’ve learnt flex & finesse from early!


Monday Evening we did a canal cruise, as in it was so beautiful, the history behind Amsterdam is amazeballs, I just thought ‘weed’ capital this is my kinda city, yeah but no, I love history even though I hated history in school but that is beside the point in school I had a curriculum to follow which I found utterly boring, but I’m grown now I can learn what I want, Amsterdam the city of diamonds, anyways yeah I nearly fell asleep on that cruise, when night time reappears unlike Madeli….anyways when night time appears I’m either buzzing wide awake or I just want to sleep, I wanted to SLEEP so bad.

26th November:

TUESDAY NOW, WE ON TUESDAY, BEST DAY OF MY TRIP, you idiots thought I was going to say of my life yeah? Well no, but the activities for this day listen 10/10!

 ‘Glow in the dark mini golf”


I lost

The walk getting there was a trek, it was about a 15-minute walk in the cold and it was spitting, we got to one traffic light to cross and my friend saw a flash from across the road, a bunch of tourists put deh bludclart flash on and was taking photos of us saying “yoU’rE So PrEtTy” I was thinking I’m not an artefact man, now random people are going to have me on their camera roll, bare weird.

Anyways the mini-golf was so sick, I think there were 12 holes, one of them was bare unnecessary which was the last hole and the ball just wouldn’t go in, I’ve never had that problem before man:(


Second Activity was the Anne Frank (Jewish museum) as I said I love history, I didn’t love the holocaust of course not but the story behind how everything erupted and became what it was is just incredible.

After those two activities, we went back to our hotel, we chilled, snacked and napped all to prepare for our big night out, we went to the red light district always wanted to go here and we were finally doing it, my fit was drip, oooo fake drip spotter couldn’t catch me cause I wasn’t wearing any designer, catch my fit down below:

Baddest_Teeks on Instagram

Ha, you thought I was going to put the image up, did you attend clownery college?





We left our hotel around 8 and took a stroll through Canary Wharf and onto the metro, central to the red-light district is not far at all, we had a look in some sex shops and the sex toys bumberclaartttt, oh don’t worry I took photo’s you ain’t meant to take photo’s but fuck the rules, we then had a walk up and down back streets and went to the 5D sex cinema, I’ll upload a short video but we were basically sat in a stimulator basically a rollercoaster chair, and it would move erratically with whatever goes on, on the screen, the man ejaculated and foam came out, I was in stitches, we then went to a peep show it was confusing at first but we paid €4 for 4 minutes of watching time, the first stripper we saw she was so boring, zero energy then a door opened and a new lady walked out she had ENERGY for days, these strippers/prostitutes in the red light district are peng are you dumb?? Lastly, we went to a sex show liveO sex on stage my kinda scene, strippers doing their thing my kinda scene, men in the audience getting picked out to go on stage and join in the act, one man got picked out three times looool on his third time he looked pissed, hilarious. 

We were laughing for a time cause foam squirted out🤣

Oh, and before I forget we went to the museum of prostitution (Red light secrets) nah I loved it the history behind the red light district is dope, as you can read, I’m trying not to give too much away because I want you to go and experience for yourselves.


I posted a confession  at the museum and they get stuck on a confessions wall


However wearing what I was wearing I didn’t feel entirely safe because some of the men were disgusting, would catcall you like a dog and when you don’t reply continue to call you all the names under the sun, I ignored and continued because I didn’t want unnecessary hassle plus if I fought someone I didn’t want to fall in the canal that shit was cold and dirty not me boy!

However, that was a night to remember, my eyes were my camera and I can’t fully explain my vision so go visit, loool you’d think the Netherlands government are paying me to promote Amsterdam like this😂.

27th November:

Wednesday was pretty chilling we chilled into the late evening and started getting ready around 16:30pm for the…ICE BAR, ice bar was cool but never again, as in never again someone would have to pay me to go back in there, so I’m pretty sure we paid for premium tickets cause we ain’t no simple bitches which included 1 golden token for the bar in the ice bar, and 2 silver tokens for the bar outside the ice bar, read and read well the first part of the ice bar tour I don’t know what was going on, this man did some speech but was bare shouting, there were different groups that went in at different times and I think you could stay in there for 45 minutes, you got handed a measly jacket as thin as one-ply toilet paper and gloves, as soon as I got in there I saw the temperature, some next polar bear climate of -9.7º, my tokens were in my pocket but there was no way in hell I was taking off a glove and getting a token waiting at the bar, drinking a drink within five seconds, do I look mad to you? The man said if you leave your drink for five seconds it’ll turn to ice? Is my name crackhead sally? I couldn’t even hold my phone to unlock it ALL I HAD TO DO WAS LOOK AT IT, I didn’t even have the energy to lift it towards my face, we basically went in said ‘ah yeah this is nice’ asked the photographer to take photos then we left, we went to the bar instead I ordered an ‘Amsterdamnned’ and my friend got ‘Sex on the beach’ we swapped, in the end, both tasted good, we chilled for a bit then decided to go ice-skating, we decided but ice skating cashier broke our hearts, it closed at 9pm we got there at 8:30pm €30 to skate for thirty minutes? You’re shitting on me.

We Left.

Not disappointed though…

We saw a dominoes beforehand and got it on the way home, so slow story quick we spent €60, and that’s £50, FAM THAT CAN FEED A FAMILY OF 5 HERE!

28th November:

Thursday was meant to be my most memorable day of the entire year but was it though? Thursday flopped me harder than my GCSEs don’t piss me off, the first motive was Van Gogh museum we got there at 5pm because on the ‘Get the guide’ app it said it closes at 7pm, the security guard said it closes at 5 and the dutch accent is strong nuh rass, even if he was trying to talk to me nice it came across rude, but we even said the app said 7pm man was trying to argue I went deaf cause it wasn’t me he was going to go back and forth with, so we left we went back to central and straight into a coffee shop whilst I was in the coffee shop I found out D BLOCK EUROPE CANCELLED, as in if someone didn’t tell me I would’ve still went, I’m so glad I got let down in a coffee shop with a spliff in my hand, so the coffee shop story with adz this girl makes me die, so I bought 1G of white widow, blue cheese and OG kush, two pre-rolled cones of sativa mixed with baccy and bought Adz a vanilla cake edible, we sat down and I sparked mine, adz has never smoked before she asked me how to smoke??? Bitch, I don’t know, honestly, I smoke every day so explaining how to someone who has never was difficult, I managed too though but it was evident it wasn’t for her, she had her edible though she was happy, adz was eating I was smoking I remember there was one point where I was vibing to the music I turned my head back around and swear to God the edible was nearly gone, I said “Eyyy you probably want to slow down a bit” as a non-smoker non-edible eater would say “Ahhhh but it’s so nice though” She never knew the decision she made was going to fuck up her whole night, so she finished it and was like “So when is it kicking in” I was like “Ha give it an hour” by that time I finished my zoot I was good, I had a guy tapping me every two seconds for my lighter, bruv who comes coffee shop without a lighter? Tapping me every 2 seconds like I’m an off licence, anyways we left it kicked in as soon as we left for her, I was dragging this girl through Amsterdam central to get our metro it was hilarious my girl just looked dazed, so we get back to the hotel and by this time she was telling me her body has gone numb, she was sat on the bed with her pizza just eating, I was packing, she went to sleep in and out I stayed awake most of the time mostly because I didn’t know how her body was going to react some people have mad reactions, some people are calm but I ain’t trying to explain to someone’s mum wagwarn for their daughter so I was in and out of sleep mostly slapping the shit out of candy crush, I finally snoozed into a light sleep at around 3am.

29th November:

Friday today was home time, Adz woke up around 8am still waved, she kept asking me “when is it wearing off” that was a question I couldn’t answer if you ate the whole thing if it was half I would’ve given you a legitimate answer, but my girl learnt her lesson, so in the morning I left her to pack I packed the night before obviously as I can function it’s literally my everyday setting, I went downstairs to smoke, this is a story I’ll never forget…So I was wearing leggings, a long top and a big fuck off fluffy jacket it was cold outside, so I began smoking as I do, get halfway through and started feeling incredibly hot as in hot like the plane’s doors open and could feel Caribbean heat, I was thinking I can’t finish this spliff but me being me I finish it, by that time I was feeling dizzy, so I managed to get back in the hotel and into the lift, I looked at myself in the lift mirror I was garnnnn, I got back to my hotel room with the grace of God, as soon as I got in I started removing my clothes, I think I know how hot hell is now! I downed a whole can of Fanta, bitch I had a hot flush for a whole goddamn twenty minutes, I was thinking ‘rah is this how my 21 years on this earth is ending? You’ll do a real g like that, ight sn’ Thinking back it was funny but in the moment nah no thanks not again, but the maddest thing was I had that same spliff on the Monday same strain, it was just weird, I felt like Brian Finch (Limitless) when he was getting those side effects from the drug NZT but it ended up being a hoax.


So the Friday we went to the Van Gogh museum it was so so good, apparently going high is a vibe I wouldn’t know mine wore off, I wasn’t expecting it to be so modern but hey ho move with the times I guess…the building is huge the backdrop is amazing for photos, yeah the art was nice too.

We spent around an hour there then went back to our hotel in time for our transfer back to the airport, our flight was delayed of course Easyjet would be however we arrived back in England around 7pm, I got my weed through without a hitch cause like I said Luton Airport is the absolute ghetto.

We booked our trip via

11 activities in 5 days, wheww chile my kinda scenes.

So this year I went on two holidays one to Zante (read the blog on that, if you haven’t) and obviously Amsterdam, however, Amsterdam was 10/10, maybe minus a few points, because I nearly got run over 50 times a day, my company was literally my opposite, we did activities we both wanted to do, like the only thing I could fault was the weather every day spitting, not even real rain one placebo & DBE cancelling but whatever man. 

Hope you lot have enjoyed reading about Amsterdam as much as I’ve enjoyed typing about it, and hopefully, some of you go and enjoy as much as I did, but my next trip there I’ll be in strictly coffee shops.

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This year I finally started a podcast called ‘Live & Relevant’ with @brands0311 & @_Jmensah it’s taken at least 10 months to come off the ground due to a few problems we had at the very beginning, but we’ve done it, the first episode is coming out very soon and will be available on Soundcloud & iTunes then, later on, we’ll roll out towards Spotify. We all met on the very first day of filming together but we all spoke on a regular so it was hardly awkward and besides I’m not an awkward person at all, during the whole session I was mildly waved as in I smoked 4 and I was still fine? As in?? 

However, as a team, we’d all appreciate if you could follow our podcast page on Twitter and us individually, any topics that you would like us to speak on please shoot your shot in our DMS we’re all open books and would like our voices heard, whether you agree or disagree with our opinions that is your own. 


Lastly, the biggest shoutout to @NK1STUDIO one of the main struggles we had was looking for a studio to record in, the prices I was seeing boy oh boy mi nuh tink suh, but I was scrolling through Twitter one day 3 months ago and they came up, affordable, reachable for all of us, boom shack a lacka slapped it in the group chat, everyone agreed on a date, payment succeeded, it was like planning a Thorpe park link-up but with us, everything went to plan.

Oh, also a 5-minute walk from Star Lane (DLR) & they literally have a pizza restaurant next door, like recording sessions + pizza+ 5-minute walk to the station= Heaven

AND the two people running it all are amazing, wish them all the success for 2020!

Moving on…


Since I started blogging I’ve been kind of nervous grabbing opportunities regarding blogging, most obvious reason my turn around time is slow not because of laziness but the thought process of how I’m going to piece everything together is very draining but it’s lowkey fun as well, but as 2020 is coming to a start in 5 days, I’ve grabbed two opportunities I’ll be writing a review for @Ts.cupcakes (T’s Cupcakes) it’ll be coming in January so keep an eye out.

I’ve also joined @RealTalkBlog18 as a guest writer so next year I’m looking to put out a lot more content on this platform as well as my own, I wanna do reviews also, I know my strengths and this year was not it, I know I can reach a bigger audience which I’m going to do, reach out to me if you want a blog written about any sort of business minus gossip I am not the sun newspaper nor am I UK TL TEA

I’m finally bringing this blog to an end, this year has been something a lot of learning curves that I need to incorporate into next year, I need to drop bad habits, maybe those will get dropped in 2021 who knows, I now know my strengths and I know I can go far if I continue to push myself, fuck other people no cap but no one can push where you want to go as hard as yourself, born alone and die alone if your friends jumped off a cliff would you? Might seem common to say no but there’s a lot of sheep around, some people can’t think for themselves let alone do anything without a backup dancer to help their already failed process, I started all my journeys on my own, no second opinions, I’ve had a lot of people in my past that think they know what’s best for me, but in true reality, I just turn off, I don’t want to hear what you have to say, anything I’ve got I’ve worked for it no shortcuts just a straight grind, 2020 is really another year, yeah a new decade faxx no printer bitch, but next year a bitch is going to be trying and succeeding, work in silence let success be your NOISE, I’m coming for everything, Health & Social Care NVQ level 2? I’m getting that next year, NVQ Level 3? Yes! Level 3 web & development? Hell yeah, 30k+ views on the podcast? Easy 30k+ views on my blog by 31st December 2020? Hard but not impossible, I have so many goals which for my own sanity I will not post all over socials, but when I hit them you will all know!


I’ve had a lot of favourite times this year but my ultimate times have been under the needle, not the surgery one please the tattoo one, I love my tattoo’s and the ones I’ve got this year, being in the tattoo studio I’ve been able to catch up on sleep, slap-up people on candy crush and enjoy the 0 tolerance of pain

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I’m so thankful for people who have walked into my life this year and made it even more fun than I was already having, having friends from all over is lit because I can move up and down this country without a care in the world, so grateful for the people that have left my life and that’s people that called themselves friends but true colours really showed when I was least expecting it but it’s cool, true colours were shown when people thought I was schleep I was alive and kicking during all of it, but like if you want to leave just pick up and go, don’t do this bitching shit because I promise you I don’t give a fuck, I’ll smoke a zoot and get over it in seconds, might find this moist me typing this, but some people think they’re so significant in your life when that ain’t even the truth


Thank you to everyone who still continues to read my blogs and gives feedback as and where possible, I’ve ghosted long enough and I can only come back harder no one can blog like Teek’s, and small shout out to my mum even though she’ll never read this which is good cause that Amsterdam trip red light district needs to stay under wraps, but sometimes my mum helps me with blog topics where I struggle she always says to give her credit so there is her crumb of credit. 


If you have any topics that you’d want me to talk on and give my own take then hit me the fuck up, my DMS are open!

Chase Lizzy until she chases you.


2020 is everyone’s year, you want something you get it, believe in yourself, promote yourself and most importantly network & I promise you, you’ll see the results! 

Last thing, a big FUCK YOU if you voted conservatives, and a big THANK YOU to those that voted labour, you’ll be granted a place in heaven and that’s on a G ting!


See y’all soon!

Teeks X

ZANTE 2019


In August 2019, me and 3 of my friends decided we needed a party holiday, so we all decided on Zante I can’t remember how we got to that decision but we did.

Y’all I was so excited about this holiday, I’m used to flying out yearly 1/2 times a year until I turned 18 my mum stopped paying y’all that hurt so much, but we move not every holiday must be family orientated sometimes with your friends, one day I might even fly out alone, because all this waiting on who’s coming, payments and stress, I’m actually not here for it at all, either say you’re coming and get your card details ready or move from me.

Personally, I dabble in and out of saying I’m coming to not coming because people annoy me, I’ll even be on my last full payment, one month away from the holiday and say I ain’t leaving, until it gets down to the last few days my excitement is extra, either be extra with me or leave me alone, I don’t like people who act excited than when it comes down to it they’re moving loose. 

We booked in October/November last year, and the last payments were April, I finished paying first because I just wanted it out of the way, then everyone else thereafter, I started doing my Summer shop in November I finished in March, I LIED MY FRIENDS INFLUENCED ME TO BUY MORE so…I finished 1 week before we flew out, I had a lot packed but I certainly had everything I needed, I changed up £453 roughly and got around 500 euros, so I took 515 euros with me, my friends took roughly the same.

So 16th June we all had taxi plans arranged cause we organised, ya feel me? Long story short we checked in, went through security, got to duty-free? Sweet 

Duty-free? Goodness me I have a love/hate relationship with it, one you can’t leave your baggage unattended I have to bring it EVERYWHERE, even toilet, bet y’all are asking what about your friends? Please, the heartbreak when I left my luggage with my friends while I went toilet I said “Save my seat, don’t let anyone sit there” I came back five minutes later, was my seat even available? One simple instruction. Two, duty-free is like Central London on a normal day, people don’t know how to walk, people will stop all of a sudden to check their phones, people and their fucking pullies OMG! I clipped a couple people walking, learn your lesson, KNOW WHERE YOU’RE GOING OR GET OUT THE WAY, three every purchase you make, you must have flight booking number at the ready, fuck sake even with a bottle of water.  

The only thing I could think about was a Classic English breakfast at spoons, we all got breakfast. please tell me why, while I’m sat with my hot chocolate one of my girls says “I need a bottle of wine’ in my head I was thinking “Nigga what? it’s 9am” I was all baffled but anyways she went ahead and bought it started chugging away, I tried small wine, DIRTY DIRTY NEVER AGAIN! Never again? Please, I downed some just to feel nice.




So I think we arrived in Zante for around 6:30/7pm, the heat as the doors opened? Hell, it was so hot and it wasn’t even midday, getting through Zante Security was a walk in the park, baggage collected, small disclaimer (We flew with Jet2, someone told me they were a good airline, whoever told me that is going to Hell, anyways our Jet2 holiday reps gave us a brochure of what to do on the Island, proper helpful) Our hotel was fifteen minutes from the airport? Clever right and two minutes from the main strip, so we stayed at ‘Alexander the great hotel’ Nothing great about it, but when I was on the coach I saw a hotel called exactly that but we drove past it???? Five minutes later we arrive at our ‘hotel’ bro the entrance didn’t even look like the pictures, unloaded all our luggage and went to check-in, hear me out I was saying to my friends ‘nah I don’t think this is the hotel’ only because the photo’s on the preview didn’t look like that, we met two girls out there, who was having the same thoughts, long story short it was our hotel, I checked google maps and new ‘updated’ photos. We checked in and they took our passports? The staff was like ‘Don’t worry we’ll look after it” so if a fire now burns the hotel you’ll still be looking after it? Fuck outta here. We had to wear these wrist bands on 24/7 to show we’re all-inclusive, Hotel lobby? Nice, the rest of the hotel? DEAD up, the money I spent on this 4* hotel rated 2*+ (TWO STAR PLUS) was ridiculous, personally, I want my money back.

Before I forget we had to pay a tourist fee, my head nearly fell in my hands, tourist fee? I’ve paid flight, hotel, exchanged my coins to yours and you want a tourist fee?

I paid for it, we move.

Hotel Chronicles 1.0

Listen to ME! This hotel yeah ‘ALEXANDER THE GREAT’ (Far from great)

I advise from the bottom of my heart don’t go, they’ll rip you off, please tell me why we had a stove in our room but no kettle, no pots and pans not like we needed it, we were all inclusive but like?? If we wanted iron? Pay, kettle? Pay, Ironing board? Pay



4 of us went away, quick maths two in each room, our rooms were right next to each other, perfect!


10 days, something always happened, shall we begin…

16th June: (The day we arrived)

We arrived, all freshened up, explored the hotel small and then went out to dinner, saw a fight on the night, front row seats loved it, the same bar we saw a fight outside of we literally went their most nights!


The strip in the day and night are the exact same, it’s so alive no matter time of day, maybe a bit annoying when you’re trying to sleep:( Be prepared for harassment though, I couldn’t tell you how many times I got stopped by promoters or even just regular lads, either to sell some sort of excursions, club tickets or even normal conversation sometimes I acted deaf because I CANNOT deal with it.

17th June:

I believe we all woke up pretty early, we got ready to a point to have breakfast together, (The hotel will be spoken about further down in the blog) We spent the day sunbathing and in and out of the pool, and lastly familiarising ourselves with our surroundings, we all got cocktails they were disgusting either watered down or just too much alcohol, it’s like they had no bartender skills:( We had dinner at the hotel, I swear to God what I ate that night I thought I was going to die, but I promise y’all at the end I’ll talk on the hotel, our neighbours and other stuff.

18th June:

Small Insight: when I left the UK, I was 21 when I returned I was still 21, unlike my friends they were 20 they returned and were 21! So we celebrated three birthday celebrations out there it was great.

Anyways back to it, two of my friends are twins so double celebrations.

I can’t remember what we did in the day at all.

We went on a night out, we went to a restaurant (Country steakhouse)  literally one second away from our hotel, then we went for shisha after (Garden of Eden) I was literally telling everyone it was their birthdays, we got money off the bill, half-price shisha, free shots on the house, we went to a bar called revs, the amount of alcohol I consumed that night, I was back in bed by 23:30pm, yes eleven-thirty you saw correctly, my friend kindly walked me back to the hotel, made me comfortable and then continued her night out, me I was comfortable but I was fucked, me I’m not a drinker anymore I stopped drinking properly at around 18/19, I used to love a good bottle of vodka sometimes no mixers just lean when I was a teenager, but now I absolutely hate it.

19th June:


20th June:

High key this was my favourite day of the entire trip, NO CAPIANA! This was our first sightseeing trip where we all decided to go to Kefalonia it was an all-day trip so it lasted around nine hours, Kefalonia is an island just off of Zante an hour and a half boat trip. 

I think we left the hotel at around 8am (ish) we were on the coach for around an hour to get to the pier, we had a tour guide and there were around 30 other tourists on the trip, the ferry journey was beautiful, I think the weather that day was 36°, we went to so many destinations that I’m just going to drop videos & pictures below, I’m that person that doesn’t miss anything because my phone is always out but I’m still in the moment always. 

When we returned around 9pm, we literally went back to the hotel, showered switched clothing and went out for dinner with the two girls we made friends with whilst we were out there, pretty sure we ordered the entire menu but our eyes were bigger than our bellies because their portion sizes are HUGE! Even the children’s meal looked massive, funny because I never saw any fat kids in Zante, not ONE!  

21st June 

We had had another pool day and just chilled.

22nd June

Another birthday, now I was flying back with all 21-year-olds, We spent a day in Zakynthos town so nice until we got bothered by beggars I’ve never grabbed my phone so fast to sit on it, one of the little peoples touched my hair, so I look like a museum?? Anyways we booked a restaurant that we already went to and when we went there they decorated it really nice for her, all my friends did a fireball tequila shot, me? Never me, I’ve seen them things go wrong and plus I don’t even like tequila and why would I want to swallow fire am I a dragon? This was the one night I promised my friends I’d stay out to a decent hour, my goal was 3am, I surpassed that and got back to the hotel at 6am, I was proud of me, even more, proud that I had around 9/10 drinks and felt absolutely fine in the morning!

23rd June 

I can’t remember this day at all, we literally just chilled. 


24th June 

We went out for breakfast because I think our insides would’ve killed us all if we went back to the hotel restaurant, everyone kept going on about Peri-peri heaven basically a fake Nando’s, people were saying they had good breakfast, we got there was they open though? We went someone else instead, someone on snap said my breakfast looked like it came from the can, it didn’t taste like the can food, MAYBE the presentation wasn’t Michelin star, that comment rattled my soul so no I won’t be posting what it looked like, that shall stay on my camera roll till death do us apart, after we spent the day at the beach, Mother Nature heckled my insides so much that I just sunbathed and watched my battery disperse, the beach was so nice you could go out at least half a mile and still be belly deep in water well from what I could see anywhere, I was sunbathing minding my business, those lookey men decided they wanted to ruin my peace very early and continuously, I told half of them to go away, but the continuous flow of them I gave up, one of them gave me a free bracelet till this day I haven’t taken it off because I CAN’T my man knew what he was doing you know, but now we’re friends forever. 


After a long day at the beach, my friends went on a night out, me? I stayed in due to continuous health issues, we went to the corner shop to buy alcohol instead I picked up one drink cause it looked nice, tasted like liquorice and ass even with sprite as a mixer it was disgusting! 


25th June 

Packing day, let’s be real I packed the Saturday before that, I was ready to go back home as in I couldn’t wait, we went out for our last meal then to bed cause that early morning wake up.


26th June

Hometime, check out was at 11am? 11am what kind of checkout time is that, we had a coach transfer at 3 we all said hell nah let’s get a taxi to the airport instead, we were waiting at the airport for over 8+ hours to get our flight, long story short we got back to the UK, I was so happy but landing I saw grey skies typical England couldn’t even be mad, I was speed walking through nothing to declare because the police looked on smoke and I was not, found the taxi got back and went bed. 

I’ve finally come to the end of my zante blog and I’m glad because I needed to vent a little bit, Zante has it’s good parts and it’s bad parts, I miss the weather, I miss some of the people on the strip who I made 10 day friendships with, I miss the scenery, I miss just chilling out because I really deserved that time to just relax and be in my own headspace.


I probably wouldn’t go to Zante ever again but it’s nice to say I’ve been, the experience was good while it lasted, if you’re a party person I’ll suggest to go here it’s like the island that never sleeps, I went to some good clubs, the vibes were lit, it’s not like England where clubs open at 8pm and shut at 5am, the strip was active from midnight all the way through to 8am the following day, some clubs wouldn’t open until 5am, there are clubs here for every type of person, you’ll be walking on the strip and probably get stopped every two seconds where promoters will approach you with a drinks deal, I heard some proper good deals one was €5 for 2 drinks and 2 shots, that was revs and we ended up in there nearly every night because we knew we could get the same deal over and over, the bar men were so lovely, I’ll give them that and their drinks weren’t watered down compared to other clubs, I’ll recommend Cherry bay as well, two of my friends met two Finnish girls and they got us into VIP in cherry bay which was great because I would’ve not to like to be on the dance floor with everyone else as it was packed and my oxygen levels probably would’ve decreased then I would’ve died, entrance was free maybe cause we were in vip and we didn’t pay for any drinks because we got little chips which were equivalent to money, I was drinking Malibu and pineapple all night, sipping other peoples drinks obviously I knew them they weren’t random lads drinks, I drank a few shots that we didn’t buy, we left cherry bay at around 3am ish who knows as soon as I came out the club it was like my vision didn’t want to cooperate with me anymore, I couldn’t see that well my vision went from 20/20 to 10/10. The strip was so alive, I saw Dappy! We went to another club called ‘zeros’ it should’ve been called ‘swimming pool’ instead, we got there and went straight to the bar, we were about to order when me and my friend got splashed yes splashed with water inside a club because there was a big fuck off puddle in the middle, people were dancing in it? Me? Hasta la vista, the toilets in the clubs were RANK🤮 I thought England was bad, it felt like I was in a crackheads house it just wasn’t nice at all, there would even be looky looky men inside the toilets with there possessions laid out ready to do up-selling techniques, I was like??? We went back out on to the strip for a while, talking to some lads, entertaining their madness, giving them confidence boosters to hit those punching bags on the strip, if you have me on snapchat and you were watching while I was out there you could tell it was just alive with a sound of music, all I could warn you on is the alcohol out there, some of it was tasting weird, people were getting spiked left, right and centre, I read up on Zante once I got back to read a few articles, and they pretty much said that the alcohol was mixed with other chemicals, but chemicals they’d give to animals and it’s not meant for human consumption

If you’re a party but also like doing excursions Zante is for you, however if you like doing excursions and relaxing then Kelaphonia is the place to be, and it’s somewhere I’d definitely look at going to again, 5-6 hours on that island wasn’t enough for me because it had so much history, so many tourist attractions that I would’ve liked to explore more, but one day Teeks you’ll go back ! 

Anyone looking to go to a party island I’d say 3, 5 or 7 days is a good choice but 10 is overdoing it, I was getting flustered quickly because there’s only so much partying I can do before I get bored, Zante is 70% boys and 30% girls that is my ratio because there was definitely more than the other, I could do adventures for days, partying is actually not part of my lifestyle anymore and Zante confirmed that Tenerife might bring it back a little though who knows! 

That was my second party holiday, all my holidays have been to the Caribbean, America, South America, France, Spain, Portugal, I want to explore more, the first three destinations are all family-related I’m extremely lucky to have family in those parts of the world because they’re extremely expensive but all I have to pay is for flights! I’ve always been a traveller, but I hate long flights I even complained about the 3hr 30 mins journey to Greece let alone the Caribbean, but if I want to see more of the world I just have to suck it up, flying doesn’t bother me in the slightest I’ll tell you what does bother me, turbulence, Satan 100% created that. 

Spending money I brought out €500 ending up taking out a further €150 towards the end of our trip because we had to keep eating out because the hotel food was SHIT! Some people brought out €1-€1.5k for a week but it really depends on what you want to do, there’s boat parties, excursions, quad bike hiring out which was €30-€40 euros a day, day parties, night parties, it really does add up, don’t forget to add in your drinks and food:( 

Zante cough is real guys, I’ve been coughing my guts up for nearly 3- 4 weeks now, don’t use their air-con you will end up like me SICK! They clearly don’t clean the air-con vents because I’m sure it was the dust particles flying around that made me this way, even some of the drinks out there bring self-destruction to your throat. 

The Hotel:


Honestly I have 0 words for this hotel apart from WHAT THE FUCK, the lobby was nice, everywhere else in that hotel was shit, I wouldn’t even want my worst enemy to go there (I have 0 enemies btw) but if I did I’d tell them to abort this hotel, our rooms were bog-standard, not worth my money at all, at one point we had an ant infestation in our bathroom, the shower would flood the bathroom because the water wouldn’t go down the drain quick enough, the tv ONE CHANNEL IN ENGLISH WHICH WAS THE NEWS, the cleaners would walk in whenever they felt like it, sometimes they wouldn’t even replace your towels, it was good that we brought our own but that’s not the point, is that not your job title? The hotel bar displayed about 60 different drinks and snacks but only had 5 drinks & 5 snacks in stock every day, these fucking frauds, alcohol was over poured, I know how to mix a drink and make it bang down my throat, these lot wanted to kill us, 3/4 of the glass alcohol then mixer??? ALL FAXXX NO PRINTER, don’t, believe me, I dare you, yeah you to go to this hotel. 


The food GOD FORBID, none of the food there could actually make up a meal, I love trying new food after that holiday I’m never doing it again, there was something that smelt really nice which was an artichoke one bite into it that shit should’ve choked me to death because of the flavours???? DUN OUT, anytime I ate at the hotel for lunch or dinner I literally had soup then went to the shop after, because the food was not for human consumption, the chef looked old as fuck, five days into my holiday a couple people that worked on the strip said that my hotel was known for food poisoning???? FIVE DAYS? 


That’s enough about Zante now, I’m finally back to blogging after taking three months out all for good reason, not because I lost my other twitter account honestly couldn’t care less, the person that hacked it could’ve at least given some free entertainment to us all, I’ve been working on something that will hopefully come to life in a few months maybe less, I’m back to stay now no more time offs, I’ve got some interesting topics that I NEED to talk about and give my take on, people have been messaging me constantly asking when I’m coming back to this life, back to life back to reality, I’ll probably try to do more of these travelling style blogs as I have one more holiday booked for this year, being Amsterdam I’ve always wanted to go.

I’ve been working on something and all I’m saying is:


Next year as follows: 






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I occasionally post on snapchat, but you’ll have to go on my Instagram to get it

I’m tired of typing now and I’m sure you’re all tired of reading, please keep a lookout on my Twitter because this is where I announce all my upcoming blogs! 

P.S: My mum told me not to do anything stupid while I was abroad, yeah I jumped off a balcony to get my friends garment I really didn’t realise how high up I was! 10/10 wouldn’t recommend.

Teeks X 


34756609_l-900x600On the 29th December 2018, my brother went to London to see a show but got denied access to a bar/club in Camden, the only reason I believe he got denied entrance was because of his race which is black.

I refuse to believe that he got denied on anything else, his dress sense was clean, what else could he possibly be refused for?

When he arrived home, you could tell he was more upset than annoyed his expression showed it all, I was just angry over what I was hearing, if I could’ve gone down to Camden on the same day I would’ve but it was midnight and small ole me what was I meant to do? I asked him what ethnicity were the bodyguards that denied him entry before he could reply I asked ” Were they Asian?” he nodded back to me!

Personally, to me, I think some Asians think they’re a peck above black people when really we’re all in the same boat, some Asians call black people ‘ Niggas or Nigg(ers) and vice versa ‘Paki’ Y’all thought I was going to be biased to suit an agenda? Absolutely not, I see and hear things with my own senses I ain’t about to lie for anyone, I’m definitely not about to protect my race either, this world is so fucked up, racism I’ve never understood it and don’t want to, how could you possibly hate someone on their skin colour, something that you can’t even pick, well to be honest you could probably pick with today’s scientists, those scientists are going straight to hell, messing with God’s creation, if I vomit.

Back to my previous point, black and Asians they’re both part of an ethnic MINORITY, no one is better than anyone, I wouldn’t have reacted how I did if it was by a white bodyguard this stuff happens all the time, but either way I would’ve come back and written a blog because this shit can’t run anymore, denying someone entrance over an aspect of their life they can’t control it’s ridiculous, it’s the same as denying someone access over sex, age or sexual preference, I honestly can’t believe the world I’m growing up in.

I’ve been clubbing in central a few times, the drink prices actually make me want to aggressively vomit, I’ve seen segregation of two separate queues it took me like five minutes to figure out actually what was going on, once figured out I knew central London was not a place for black people, separate queues, separate ticket prices between races, between black men and women, bodyguards look you up and down as if you’re a piece of meat and they’ll decide if you look good enough to be let in the club, Central London honestly I don’t have the fucking time, it’s the 21st century, not 19th, if you’re looking for a good time Shoreditch or Hoxton is the place to explore.

The UK urban scene is known as the epitome of multicultural Britain, we have a wide variety of music for example grime, garage, funky house, soca and reggae and so much more… 

The cultural domination is crazy, every weekend city to city we see how much black people influence the scene, from the clothes we wear to the dance moves we do, to the languages we speak yet we aren’t wanted in the clubs, hate to see it I really do because without us profits wouldn’t be made. 

In my opinion, I think clubs love off black people culture but they hate us, they want to play all our songs but not accept the same race in, that created them, all clubs care about now is profit, which is perfectly fine because they have to make a profit to stay afloat but does profit = discrimination? As in why do I witness two separate club prices for black and white people…£10 for white people, £20 for blacks but the hilarious thing about this is that there are black people out there that will happily get discriminated and pay extortionate prices to get in, and then later come to social media crying on their experience, oh but was you not enjoying while you were in there or? 

It’s also very embarrassing when I see black groups go clubbing together but see a few left out as half of them get in and the other half don’t, I find this so unacceptable do you stand for discrimination or do you not? Whewww chile, not my friends or they’ll soon know about themselves and that’s a promise, not a threat.

Do I look DSTRKT? 

It proper baffles me, when I used to go clubbing all I wanted to do was get drunk, have a good time and vibe with my friends, luckily where I live, I have no problems of getting into clubs/bars or pubs but Central London ‘Do I look DSTRKT enough? Do I have to be thick, slim thick or slim to get in? Do I have to be white or mixed raced to get in? Oh if I’m black should I go and join a separate queue? Ohh, black people look scary and intimidating, say swear down that’s what you people think? Does the colour of our skin mean troublesome? But if I’m white “Can I see your ID, and that’ll be £10 please” Oh but if you’re black  *Proceeds to look up and down* “Nah sorry you can’t come in” like what the fuck, sometimes I wonder how club owners sleep, probably from the profits they scrape in from two separate queues.

You can get denied for anything nowadays, from race, weight, ageism even sexism, some people will offer to spend ridiculous amounts in a club per night yet discrimination will override everything.

Where does ‘Do I look DSTRKT’ come from?

DSTRKT made headlines back in 2016 for their questionable door policies, but discrimination in the West End goes way beyond one incident.

On the night of 26th September 2016, a group of four women decided to go out in one of London’s well-known clubs ‘DSTRKT’ they had been invited by one of the promoters and added to the guest list. When the group arrived two of the ladies were told to stand across the road so a manager could see them, according to the manager one was ‘too dark’ and the other ‘too overweight’ Does this story sound familiar yet? This story went viral. 

A few days after another lady of the group posted screenshots of the conversation she had with one of the promoters, the promoter said “Only wanna let mixed raced people in” when interrogated further “I really care about the white crowd, the black crowd is a concern” On the night of September 29th crowds gathered outside DSTRKT claiming they received similar treatment and also supporting the girls denied access.

DSTRKT had two chances to speak up on the incidents but declined each advance, that screams guilty to me, people in the music industry declined? Guilty as fuck, night club ‘pRofFesSiONiLiSTs’ even declined, screams guilty and unprofessionalism to me, but what’s my own.

The word spread with a simple question “Do I look DSTRKT?”

Weirdly enough DSTRKT closed its doors last year due to a brawl with Albanians and a knife attack, whewww is that all it took to shut it down, but discrimination kept it alive and kicking.

Personally to me, clubbing has lost its value, take that how you please.

Imagine up until 1965 it was LEGAL to turn away black people from clubs or pubs simply because of the colour of their skin, just over 54 years ago it was all dandy to deny someone access to a public space over the colour of their skin, people keep saying to me “Racism won’t last forever” call me close-minded but racism will never ever end, not in this life or the next, there is too much hate in this world, too much greed and not enough love.

I believe racism exists due to jealousy, jealous of other cultures that are known to be better than others, jealousy that turns into fear, then fear into knowing someone’s culture is unknowingly better than your own, only way to end racism is to wipe out the entire human race, don’t even start it again just wipe it out and that is that. 

One day someone will press that red button, one day.

I asked a few people “Do you believe racism will ever end?”

Answer No.1


“100% no”

“As long as people believe their country is there’s, foreign people will never be accepted”

I agree, me? Born and bred in Britain, will I ever feel like Britain is home? Absolutely not, as soon as I have the financial stability I’m out I will go back to one of the mother islands where I’ll be appreciated.

Always those cunts with 4 teeth in their mouth that want to yelp and scream “GET OOT MI CANTRY” Alright Gary relax, let me set up base here first, let me squeeze every penny I can get here, then I’ll be on my way.

Answer No.2 

“Absolutely Not”

When asked why

“There’s several, mainly I think the fact that racism is embedded in people from their children, it’s hard to stop something that is taught to you from such a young age” 



I also agree believe it or not there are a lot of parents out there that embed racism into their kids, the kids will then think it’s normal to say racial slurs to opposing races, honestly, I find it disgusting and bad parenting. 

I agree everyone has a different mindset, free thinking is real but you must be tapped in the head if you think being discriminative is okay.

Discrimination: The unjust or prejudical treatment of different categories of people, especially on the grounds of race, age or sex.

The definition is straight from Beyonce’s internet so please fight them and not me.

Security guards make me laugh, like sorry guardian of the gate, you shall not be let in without my permission, o I lick the club owners ass, like imagine your job is basically licking ass, whew what an inspiration.

Racism is so casual now, especially on social media it’s so easy to have chest behind a screen but none, in reality, the tears really begin when you start finding where people work, educational facilities and anything else to teach them a lesson, once something is online it is here to stay forever, deleting something won’t save yer hating discrimination ass, a lot of racist people online and in reality need to learn a lesson, online anyone can pull up your details in an instant, personally any time I see a crumb of racism online I’ve switched apps to either Safari or Facebook, Facebook back in the day was that social site everyone jumped on, updating their jobs, education and so on. For me, Facebook died out a long time ago, but a lot of people still use it, putting every detail of their life on there.

I don’t care if you’re in your dream educational facility, I don’t care if you’re in your high-end job earning a sweet dollar if I see a slight bit of racism, or straight racism, I will find you and tear all your aspects apart, over the top? I think the fuck not, a lot of things way heavy on my heart and racism will always be there, being discriminative against someone especially on something they can’t change is utterly disgusting.

How do I know that?

Plain & simple I used to do it, but when I was very young, my whole friend’s list used to do it, adults, people my age, younger, but unlike others, I learnt my lesson, I wasn’t discriminative or racist of any sort but my statuses always used to rock a few souls. I didn’t tone it down I just stopped using it can’t rattle people if you don’t type anything. If you didn’t do any of that then wheww you’re cool then.


I don’t know how some people find it normal to say the term online, register it through their disobedient brain, but when a fire comes to deal with them they’re crying because their livelihood is at breaking point, boohoo bitch, play with fire get burnt.

And you embarrassing bandwagoners that stick up for racism instead of teaching someone right from wrong, you’re teaching racist behaviour as if it’s okay, more time the person sticking up for them is either the same colour as you or the opposite colour and should have zero say in the initial conversation, but hey freedom of speech right..

The people on this deep dark internet filled with more hate than love has taught me a lot and I love how much I learn from a new topic I decide to write on, in my opinion, I believe racism will never end, this world has too much segregation and not enough connection, think about it, people divide themselves over religion, race, land and so on, people judge so much and judging will never ever stop and until people learn this, there will be no moving forward, some people say social sites are like ‘one big group chat’ one big chat that like to argue constantly, the same old rinsed out topics, you could ask an honest question online and people will tear it apart without any consideration of what you initially meant, even though a few opinions I see online just plain fuckinnn stewpid asking for backlash, if I’m being honest.

I will never get my head around how you can hate on a colour, I will never understand how you can hate on someone over their religious beliefs, how you can hate on someone’s sexual preference, how you can hate on anything that has nothing to do with you, but this world was built on a divide but made with love from our creator.


You can only learn if you choose to listen and debate properly without patronizing the opposing parties, I realised a long time ago a lot of people on the internet just know how to argue, some people can’t hold simple debate not even question time on BBC1, some people I’ve seen on that show sound like cats scrapping, these people go from A-Z real quick, finished the ‘debate’ before I even reach counting to three. Simple exchange opinions and you peep the replies on social media you have people jumping down your throat, debate on TV its people yelling back and forth, get a grip can you not debate without screaming or shoving four points of your opinion down someone’s throat before they’ve even grasped the question or even radio some of the people that call in, NO MANNERS, if I worked on radio and someone started sorry your *ring ring* will get declined.

I’m being my version of real.

Some of y’all thinking heaven is going to be your destination when it’ll be hell.

This is only a short blog, due to my recent Twitter account being hacked, I was bamboozled, I lost a lot of messages that would’ve helped me write this so much better, I lost a lot of my blogging audience but hopefully, I can find my initial audience and continue to build from there.

If you’re new rider or true rider for my blogs, I’ve written something similar to this but in greater detail, please check it out!

‘Colourism, racism & discrimination’

2019, I continue to move more efficiently

Teeks X 



img_6256I’m going to be discussing someone very controversial throughout this blog and since I don’t want to be sued, for defamation of character throughout this blog we will refer to the alias as Ghost Wanks.

I didn’t know Ghost in person but I referred to him as a very good friend, not someone I just interacted with on the Twitter TL, but someone I spoke to, confided in and most importantly he was someone I trusted, you must be thinking “How can you trust someone you don’t know?” Personally, I felt good vibes towards him, he just seemed like someone who supported people endlessly, little did I know this would spin round and bite me back!

When the allegations first came out, I only saw a few tweets but I messaged him straight away, peep the message below (12th February 23:02)

img_6178img_6179Delusional I know, but I was only a few tweets in, I saw the whole Spotify thread and I called bullshit straight away, I don’t care about no verification tick, anyone can chat shit, Lord knows how wrong I was, I stayed silent on the TL for 3 days, I defended him to someone on the TL on the first day, after that I left it and scanned, I was waiting for his known friends to speak out first, I knew who he did and didn’t chat too, the wait didn’t take too long well 3 days, a lot of the tweets were entertaining then the truth started to evolve and develop, I had to kick myself and just wake up, I saw threads from his old friends surface and that’s when I figured out not every story needs two sides, it was very clear how many people he scammed, sweet talked, Ghost knows how to articulate what he says, he just makes everything he does believable, I never knew my eyes could become fumbled so quickly, people that thought they were friends with this scammer SPOKE, and that was the only evidence I needed. Two sides to every story? Fuck off. 

(17th February 13:28) I received a call from a number I didn’t recognise, missed it twice cause my phone is always on do not disturb, I called back since it was a bit weird someone having my number and I didn’t know about it, fast forward I called back and of course the scammer picked up, I heard him speak and instantly replied “what” he said he saw my message previously and it made him ‘think’ and that he was going to go live on Instagram live ( Remember this bit of information) I said you have 10 hours to go live and tell your story,  if nothing makes sense then we will no longer be friends. 

Bit contradictive Teeks, first there are not two sides, then you’re allowing him to speak…


So 8pm like he said he’d go live, this piece of shit couldn’t even stay on script, he went live at 8:08pm, a whole 8 minutes later. Ghost tweeted “Ghostbanks, 8pm my Instagram” Everyone saw his followers rack up, 300 followers in a few minutes, fucking ridiculous, when I tell you everyone was in that live, 4.3k +, I kid you the fuck not, he explained fuck all in two hours, nothing was addressed, the number of people that joined, left due to apparent bad connection, we all knew it was his connection moving all Higga hagga, we had a few known names in there, if you were active you’d know who I’m talking about, if you weren’t shamed on you. 

I must’ve seen like 5-6 people join that live with him, whether they were involved or asking clear questions so he could answer, no one was in their, longer than five minutes, how can my guy say ‘shut up’ when people were below typing? Make it make sense.

What was addressed: 




What wasn’t addressed: 


MDV ( Maniere De voir) ❌

Spotify ❌

Sterling Awards❌


As in he had small chat for a few, but he was stuttering everywhere, durag tied on wrong, fake MDV tracksuit on the live, mouth for some and not others, no remorse, just a guy that thinks he’s always fucking right. 

The lived ended around 10:30 (ish) from around 10:35pm (ish) onwards I joined around 5 more lives regarding the whole situation, twice throughout the live I messaged him “you’re actually taking the piss now” & “answer the questions you’re making this worst for yourself” he ignored all signs, ALL SIGNS WERE VOIDED. 

I rang him after the live on the trillionth number I had from him, I was livid, we were on the call for 30 minutes, I was angry but my voice didn’t show it, he said something along the lines off ‘See Teeks this is why I can talk to you because you’re not shouting’ lol who’s going to be shouting at minutes to midnight though?? 30 minutes of talking I cut him off, it was just a flurry of the same shit going around my head it didn’t help that he tried to call me out in that live either, it was getting me angrier, my final form of anger reached, I had to write a final message 


The final message.


Harsh or the honest truth? Who cares it’s sent now.

Now let’s get into some scandals…

Sauce control, someone explain to me what that platform was meant to be used for, because I was in sauce control for two days, not even that, that platform sunk quicker than the Titanic, I can’t even remember why I joined in the first place, I left because my blog was a priority and I’m not trying to build for someone else when they insinuated they had all the right resources, lol bye hun. 

‘SaUcE CoNtrOL’ what sauce was you meant to be controlling with your bought followers? 

Grenfell Tower, don’t piss me the fuck off, hopefully, everyone knows about Grenfell and what went on, the truth, the lies, if you don’t click here ‘The Grenfell Inferno‘ get familiar, Ghost Wanks supposedly wanted to put on a show and he stated that all proceedings would go to the Grenfell victims, nearly two years later WHERE IS THE MONEY THOUGH? Y’all he must’ve thought we forgot.

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Make it make sense Julian.

Ghost claimed to know all these big artists, he claimed they were all backing him with this, he definitely got gassed and went back to his sauce control team and told them all to create artwork for this event, told them all this tripe for the money to go walkabout? Right ok. 


The artwork is crisp, but deep what’s on it, I know damn well these artists didn’t agree to this, all those sponsors EVERYONE ACTIVE? How the fuck on God’s green earth did you manage to get a sports management company to support this? Mixtape madness? Next! The only sponsor that should be on there is ‘Sauce control’ God forbid

Now we all know that money got banked or he sent it back to someone that he owed money too, it’s the only way.

Either way that money did 100% did not go to where it was meant too. 

People died, kids, adults, families, that death count they keep trying to force on the public isn’t real no fucking way did only 72 people die. this was worldwide news for fuck sake the one night I’ll never forget (14th June 2017

Out of all the scandals that reached national news with Grenfell this one topped it all!


Regards to the Sauce Control team at the time, if I was you don’t feel disheartened because if a man like Ghost Wanks was telling me all these big names was going to be at a tribute concert, honest to God I would’ve jumped at the chance to be involved too, but like I said I wasn’t dropping my grind to help his.

MDV (Maniere De Voir)

Ghost Wanks has told so many separate stories about this brand, I’m surprised it didn’t come to light earlier, personally, he told me was CEO, he told others brand director/ creative director, like if you’re going to lie at least stick to one role, CEO or creative director, what do you draw or sew the garms together which one?



All this promotion for a company you don’t own, nor have any legal ties too, the cheek.


Who saw Reece Wabara (CEO of MDV) join the live? Cause I did, actually I’m sure everyone saw what he put too, and of course, wanks blocked him and then MDV’s account joined and told us Reece had been blocked, sticky one.


I don’t know how you can block the real CEO and thinking everything could carry on being cool, looooool are you a cunt?

How can you block someone because they said they’ve never affiliated with you before? Out here swiping businesses and claiming as your own, you sick bastard!

I really pray to the almighty God that MDV sue, the same way Mr Wanks thinks he can finesse money, MDV will put his account into minus figures.

MDV fully stated “Please remove our content from your highlights” This guy did a photoshoot with MDV clothes, real, fake most probably fake and posted it on his highlights as if he’s photography director, even did a whole competition??? And gave away ‘eXCluSIve’ clothing? Alright, hun.


Never been affiliated with you bro.


This text message is so fucking fake, if you associated with Ghost you’d know damn well my guy didn’t have just one number, not one, not two but THOUSANDS! This guy had so many fucking numbers, you were never a businessman, not even a trapper and his numbers changed like every few weeks, it’s very easy to fabricate a text message.


Spotify said they don’t know you bro

Spotify Curator?? They don’t know you bro




Austin Darbo- Head of music culture & editorial UK @Spotify don’t know you, bro.


The sterling awards in partnership with Youtube???? The first creatives award show??? Sounded believable right, black cards that can get you into any Ghost Wanks event? Seems certified, seems fuckinnn sick mate. anyways time to cut the bullshit.

Anyone got these? Everyone must have got these, the man was just sending designs everywhere.

Who got these photos as well? The house where the event was meant to be held, Wanks told me this is in London, where tho? My first guess was Hampstead Heath, it’s not Hampstead Heath, these pictures must be from right move located in Cheshire or something!

I got told so much about this event, caterers apparently costing £12k, what was they meant to be serving? Cavier and cream cheese, he was just announcing prices with all these K’s at the end, Wanks said ‘Black tie event’ Wanks said that every person invited had to have a date, and they were allowed 10 extra people as the entourage, the man said red carpet, photographers would be active, he was really selling this event, yet he said his team wasn’t up to par and wanted me to invest, straight up I said “nah man I’m good still’ me and money we don’t ramp bye man.


  I’m pretty sure this event was meant to have a launch party 31st December 2018, where’d that go? Ha, I didn’t forget.

Isn’t Sterling Awards meant to go live in Spring 2019? Ha I didn’t forget

In our last phone call, Wanks said he’s going to bring the ‘Sterling awards’ to America, sorry but when he announced that I was screaming, bro you got called out on Instagram live by various people, your comment section was doing skdidididipapapapap, you had smoke for some and not others, you can’t answer direct questions, you can’t sing or rap, so I don’t know where you found courage to give people advice on their music abilities, you know fuck all about the music industry here so Americans definitely won’t take you seriously, America has the Grammys, what the fuck is the sterling awards going to do? 


I don’t even need to talk on this one, we know damn well he ain’t partnered with Youtube.




Creatives…Whichever category you fall under…

Don’t let a guy with thousands of Twitter followers and only 59 followers on Spotify influence you how to share your creative journey, especially music this guy tried to hop on the same wave as some of you lot and he didn’t get far at all, working for Spotify fuck off, can’t come and embarrass a platform when your own shit ain’t doing numbers, wave-like me is either Autotuned to a T or he just woke up and started singing /rapping I don’t know what the fuck that was, I vibed to it when it came out I can’t lie but listen to it back a few times you should know what I mean. I mean all these followers, claiming you work for Spotify but your shit, you couldn’t promote your own music but you wanted to be out here creating playlists, fuck outta here man. I stopped debating with this guy on Twitter about music a long time ago, he just wouldn’t take any other opinion on board, I don’t like mixing with people too tough who think they’re always right, that’s not someone who I’d have critiquing my music freely and telling me how and where to promote my music, the numbers I was seeing for a quick promotion was crazy.


These prices are blown out of proportion, you see how everyone says ‘This London is so small’ or ‘The UK is so small’ if the UK is so small why are you going to someone to promote for you, surely if you believe in your own material you’d go to lengths to make sure your shit is POPPIN! Some of you see ‘Spotify’ and think just because it’s a huge platform the numbers will follow, you see radio and think worldwide, youtube and start thinking visuals, first of all, do your research, who’s paying for Spotify, unless you’re a premium customer, no one uses facebook who wants that apart of a package, you can pay for your own Instagram services, Twitter is powerful on it’s own, why would you pay for that? Promotions on Twitter 100% don’t work, I see people pay for them all the time expecting results, I see one retweet on promoted tweets all the time, it’s more powerful to send a Direct Message, retweeting is more powerful, simple like, we create our own timelines, what we choose to look at, reply back too, retweet and so on, you think I’d spend £1.5k on shit I can do myself?? Paying for all of this means you want to run to the top of your game before you’ve even started, you want fast results, fast results?? You’ll trip before you get to the top and that’s because you’ve found yourself sprinting before your time.

Ghost’s marketing strategies were ridiculous all he’d do is get people on the same level as followers as him, set a certain time for everyone to drop and that’d be it, marketing done, you’d literally get your music or whatever craft you have supported by other known Twitter bait heads…£500 if I vomit.

£1500 for promotions you can do on your own.


I’m not sorry but this shit ain’t believable, in realistic terms who is paying for an interview the public either like you or they don’t, who’s paying for a portfolio, paying for some anybody to promote on Instagram, who is promoting it, P. Diddy? Freestyle with mixtape madness? loooool comical, exclusive interviews Capital 1xtra as one??? Right, even the social marketing posts from ‘Imjustbait’ etc doesn’t make sense, why are you going through someone else to get someone else to post for you??? Logic just doesn’t seem correct.

Creatives you’re better than this! 


Mixtape madness? They don’t fuck with you and if they did they never will again.



Know who you’re fucking with, money is hard to come by, his name is literally Ghost Banks, his name finally makes sense, Ghosts then Banks your money.

I’ve had people in my DM’s, texting, calling me at ungodly hours, Godly hours asking me where he is, saying he’s putting the phone down


What’s this bro? 

Ghost called me one day talking about a Macbook and asked me if I wanted to purchase one for him on credit and he’ll send me the money, FAM WHY ASK ME TO PURCHASE SOMETHING ON CREDIT IF YOU ALREADY HAVE THE MONEY? That’s how I knew this guy has shit credit, I said straight up no, he was sending me to Apple’s website telling me what he wanted, that’s all dandy brudda but my credit ain’t gonna lack because of you.


Most of the message was on a phone call, that’s why I have hardly any more evidence to show, I would’ve called my phone provider to get the rest of the conversation but I don’t know which sim this was attached too and if you know me I had 6 other numbers, not to scam people though.


Ghost was always dealing with something, I ain’t going to disregard it, he probably was, probably laundering money about, probably to scam more people, my head would be hot too if people were ringing, texting me about things that have been promised and finalised when really all your doing is pocketing the money. 

In regards to this message how else was I meant to reply, I told him a few days before my mental health wasn’t at a good level, he told me to ring him I did, and a few minutes into the conversation I said I don’t want to talk about it anymore, deep this reply, my mental health was on the fucking ground.


Uneasy? Energy off, my energy ain’t going to be 1hunna.

Mental health is something I speak on all the time, he even spoke about it all the time, don’t offer a phone call if you’re going to make someone feel worse.

The Victims

I tried hard to get some legal advice, I was emailing companies back and forth for advice, thankfully one got back to me, the advice is free but of course, the fees for the court are not, it’s really up to you if you want to bring Mr Wanks to court or not, personally if you got scammed for 100s or even 1000s, if you have a mark on your account for him, I’d go court but fortunately in Ghost’s world he scammed me for a tenner which was meant to go towards Grenfell, but I didn’t send him anything I asked for receipts man was moving edgy.


No word of a lie, take action or this can happen again.

Can’t afford legal fees, I get it this shit ain’t cheap

Just share the blog, the more people that know, the fewer people he’ll fuck with!

Do you know how easy it is to change your name?

Change your appearance?

But guilt can never change who you are as a person.

His name ain’t even Ghost Wanks it’s Julian, how can you get ghost from Julian, letters ain’t even close in the alphabet.

How can I get Teeks from Tyr… At least my letters are the same, I didn’t go from T to Z.


Ghost’s time is up whether he likes it or not, he could’ve saved a bit of his sanity in that live if he just owned up to wrongdoings, but instead, he chose to lie more, lying is a choice no one forced him to lie like that, I always got told growing up “The truth might hurt but a lie hurts more” and it’s so fucking true, even if he told the truth he’s still lost everything, but at least you wouldn’t have so much guilt weighing in on you. 

I don’t understand how someone can be in the wrong but arguing with people on Instagram live at your big age of  23/24

I really hope whoever got victimized, used, scammed/frauded can finally open their eyes and eventually get some money back, looking back at all this evidence from here and the timeline, Wanks was shit at what he did, he believed his vision so much he made us believe it too, scroll up read all this information again, it actually makes 0 sense, well it makes sense cause I’m typing it but what he said actually didn’t make sense, break it down. 

We actually got duped, he articulates whatever he says so well, I ain’t gonna lie I believed it all too down to his last days when it all came alive on Twitter, 3 days of silence just watching and waiting.

Watching & waiting helped a lot, gather evidence, suck it all in and execute it.

I wish I spotted everything earlier, I wish I believed when everyone else did, the red flags were there nice and clear but I skrrrrred them.

No regrets though or this situation would’ve never come to light🌕

We live & Learn

No regrets

Teeks X



Back with another blog with a twist, I’ve decided I’m going to do a blog to help out the makeup amateurs, the ones in the middle and the highest up! And also you skincare lovers  I got products for you too.

Before we begin, I just want to let everyone know that this blog is for everyone, men/women every single shade of skin tone there is out there, men don’t be discouraged because even if you don’t wear makeup, your other half could,  sister, the mother even brother, I’m not a makeup professionalist and quite frankly wouldn’t want to be, but I’m learning and I want to bring everyone in, if you wanna save money buying products, then I can confirm you are at the right blog, wanna spend big amounts but still wanna have a lot to show for it? I can confirm you’re in good hands, either way, if you clicked this blog you’re at the right place.

Back in the day when I was in school I was so shit at makeup, and the products I used to use I thank God I didn’t get acne or any skin problems due to all the heavy shit I used to put on my face, been quite lucky to have skin with no issues, maybe a few marks here and there  and moles but nevertheless my skin is perfect, my undertones, everything is just good. 

From school to my now everyday life of me waking up early for work etc, I really don’t have time for makeup at all, and I’ll never understand how I had time for it back then.

Anyways enough chit chat, I’m purely writing a blog based around makeup & skincare because over the past two years I have been buying makeup consistently and I mean every month I’d spend around £150 – £200 on products, I’d constantly post what I ordered on my Snapchat and Instagram because I always get overly excited when an order for me comes through the post, except with Hermes I’ll find my parcel everywhere but my house, but that’s a conversation for another day… 

I always get questions on how I purchase items, where I buy, I get compliments on the stuff I buy THE STUFF I BUY not me personally, but all my palettes are bouji so the compliments are appreciated, I’ll be dropping links of the websites I use and the deals that are available, me? I love a sale but I don’t mind buying items full priced either. 

I’m one of those people that you’ll find on page 50 of google trying to find something new, or I’ll go through every website separately, I don’t buy items straight away because I know if I can get a better deal I will purchase it through them, but if there’s no free delivery after I’ve spent £50+ then soz hun I’ll stick with the more expensive price and free delivery, it’s just the way the cookie crumbles. 

Let’s jump straight into it, so I really only shop off of two websites when I buy makeup which are: 

Beauty bay (SHOCK HORROR) 

Fragrance Direct 

I also shop in store but very rarely, I don’t really shop in store for anything unless I’m in a rush and need it ASAP, so the in-store shops I use is just the basics boots & super-drugs, super drugs is actually a scam, pick up 3 items and the cashier will calmly say £63.99, like sometimes I don’t even let them say the price or look at the till, Apple Pay comes out, quick tappity slap, grab my items and go, fuck the receipt. 


 How do you purchase your makeup? 

Very simply, I bulk buy from fragrance direct, things like foundation (Rimmel) Mascara (W7 or Rimmel) Bronzer, lip glosses

It seems crazy right, bulk buying makeup but it serves its purpose in the long run and I don’t do it often either because I expect my products to last very well. In my bulk buys depending on the deals I buy 10 Rimmel foundations, the Rimmel ones to me are my cheap go to makeup, if I have time before work I’ll slap it on, or even going out quickly, I buy 5 W7 or Rimmel mascara’s, and about five lipglosses all different shades, all in all I spend about £40 maybe a bit more because they don’t just sell makeup, they do fragrances, hair, body, face etc, you’ll sit there evaluating the price thinking why is it so cheap on here but expensive elsewhere, I can promise you it’s all real, just need to learn where and how to shop, if I can get something cheaper I will. 

Fragrance direct have so many deals, so many discount codes you can use on your order, you qualify for free delivery once you’ve spent over £20, they do amazing deals for example they do:

‘Buy any 5 and get the cheapest one free’

‘Buy 5 for 4’

‘Spend £50 and get 10% off’

Beauty bay is my top lover, that’s where all my big purchases end up being, I can buy palette after palette, make up brushes galore, but how do I really shop in beauty bay?? The question I love to answer, I go straight into makeup then into sets, honestly I don’t have time to be buying one lipgloss when I can buy the whole set, one highlighter when I can buy the whole collection, one brush, when I can buy a 25 piece set for £20, all this singular buying shopping in makeup is NOT for me, I really don’t have the time because I get frustrated so easily makes me want to scream sometimes, and I dip in and out of the outlet because you always find money off items you wanted for time but too stubborn to buy! There are so many products I’ve bought full priced then get an email the next day saying they’ve got 50% off, every time this happens I’m fuming because it happens every time I buy something, how coincidental❌

I feel the beauty bays pricing range is from affordable to OMG this shit is expensive! Sometimes I see products and I’m like ‘ew this stuff is cheap, do I really wanna put it on my face’ but I’m just ignorant as fuck, I buy some cheap ranges to test and try out but I can’t lie I give most of it away, mainly due to me not liking it, I give away makeup like I do sweets, joss take it and go aweh. 

Let’s be hella real, I give away expensive makeup away too, people are like “wHy DoN’t yOU JuST SEll iT” Personally I’m lazy I don’t have time nor patience to put listings up on eBay or Facebook, all people do on eBay is pree your product click the watch button to get you all hyped because you think someone is going to buy it, you get those cheap asses trying to get you to lower the price, bitch get your money up, Facebook I honestly do not have patience, so I’d rather give it away, I’ve given away Fenty Foundation, it was way too dark for my skin tone, when it oxidised and dried it was a wrap because it looked like I just returned from the Caribbean, I’ve given away Anatasia Beverley Hills eyebrow pomade, I simply got the wrong colour, Milani pomade, sigh that was also the wrong colour, can you see the pattern? Morphe eyeshadow kits, I really used to love morphe but the fall out is ridiculous and the palettes I had I really loved the colours to begin with then after a while I just stared at it for time, you know how you look at a photo before you upload it and after a while you’re like ‘NAH MAN’ that was me with morphe so I gave away like 3 big palettes and please I NEVER give away palettes with half of the product missing, I’m highly generous to what I give, but more time if I say do you want… Take it or it’ll sit on my makeup shelf for months.

Sigh, I’m getting tired of typing, bet Y’all are getting tired of reading eyy? Keep your eyes peeled because I’m about to drop some dope palettes, highlighters, lip glosses, one cheeky lipstick, skin care products, it finna be lit in this bihhh.

img_5599.jpgListen I queued up for three hours outside Harvey Nichols, 4 weeks after the launch date, I expected 0 queuing but there I was with my friend, out in the rain talking to random people giving each other motivation speeches saying we will get to the front, I got in before my friend, did I wait? Hell nah, I walked in without her, pretty much finished my purchase by the time she walked in, but I walked out with Fenty foundation (KMFT) and my number 1 lover Trophy wife highlighter, look at that sparkle! £28 was well worth my coins and even yours.

Beauty Bakerie all their products are the bomb, whoever is on the creative team just know you’re doing great hun, the packaging is ELITE! If you’ve never heard of beauty bakerie I suggest you learn today, this highlighter makes me shine like the star I am. Beauty Bakerie is highly inclusive, and also cruelty-free.

Beauty Bakerie Illuminator (Glistened) 

Beauty Bakerie blending eggs, as you can clearly see there are six blending eggs, one already used 📌 When I use any blending egg I wet them, then squeeze out the remaining water, leave it and watch it expand for two seconds, so much easier to use plus your face will be streak free and dewy.

In my opinion, these are 10X better than real techniques blending eggs, do the maths a 4 pack of real technique eggs are £18, but beauty bakerie have 6, cheaper price, the packaging is very enticing.

Blending Eggs RRP £16.50 

Beauty Bakerie Lip scrub, Highly recommended! It’s edible literally taste so so good, I put this on when I’m fresh out the shower waking up or going to sleep, only use a little bit on the tip on my finger and rub it into my lips, usually in a circular motion, it removes dead skin cells or even wear it before you apply any lip products it will prolong wear time.

Lip Scrub £10


So I have all three of the colour Theory forty-two shade palettes, they’re all beautiful in their own way, you see me I love shimmers and each palette I got has at least 5- 10 shimmers in.

There’s also a going out-out palette

All the 42 shade palettes are £25 each, I bought all mine full price then a few weeks later they went down to £17.50 so if you want one with a lower price just keep checking in and out and I promise you, your time will come. If you’re impatient like me and want to try it out ASAP purchase it and give me your review because I promise you this will be one of your best palettes. 

Each palette has a different name:







Going out out 

If you’re not a bad bitch already like moi, the going out-out palette will make you that bitch! Turn yo self into thotiana!


Y’all think I’m done with Beauty Bay hell no, Beauty Bay X Jordan Lipscombe, that’s what you call a COLLABORATION!

I couldn’t help myself I bought the whole set (three palettes) for £30 on sale, what a bargain, normally they’re £50 for three or £20 for one. 

Let’s have a look at these lil palettes then:

I’m still yet to try these shades but I’ve swatched some of the colours I know this will be a palette I’ll use then give away because some of the colours I’m not sure if they’ll go nicely with my skin tone, but I can always try so who knows this could be a keep or flog.

Okay, let’s swiftly move on…


Anastasia Beverley Hill Glow Kit £46

This isn’t a cheap palette to me rather expensive I gripped my chest confirming the purchase with this included, but the metallic glow shades make my face every time I apply this, especially with the natural glow of sunlight gleaming through your window, I apply this on my cheekbones or when I get carried away all over my body, I honestly don’t have a favourite shade, the fall out of this palette is something else I always feel like I’m cleaning around it. Besides the pigments are so strong, the colours can certainly suit all skin tones no cap.

Is that Jeffree star? It is indeed! If you know the history behind Jeffree then you probably sighed at seeing his highlighter, is Jeffree he/she I don’t know, doesn’t even identify as a gender, the main matter is Jeffree is known for racism towards the black community, How did I know this my best friend told me as she bought me this for my 19th birthday, I’ve done little research here and there but I can’t excuse the fact that the makeup line is FIRE! This highlight compliments my skin so well, there are so many makeup brands that are racist yet we still wear them, will I buy Jeffree Star? Yeah, I would, his whole beauty line bangs.

Skin Frost – Sarcophagus: Currently sold out 


101% I’m obsessed with highlighters, anything to make my skin glow! This is the Zoeva plasir spice of life highlight set, you see how I say SET a lot, I ain’t no singular buying regular shmegular female, take my coins have them! 

Fun fact: I thought zoeva was Zoella’s brand right at the start, they both start with Zoe, easy mistake❌


I don’t like zoella at all, buy me zoella makeup I will sell it on eBay same day, whoever buys it from me I promise you boo boo you’ll get that shit same day if anyone saw Zoella’s advent calendar yeah, kmt that shit was AWFUL, stick to being a Youtuber love, don’t come and ruin the makeup industry.


ZOEVA plasir Highlight set spice of life edition – £31


The palettes I was in love with Juvia Place, the packaging, art, colours everything is perfect with these palettes, they’re cheap as well, between £20 – £30 you can clearly tell which palettes I’ve touched and haven’t😂😂 I’ve really abandoned these.

I only have five palettes which are:

The Zulu by Juvia’s £20

The Douce By Juvia’s £20

The Festival by Juvia’s £20

The Saharian II by Juvia’s £20

The masquerade mini by Juvia’s £30

Sunkissed shimmer, this shimmer will knock you the fuck out, you and the sun would end up competing with who’s brighter, but the price is a sweet one.

Sunkissed shimmer £2.99

Revolution, the copycats of the makeup game, Y’all ain’t slick at all. 

I decided to try the revolution liquid highlighter before I bought the cover FX one, of course, the two highlighters look exactly the same, but clearly, ones cheaper I tried this one, the texture is complete bollocks, I literally gave two away straight away, that’s why sometimes I don’t like buying cheap makeup, this stuff didn’t even get a chance to touch my face, quick squirt on my hand little rub in, analysed it “nah ain’t for me still”  

Revolution Liquid Highlighter £6

I love a good lip gloss, especially if it shimmers, shit I just love to sparkle, Ashely Tisdale has her own range of lip gloss, as in sharpay from High school musical she did that, these lipgloss tints are dreamy. 

Illuminate by Ashely Tisdale Enhancing Lip Gloss £2.70 

Shout out my one of my best friends for buying this for me, 25/12/18 from this day forward my lips just looked like sex, this isn’t lip topper you can let any man kiss off have some respect for the expense on your lips.

Rose gold collection long wear lip topper molten gold £13.50

The balm – Plump your pucker 

The set I bought is no longer available on beauty bay and did you see that SET, anyways long story short I believe I purchased these before Christmas, I really needed some lip glosses I DIDN’T REALISE THEY WERE LITERALLY LIP PLUMPERS. it’s literally in the name but when they arrived at my ‘house’ or did they, Hermes?  When they arrived I wore one of them and my lips started tingling I was like “Ight den this is weird lipgloss” until I checked the packaging, I don’t know how I didn’t realise because it even says, another dumb Teeks moment.

My lips are big enough for me, all that unnecessary tingling ain’t for me.

They have nice shades though, they have singular ones on beauty bay.

Plump your pucker £6.50


L.A Girl gloss topper £5

I saw this before I completed my order and grabbed it, I love it, keeps your lips moisturized too.

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I’m sure you can exactly see what this is, if you can’t it’s a penis lipstick, the veins, tip everything, I never bought this the same best friend that I’ve mentioned she bought it, I think I got this on the 18th birthday so nearly 3 years ago, I haven’t used it, it’s too beautiful to look at, I’m not sure on pricing but feel free to get your own.

These are the foundations I use including Rimmel Perfect Match and of course I use L.A girl concealer.

Makeup forever is my expensive foundation (R530) as in I went to get a colour match, as in I went all the way to Westfield white city for colour match, then smoked a joint after because that was hard work, this oxidises so well on my skin, you only really need about 4 drops on a wet beauty blender, it blends well, no streaks after, perfection.

L.A Girl pro coverage (Toast & Warm Caramel) I’ve only used it about five times, I got two different colours as I have yellow undertones, it works let me tell you that for free.

Rimmel perfect match foundation (Deep Mocha) I use this foundation just for work or if I’m going somewhere very quickly, this also works but I find I have to set it very well or I just see prints on my clothes, most of my clothes are FUCKING WHITE, do you see the problem? 

L.A pro concealer(Fawn) Whoever created these congratulations one of the only concealers I’ve used and now I don’t even want to try any other brands.

Makeup forever ‘Matte velvet’ £31

Pro coverage HD long wear illuminating liquid foundation £10

Rimmel Match perfect foundation  £4.49

L.A Girl PRO conceal HD £5


Mario Badescu I love this brand, I’m saying I love the whole brand as if I’ve purchased everything from here just the facial mists that rejuvenate my face after each spray, just purchase the 236ml bottle.  

Revolution, I needed something quick but it works!

Mario Badescu facial spray £7-£11

Revolution Hydraulic fixing spray £6

Sascha Buttercup Setting Powder £24.95

One of the best setting powders EVER! Well worth your money.


Let me emphasise something I buy brushes in SETS not singulars I don’t have time to scan every single brand and why would you buy a singular brush when you can buy a whole SET for a singular brush price If I vomit.

The brush sets I have:

Glam her booth Gold/Black oval set £25

BH cosmetics rose gold brush set £32

Beauty Bay rose gold glam 18 piece set with stand £39

Morphe set 700 8 piece candy apple  £12


I only use 2-4 skin products on my face purely because I don’t have time for a breakout, the only time I break out is my womanly once a month twelve times a year where women get punished for not being pregnant unless you are🤷‍♀️ 

The Ordinary, cheap, affordable and helpful towards your skin, once you use them you won’t look back!


My mum went away and came back with this, Lucky enough I realised they sold it here in the UK, I’ve used this so many times whenever a spot appears and it literally washes off your spots or will smooth them down. This is a wash of face mask and not peel off I put it on and leave it on for hours because more time I’m not ready to wash it off yet or things get in the way, but my face feels smooth as a babies bum when it’s all washed off.

Babaria Mascarilla Negra Detoxifying facial £5.99


MY TEETH MY TEETH, I LOVE THEM! You only get one set of teeth, some of you really abuse your teeth by getting veneers at such young ages but whats my own, I love brushing my teeth and of course my tongue but I more time end up choking, these teeth whitening charcoal is just the greatest, I brush my teeth first with normal toothpaste normally just Colgate or Sensodyne and then I do my charcoal brush after I have a separate toothbrush for this, it was recommended and it was only 99p from Superdrug.

Activated charcoal whitening powder £9.95

Final words:

Finally, I’ve come to the end of another blog, hopefully, this is informative and it literally shows it’s not that expensive to have the best makeup or to look after your skin, beauty bay & fragrance direct are honestly my plugs for everything, please I even have beauty bay on WhatsApp so when anything drops I know about it straight away, if you find yourself obsessively ordering from beauty bay then get an account and join TRIBE for discounts and save points then use them to purchase something that tickles your fancy.

Every month I say I’m going to stop building my makeup so I can focus on other things that I want which I will but it’s so hard because I want everything on THAT FUCKING WEBSITE, do you see my problem? Real talk though 1/3/19 I’m going to stop buying makeup so I can refocus on buying shoes and clothes, this summer I wanna be on dRiP. 

Might even do a makeup giveaway soon.

I hope everyone that asks me questions day in day out finally has their answers to how I shop!

Any other questions, feel free to comment below or message me on either one of my platforms.

Until next time


No one knows me like myself, and I think it’s the right time to give my readers an insight into my life!


Some of you have been here since my very first blog post Men are trash?‘    and some of you are just starting this journey with me and Y’all I have TOPICS for 2019 so just make sure you stick around.

Before I get into anything can I repeat for the 1000th time I wasn’t born in London, I was born in Aylesbury, My mother and two brothers are all from west London ACTUALLY the whole of my mums side of the family is from West London, little ole me I’m Aylesbury born I’ve just grown up in between country life and city life and my mothers side is Grenadian.

My father now, bmt I’ve heard so many stories I don’t know what to believe anymore, Born in Guyana, moved to Nottingham to live with his father and then moved to London where he has resided for pretty much all of my life, Northwest repping, but my father is a very talented man in the music industry which has had opportunities to play shows around the Caribbean with his band, and has spent months out of the U.K while working and living his best life, my fathers side is Guyanese, Bajan and Jamaican.

When people ask me where I’m from I just say London because it’s easier than saying Aylesbury when I used to say Aylesbury I had to keep explaining where it was ” 45 minutes out of London, one hour tops if you drive slow, near Bicester Village, Milton Keynes” And after saying all of that I’d just be like “Aylesbury prison” Everyone knows that prison, such a shit reputation who wouldn’t honestly?

Being in between two places all the time I became very familiar with West London and Northwest London very quickly, my mother started letting me go London by myself from the age of 13/14, before anyone thinks (iRrESponSIble MoTHer) first of all NO, no she wasn’t, I have family in London so it was me more time to visit family, I always had my phone on me at all times, nothing ever went wrong, someone would always be at the other end to collect me, I’ve been using TFL I knew my way around, I wasn’t shy if I got lost I’d ask, and then when I got to around 15 I did whatever the fuck I wanted really, visited friends, family, found myself chilling around east London more and more, I used to be everywhere.


For my own sanity, I will not be revealing everything.

Let’s get into it…


For those of you that are my true supporters, I wrote a blog just over a year ago about ‘broken families  and it pretty much describes my life as a young human going through heartbreak at such a young age, everything in that blog is true, my heart still hurts till this day but I’m GROWN now. 


I had a ‘Stepdad’ introduced into my life so early, did I like it? No, absolutely not, no matter what my dad has done, he’s still my dad and no one else can replace that or even create a similar bond but that’s me, everyone is different I know some kids that call their stepdads ‘dad’ makes me feel a bit queezy but really what is my own, whenever someone asks ‘Do you have a stepdad?’ I kindly reply no and will replace it as ‘That’s my mum’s husband but not my dad’ I don’t know it makes me feel really ill, but some people don’t know any better for my new friends they’d ask and I nip it in the bud real quick, but for my friends that I’ve had for years they know what it is, they can tell the placebo from the real g, I even look like my dad as much as I hate to admit it I do.

I really grew to dislike to hate my dad real quick and if you read the broken families blog, you will be able to tell why very quickly, lies, fake promises I’ve had it all I’m now 20 now (21 soon come♥) We both don’t have a solid relationship as dad and daughter. I learnt roughly around the age of 10 that it wouldn’t happen, I’ve had siblings find me through facebook and tell me we’re related instead of my own father telling me, I found out around seven years old, I had an older sister and younger brother, I’m still shaking till this day.

On my mothers side of the family, I have 2 older brothers, these are the only siblings I’ve claimed from birth till now, ones 28 and the oldest 30, I can’t lie my brothers made my childhood despite the pain with everything else a blast, we had so much fun, being the youngest sibling and a girl it had its perks♦ We literally did everything together, when my oldest brother passed his driving test, we did trips upon trips, my other brother used to take me to house parties when I was like 8, take me to his basketball games, but please we can argue and sometimes me I LOVE a good argument, me and my middle brother used to argue all the time, maybe because we were both left-handed and used to sit right next to each other for dinner or maybe both petty, my oldest would never get involved, just turn off really but when my brothers used to argue, me and my mouth we’d be their front and centre ‘SHUTUP BOTH OF YOU’ I just hated unwaranteed noise and their arguements would be pointless. However my mum, my brothers and the rest of that side of the family no matter how much we argue they’re my anchors for real, me personally I would’ve had millions of breakdowns without them but like real g’s they’ve kept me afloat.


On my father’s side I have….wait for it…. 5 siblings, FIVE SIBLINGS, I knew about 3 of them, the other two the great creator of Facebook made a social site so it could glue people together, till this day the message I received on that site will shake my bones till death…I knew about 3 siblings but the only reason I claimed my brothers on my mum’s side so much is that they lived with me, I saw them day in day out, they were THERE, the others were there but not there, do you get it? Hopefully, Y’all do. There’s so much to this story but it wouldn’t sit easy for me being all over the internet when this isn’t anyone’s fault apart from my fathers, and my other 5 siblings I have love for them I really do, but it’s the way things came about which just startled me a lot, hopefully, one day we can have a bond. 


Apart from all that, my growing up was good, Y’all I was a girl youngest in charge I pretty much got everything I wanted, I had the bodyguards that protected me and till this day still do, look out for me, I had my mum who’s clothes was my tissues when I wanted to cry, this isn’t a fact but might as well be I think I cried so much when I was younger I have no tears left to cry in my older age, and it’s sad because sometimes I want to bawl out in tears but all I get is one tear drop…pftt…pathetic. 


Let me tell you, I was a good as gold in school, it was when I reached secondary school and college everything and I mean EVERYTHING went downhill, like in junior school I was a boffin like I remember one day I was riding to school and I got out of my street and my tire went FLAT, fam the way I was crying in the middle of the road because I was going to be late for school loooooool, I chucked the bike back in the shed like it wasn’t brand new, how can transport that I relied on to make me late, but secondary school was my prime time, so in my secondary school in each year there were 8 form classes one was called disc and the other shit side was called over, put the words together you’ll get discover, whewww clever. 

I was in S the best form ever so obviously in year 7 it’d be 7s, year 11 it’d be 11s and just to put it out there to any of my past school aquaintances disc was the best side of the year, you ‘over’ lot kiss my teeth, you lot didn’t know about trouble if it was spelt out. Personally, I loved school, I made some good 5-year friendships, and I said what I said some of you were just five-year friendships. My first day of year 7 was just uneasy I was in ‘over’ for two seconds before I transferred to disc I figured I didn’t want to learn French, didn’t want to learn Spanish either but it is what it is, I settled with Spanish, learnt about 6 words in two years was quite proud because I’m pretty sure I saw my Spanish supply teacher more in two years than my actual teacher, the poverty. 

Anyways my first school day was uneasy, those school kids that used to scowl at me like we went to school at the zoo, long story short I got bullied for like four weeks till my brothers found out, these man said they were going to the school, I was really calculating in my mind thinking you can’t actually do that, but the big mouth I had it stayed close my mind was shouting at me like ‘LET THEM DO THE TING’ Honestly I don’t even know how it stopped, but me and those man came friends and that’s when our form turned upside down, because we were all trouble, first day of year 7 I got slapped with anger management classes, did I go though? No, no I did not, it was in my time and not theirs and that can’t run.


Another thing that just made school uneasy was my form tutor, I had a dislike for teachers but my dislike for him, he was top of my list, you know those teachers that come to you about punctuality, this man could never in his wildest dreams come to me about lateness or anything, school is 5 days a week, how can you be late 5/5 days a week, not once but FIVE, EVERY FUCKINNNN DAY, it was very jarring on those winter mornings when all I wanted to do was put my bag down and go to assembly, do you know how awkward it’d look when other forms will come out of their classrooms going to assembly but my form were the ones still outside, and being in year 9 upwards being late for assembly would actually be a pisstake, would you get a seat in assembly or would you be stood up for twenty minutes while teachers just talk the most crap??? Some days our form tutor wouldn’t even come in, but we got ownage of the keys to our classroom, so pretty much every day we’d invite other forms in, my classroom looked like one tip after, I remember one guy jumped on the table and it snapped in half, we threw stuff up at the ceiling and the ceiling tiles would move, it’d just be bare gappy, like I mean sometimes he was their mostly he wasn’t, we’d just be dashed supply teachers, and then most of the girls in my form would be foaming at the mouths because apparently, our form teacher was ‘good looking’ I was the one who went Specsavers all the time and spent my pension in there yet I couldn’t establish what they were gawping at…


There were so many fights at school it felt like I went to Waterloo road 

“Meet me at the bus lanes, 3pm don’t be late”

This was one iconic sentence that went around, having your school outside bus lanes was superb, the worst place to have a fight but the best thing to say.

I think in my school everyone got away with so much by the regular shmegular teachers, but the heads of years, head teachers, heads of departments were not there to play, even the supply teachers thought they had a role, nah mate..stay in your lane

  • Teachers selling cigarettes to students
  • Teachers affairs revealed
  • Teachers having relationships with students
  • A teacher had an online sex journal, got discovered by a student
  • Test tubes going up vagina’s 
  • Teachers minding their business while a students face gets rearranged and looks like they need plastic surgery after
  • Teachers paying students to leave them alone

Where was I while this was going on? Oh me, I was doing what the teachers did during fights but me I was the student they…they were the teachers, the ones that have a duty of care over us.

Sigh I got into a lot of trouble over the years, my mother probably went to two of my parent evenings, my first one in year 7 and my last one in year 11, those letters were nowhere to be found, grab it, shred it, get rid of the evidence, but my mum was used to the trouble because my brothers went to the same school and caused more ruckus than me, most I did was push people down the stairs, trip them up and act like it wasn’t me, got people smacked up, just the usual, Facebook got me into the most trouble back in the day, I saw sirens at school because of Facebook, I had an assembly about me because of Facebook and a couple ratty snitches, but me the same mouth on socials is the same in a real life, no cap.


College was another ball game, I went to a college 1hr out of my area because I told the people in my area that five years was enough with them I don’t want to see them for another 2/3 years, I studied computer studies deep this I only had to go in for 2.5 days a week I went in for either 2 days a week or half a day, nothing more nothing less, I forgot that the tutors had my mum’s number and email address, Long story short they had my email after and number, no longer had my house number, mum’s number or email, sometimes the system wants to get rid of you before you even have a chance. I had my chance(s) but that’s not the point  (Mum if you’re reading this I’m sorry but whatever beatings you have after I’ve finished typing this, I’ll call childline) I didn’t like any of my tutors, I only liked 5 people in my class, but long story short I got a double distinction in my course and got kicked out of college on the last day, make it make sense.


Whewwww long story short I’m on my 7th job, I’ve been working since I turned 16 at one point I was working 3 jobs at once, I didn’t have a life, I’m very much money orientated everything I own I’ve bought myself, gadgets, electronics, clothes, shoes all me, I don’t rely on anyone well I try not too, independent living while still living at home, Issa thing.


When I turned 17 I decided to work in the care industry, back then I was so dumbfounded I thought it was good money, Y’all was I wrong its shit money for an industry that works incredibly hard, I was young I wanted money but most importantly I wanted the experience, five years down the line I’m still in care and I love it, no day is the same, but every day it’s new stress. 

In care work, there are different sectors to work in, I’ve worked in Learning disability, mental health, elderly and supported living, none are the same all different.

I’m still deeping this year September will be five years, I haven’t achieved what I’ve wanted out of this industry yet, but all I’m saying is I’m very close to the goal and when I get there I will honestly cry the happiest of tears. 

It’s an incredibly hard job or even career to some people, the laws you need to know, training, some cases common sense but common sense ain’t that common anymore, you can’t just work in care, you need a heart, an understanding of what you come to work to do every day, patience, I make it look easy because to me it is, been there, done that, but you never stop training or learning, no day is the same sometimes I wish but then I’d get bored.

In the new job I’m in now I work 37.5 hours a week, well that’s my contracted hours the most I’ve worked a week is 60 hours, let me tell you I was very much dead at the end of it, I either do dead on my hours or way over, no in between. 


I genuinely love making other people’s lives better and that’s why I do what I do, it really is the little things that make my clients happy, going out on their 1:1s, sitting down and talking with them, even the simple things in my job description, I’ve spent two Christmases at my jobs not because I don’t want to spend time with my family but not everyone has family, I know when I go home I’ll see my mum or I can ring a family member, not all my residents can do that, taking a few hours out of my day to make someone else’s holiday celebration special will always sit right with me.

If any of my readers decide they want to go into healthcare, one thing I’ll tell you now is look after your back, you might not understand this advice now but in the long run, you will. Look after your health because most employers do not care about you, they just care about you completing the task and moving onto the next one, I injured my back and was in the accident and emergency also took one week of off work because I was in excruciating pain, that was a few months ago and now again I’m back in the same position, you only get one back.

I’m leaving the care industry hopefully by next year and going into computing, been a true computer wizard since a kid, I’ve got my distinction I ain’t letting it go to waste, and there’s a lot of money to be made.



you thought.

Just know I’m very happy over here♥


I would say my friendship groups are all mix-up, I don’t chill with just one group, not one, not two but THOUSANDS.

Not literally thousands but I know a lot of people so I ain’t stuck for choice.

Sometimes I chill with just the mandem, sometimes just the girls or even a mixture, I don’t know I find I make friends really easily, I regret some friendships and five of them ended last year some long term some short term, I ain’t saying they were the problem, it was me too (more them) I’m glad I got rid when I did, because I really tried to help one of them and I’ve never felt so disrespected in my life, but karma hit them so quickly, the other four-man I don’t know, good riddance.

I can’t even say I’m not a nasty person because when I want to be I can be bitter, but when I want to be nice I can be super nice, but you really can’t tek mi fi ediaat…Impossible.

I’ve told people things I regret, I’ve said things, seen things about me as well, must admit that was quite interesting, you know when people talk about you, and you never knew that fact about yourself, it was a madness

Telling me you don’t care but want to do tappity tap on your keyboard about me…cute, nice to know you think about me.


Ask my friends about me, they’ll tell you I’m a top cunt, top fucker, I’ll tell you I’m coming somewhere then don’t go so unpredictable, but I give top notch advice because I don’t give a single fuck and have 0 filter (That’s what gets me in trouble), but Y’all I can be nice.


Whoever wants to get to know me cool, make up your own assumption about me, don’t let someone else’s opinion cloud your judgement, because then I’ll call you dumb by association.


Well, well…well, the only way you could’ve got here is through one of my social media accounts or if you’re a real g, you would’ve received an email because you’re subscribed.

The only social media platform I use religiously is Twitter, then snapchat, and then Instagram, I only use facebook to see what’s happening around my area or speak to my family and see what’s going on.

I’ve had my Twitter account for 8 years, I haven’t always been called ‘Baddest Teeks’ I had names like ‘simpletylife’ or ‘teeksxi’ I recently changed it to ‘Baddest Teeks’ three years or so ago, if you knew what I tweeted back in the day all those madness all those gifs Y’all know why it was ‘baddest’ at the start ‘Teeks’ just a nickname, my name holds weight I don’t care what anyone says, I was there back in the day.

I have an online mouth and real mouth, but buck me inna real life and touch me I’ll show you what I’ll be using your taxes on. 


I was thinking of rebranding but then I was thinking who am I doing this for, for me or Y’all, I remembered I don’t give one fuck about anyone on the internet that I don’t know, BLOCK, MUTE & UNFOLLOW BUTTON IS ACTIVE USE IT! 



This was meant to be really short yet here I am approaching nearly 4000 words, this is only a small insight into my life, but if you read this thinking it’s my whole life, you’re a dickhead for sure.

If I could start my life all over again would I? 100% I would not, I pray every night and I know God has a plan for me, I’m not in a rush to get there, God’s timing is everything and I respect it.

If my life was to start over, I probably wouldn’t be here blogging, I probably wouldn’t have met the people that I did, been in the career I’m in, be alive and breathing because who really knows, I’m forever grateful and thankful I wake up every day.

Probably started my online presence wrong, but I sweaterrrrr gawddd man I don’t care, it gets me where I want to be for now, and who knows it could get me further one day.

I’ve got so many goals that I need to reach before 2019 ends, I’m completing every single one, nothings getting left behind. 



Anyways 2019 I’m really living my best fuckinnnnn life, turning 21 (March 10th), flying out to Zante for ten days in June, Getting my 4th tattoo on my back, 9 days before my 21st (Pray for me bmt) Getting my 5th tattoo under my collarbone in April (Pray again x2), going to take lots of small trips around Europe, I’m just overly excited about everything.

2019 we move.

Teeks X



*There are videos/memes in this page I apologise if you don’t see them, but I will post all videos in a thread below this post on Twitter unless you’re using a laptop they’ll 100% show up*


I am not here to draw anyone out, but if worse comes to worst then that’s your personal problem💖

The time has come for the Twitter 2018 breakdown, from what’s happened in January straight through to December and it’s been one hell of a year, personally, I haven’t seen anything like it since 2012/2013 days I was there live in the flesh on Twitter watching shots fly, anyone could get it even the people in your bio that was dead or in prison, ‘SK’s world♥’I was seeing things fly around and you don’t even have to be involved ANYONE can get it, back then you could say anything (no cap) and Twitter HQ would be like ” yeah we’ll let that fly” minus the Twitter Purge, because??? WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT? but now we in 2018 yoooo accounts were getting locked off left, right and centre, it was a tragic few days on the timeline, saw some of my favourite accounts disperse, saw them come back to stay for a few hours and back in twitter jail they went, whewwww chile the ghetto. 

Hope Y’all have popcorn, dabble of wray & nephews, a fat blunt and ready to ride out.



In January we had an internet sensation pop up on our timeline ‘Nusret Gökçe’ also known as salt bae, who knew to flick your wrist with salt in your hand over a piece of meat could really make you a viral sensation.


To me, January was a very boring month seeing that same video circulate day in day out, we really do make useless people famous, if someone told me that all I had to do was sprinkle salt over the meat and let the video marinate for a few days and I’ll wake up to 5.6 million views, a better life and Elizabeth doing stupidness in my bank account, I would’ve gone viral years ago (sigh I lied).


But to be honest I only heard about him this year…




On February 9th, Nike released their iconic advert ‘Nothing beats a Londoner’ in my opinion that advert was the best advert to represent London, culture on point, representation has gone clear, credible UK music personalities, sports features, a 3-minute film caught everything.

The campaign supports young unknown sports wannabe’s picked from local sports and clubs and shows us the trails they’re going through to get to where they want to be.

There are a few unknown faces that were shown for example @Boss_Darnz was selected in the advert as Nike noticed his ‘analytics’ around his social media profiles.

Even though his time on screen was limited, he still managed to have his face up in the Nike flagship store on Oxford Street and let me tell you that’s a big achievement, to have your face in the biggest Nike store in the world.

I’m telling y’all now, your Twitter analytics matter, your social presence matters, if you want something bad enough you’ll either get noticed or you’ll go and grab the opportunity yourself.

Celebrity Features: 

Gareth Southgate 

Harry Kane 

Eden Hazard 


Micheal Dapaah 

Rio Ferdinand

Mo Farah

Alex Iwobi

Kurupt FM


J-Hus (3 my guy♥)

Jorja Smith


AJ Tracey 

+ many more

Can we just deep for a minute that in a 3-minute 9-second advert, there were over 30+ known faces, 14 different locations across London , 258 athletes, a few unknown kids striving for their dream all filmed, edited, music added in such a short space of time, but let’s not forget we got the few odd cry babies that screamed and shouted that the video wasn’t diverse enough, from what I saw a lot of Asians blamed the black community for the lack of diversity as if we were the ones that created the campaign, weird flex but ok. 

“It seems like people are either black or white in London” tweeted by @KalpeshR 

Honestly, who did you want to be added into the advert? Steel Banglez? Jay Sean? 

Whewwwww chile this day you really saw people’s internalised racism jump the fuck out like a clown, once it was out there was really no putting it back, some of you were going back and forth like feral animals, anyways what’s my own.

February 21st (BRIT AWARDS) The only person I rewinded, played and repeated was Stormzy’s performance, fuck the rest of Y’all, STORMZY used his performance for the better, called out Theresa May out over the Grenfell Tower monstrosity, the same pRiMe mInIsTeR promising all these promises on Brexit is the same prime minister that said people in Grenfell will be rehoused before Christmas 2017, when I say Brexit is fucked it’s FUCKED. Stormzy’s exact sentences sent shivers down my spine, the vim in his voice, integrity in his face, yoooo my man said “Yo Theresa May, where’s the money for Grenfell, what? You just thought we forgot about Grenfell’ The support he got from what he said was immense, properly warmed my heart♥


If you still don’t know about Grenfell, Please click here.

This is where everything gets extra juicy…


Leicester, Leicester…LEICESTER

Well well well, March the best month of the year because it’s my birthday month, but this year it was literally the shittest, thank you poobae wherever you are, THANKS! Shitting on someone’s doorstep is beyond me, but actually pushing your trousers down to show your bum, squat and then shit on someone’s doorstep, that’s just all a bit of a sickness within itself, and it didn’t even look like normal shit, some of you university students eat normally, cooked food all the time, and then we get those slobs that go to the half-price man for pizza every day, the poo actually looked like vomit.


The year really starts here for the TL, because Y’all really started this off, all I wanna know is, who is POOBAE? Deep it! That is someone’s friend, maybe even someone’s misses, someone’s daughter, niece even and that is what you’re doing in the jungle of Leicester, the city where someone’s friends, friend knows someone that knows YOU! Whewww how embarrassing not that embarrassing cause apparently no one knows the culprit, bet someone who’s reading this does though.


Poobae literally had zero shame, like in a lit up corridor, like…like? How were you not scared that anyone would’ve walked past? How did you not know that my guy’s house doorstep you shitted on that he wasn’t going to come out all within those 2 minutes? Why didn’t you think in your useless mind that their might be cameras about? Why didn’t you think that this could make you viral without you actually going viral because clearly, no one knows who this girl is, sigh one day the truth will come out. 


And Leicester again, every time I hear about Leicester (Jungle) it’s never anything good, a video always comes out, a fight is always happening, a lot of the motives get locked off and then I see the same continuous people tweet it’s going to be ‘LoCk3d off.


Whoever knows the person, when your ready let us US as in everyone, who that was, cause wheww Leicester stinks but 10X more now, that there’s shit down the corridors.

Also just because you live in ‘eXPenSiVE’ accommodation doesn’t mean this can’t happen to you (oooo is that shade) IMO 

For those that have seen the video, shall we have catchup to the feral animal that strolls around campus…

For those that haven’t seen the video here you go: 


How can you continue living happily, knowing you pooed on my man’s doorstep, what a terrible some girls are mad, but this just topped everything! Man do you lot not know CCTV exists or? This girl has gone into hiding just like Madeline Mccann and I want them both to come out now, man I’m tired.

Please if you’ve never heard of Madeline Mccann, then bmt idk for you, but divert your energy here, if you’d like to know if not continue to scroll big man.

The fact that #poobae became a hashtag will forever make me laugh, I’m taking this one to the grave with me.


The way I wish this month in 2018 never existed, not even this month just this person, of course, the whole TL must’ve seen Biskit whine upon his mother, his mumzy, his Marj, the woman that gave birth to him, sigh I wanted to rinse my eyes out with goose fat and make myself blinder than I am. Fammmm I could NOT believe my eyes, his mum must’ve been topic of WhatsApp group chat for weeks on end, never my yout, please. Omds let’s even watch the video again, please no one bring any more stupidness like this because brudda this isn’t it.


Please I’ll never forget the fraud he did, even shit fraud, I know him and Micheal (Fake Jamaican) Modern are related, both nigga’s got caught, absolute tomfoolery.

One got caught in his tracks to Paris, the man was queuing up to get checked in, what an L


And the other one got caught out on Linkedin, sigh 


April really fucked up the drinks market in the UK, SUGAR TAX ON DRINK? I absolutely knew the UK was fucked as soon as my head came out the womb, but it’s gone way past that, dealing with Brexit, there’s even a playlist for Brexit on Spotify called ‘NOW! That’s what I call Brexit’ that’s just how you know no one in England is serious because even I have the playlist, it’s good to cry too when you don’t know what outcome your country is going to, Y’all cry over men and women, I cry because fredo’s went from 5p to 30p just by me blinking, also crying because Fredo probably stacked up enough 30p’s to use Harrods as a corner shop. 


My corner shop is Sainsbury’s, soon level up to Waitrose though, God has got me.

I must also remind you that Jamie Oliver and his MP mates implemented sugar tax and Jamie Oliver and his fat self really fass up his self and created ‘jERk rICe’ I’m Caribbean and I’ve never in my life heard of Jerk rice in my entire life, been to the islands plenty of times never seen it on one menu, it’s not my culture he’s appropriating, stick to your bangers and mash, better yet drag your restaurants out of debt, small man like Jamie trying to be a big fish in a small pond, relocate.


I was shleep in this month.


June really was THE month, World Cup and Love island all on for over a month, the switch over was timeless, from both aspects the TL moved with the times, love island brought together black twitter and fiat 500 twitter, probably the only time in the year the two got along, personally me I didn’t watch island heavily this year I watched the first two episodes and I really thought everyone was boring, if it was the 2017 love island lot on the 2018 episode it would’ve made more sense, but sigh instead of Kem and Chris we got josh, jack and dem man deya, they didn’t bring many thrills but you didn’t even need to watch to know what was going on, the tweets made it pretty clear I was tweeting like I was fully watching it, nah please I watched a few of the World Cup matches, I even tweeted about the World Cup like I watch football religiously I stopped watching football when I was like 13, since my team hasn’t won anything what’s the fucking point honestly. 


2022 we go again. 

June even brought the heatwave, the heatwave that nearly killed us all, the heatwave that made you bitches so damn unappreciative, you lot were really saying ‘cAn’T wAiT tiLl wIntEr’ and look now winter is here you’re reversing it and saying ‘sUmMeR 2019 I’M rEadY’ Carnival 2018 was still lit but it made me want to cry because rain for fuck sake FOR FUCK SAKE I wear glasses uno I couldn’t see for most of the day, central line I almost died, central line is the worst line, next year I’m getting a hotel because I’ve had enough. 

Carnival yeah I got so high on Monday I walked from Nottinghill to Kilburn, WALKED.

I only realised because I noticed some places and I was thinking Nah man I actually didn’t walk that far, Y’ALL I checked my map I was in Kilburn, I was really burning. 


47 MINUTES? YO 2019 carnival let me just stay sober on all accounts.



Imagine if I drank alcohol on that day too, I would’ve flown there. 

‘BaLi i$ bA!T’ bmt idk how the TL got to this stage but apparently Bali is a bait location, you’re telling me a 20hr trip is bait, some of you think you’re so well known, you’re not, you probably saw a couple man/girls you follow and now calling it a bait location, you know what locations are bait, London, Birmingham, Leicester these trips are a few hours for some of us, but somewhere across the flipping map is bAiT, weirdos. 


There are bigger issues to worry about like 14th June 2018, one year on from Grenfell, I’m not even going to talk too much on this situation because it’s way too close to my heart, click here if you don’t know about Grenfell yet, but remember what Theresa May said, that everyone would be rehoused by Christmas in 2017, we’re now at the end of 2018 and that promise still hasn’t been granted, it actually makes me sick, all the people that claimed they lived in Grenfell and didn’t, they frauded the whole system out of so much money, I hope they go to hell. 



I don’t know what happened in this month uno, I was shleepin


August = A-level results day, my number one favourite month of the year, because honestly, I love seeing people doing well! 

I played my own trick on the TL as well, and some of you that shouldn’t have believed it did, which made me laugh harder than I already was, for those of you that don’t know I pretended for about two years that I went to DMU Leicester, it wasn’t just something I thought of a lot of people used to tell me they saw me on campus which was never true because I’ve never been Leicester in my life, so I decided to go along with it as well so I did the usual of putting LDN🔀DMU in my bio and told everyone I lived in a certain accommodation, I didn’t even tweet much about Leicester, let me drop what I did on the TL below & don’t forget to zoom in. 


Anyways besides from that, the A-Level results I was seeing was ridiculous and then of course in true TL style Brompton Manor one of the top 6 academies in the country came and shelled down the TL, these lot are ridiculously talented and so so smart, sometimes I wish I was that academically talented but it is what it is, these lot truly deserve it. 

Hmmm what else happened in August of course carnival I mentioned it in the previous month, the usual Caribbean vs Africans, the usual cuss of soca, the usual ‘wHy cAn’t aFrObEaTS bE pLaYed’ the usual Caribbean people have no culture, yet it’s our street party you want to attend, Issa bit of a sticky one still, the usual bottom barrel men that can’t understand a whine is just a whine, we don’t want anything else, the usual you girls wear barely any clothes to carnival so you’ll get touched anyhow, yuck, the usual ‘cArnivAl iS geTtIng lOcked OfF’ every fucking year you lot come out with the same line, shut up man, anyways the usual…I think you lot get it now. 

August what a month. 


Santoriniiiiiii bludclaaaat every day of September why were we seeing the same white walls, day in day out, white walls and calling Santorini bAiT aswell, honestly can you lot not just travel without saying ‘ I don’t want to go there because bare man have been’ anddd? Stay in miserable England then.


 The topic of the TL on one certain day of September was just mad ‘Men paying for their girlfriends friends drinks on a night out’ I’m convinced some of your friends are broké, you want your man to buy your friends drinks and then the same you would probably be upset when you find out your man has cheated on you with one of your girls, like does your friends not work??? And you girls that go around clubs table hopping for alcohol are bottom barrel that’s so embarrassing, call me ‘pick me’ all you want, I cannot deal with broke behaviour, if you can’t afford something stay home, that’s what I do, I stay home more time I just don’t want to go, I just found the whole topic sad man, I just couldn’t, leaving your house without money and depending on other people absolutely not, there’s so much money to make and you’re out here damaging other people’s pockets for your benefit, yuck man.



October was the month of just giving people clout for free by doing stupid things, fraudbae, loz and Ferdi all in one month, I low-key cried, everyone, deserves their bag but not this way, the only person that deserved their bag was OSH, my guy kept his energy throughout, loz Jesus you could tell she was getting tired from when she appeared on the radio and all the other daytime tv programmes, her voice, tone, melodies none of it was reciprocated after her Instagram video, like it was a bop like 10 times in a row, Ferdi yeah idk how he got a music video it literally makes 0 sense, but I blame you lot because I definitely didn’t entertain him, and MR fraudbae he milked it, man tried to make us believe he got signed to a record label??? He can’t even sing that was autotuned and self-belief, you lot changed your minds with him so quickly when it all came out you were backing the girl, then the girl got the video taken off of YouTube all of a sudden she was doing too much, LeT tHe mAn liVe ah Y’all really do like your agenda. 

I sharkew on the beat as well





I would put a video of Ferdi but that guy doesn’t need anymore clout, I’VE HAD ENOUGH!

Y’all can have a picture though 


This is the man you gassed up, loooool deekheads.


If y’all didn’t hear ‘imjustbait’ got his account locked off, I was screaminnnnnn one guy got his account locked off for copyright, some of you was crying like his bag is yours, some of y’all aka me showed no remorse, man does copyright every day and we’re meant to be okay with that, nah g 



Let me be real I  wasn’t really active during these months, no matter what my screen time said, Apple needs to remove that feature because it makes me seem like an addict when that ain’t it.


Besides that the arguments, I’ve seen from these two months, fuck the rest of the year these LAST TWO MONTHS, oh my God, when I ain’t tweeting I’m watching, I’m watching hard because Ion need to tweet every gaddamn day, and the way you can get involved in crossfire on Twitter, I’ve had my fair share this year, we go again next year!

APPARENTLY, people have been sleeping on floors at parties? 

£30 on food for a month? That’s your own

Y’all bringing the same retired topics to the TL, can girls and guys be just friends? Keep ya dick in ya pants, and keep the flirting at 0 then you can one hunna be friends.

I saw friendships go to shit in a matter of tweets

Y’all have an opinion then put unpopular in front of it, have your opinion and move brudda, the only thing that’s unpopular is you

People bringing their personal issues to the TL then cry when everyone gets involved? Common sense where hoe??

Black Twitter arguing all year ALL YEAR EVERYDAY, then asking each other ‘wHaT ParTY iSlAnd i$ EveRYoNe g0inG T0o’ 


Screaming support black businesses yet you ask your mates for a discount, where’s the logic? 


Following people but not liking them or what they tweet?


I’ve seen a lot of bitterness this year, you want people to be successful but not ‘that’ successful

You flipping weirdo’s keep meeting people at events and want to come to the timeline and be like ‘Twitter do your thing’ why couldn’t you do your thing and secure the number while you were with them? Must we do everything!

Thanking brands when you bought their items with your own money?? Ok

Hating people that do fraud, yet you want half price dominoes, half price Canada goose?

Still wondering what doctor would call you and let you know you’re terminally ill?

Comparing spacnation to Greenleaf and wondering how they haven’t ended up on panorama?

Y’ALL Y’all Y’all, Sunday 23rd December, from midnight straight through till 7am the TL was popping so badly we were trending! Normally on nights like these, I would’ve been asleep but clever me must’ve predicted the future because I was really doing a night shift at work, so my phone was with me 24s! I saw everything from the Instagram lives to snapchat maps to look at Shoreditch back to twitter for the roundups, the tweets from everyone was HE-LARI-OUS, you see how people were saying earlier on in the year ‘yOu mAndEm aIn’T 3vEn fUnny l!kE that’ vice Versa for the girls, EVERYONE was funny, like at one point I was so close to wetting myself but I managed to get to the toilet just in time, Ivorian doll vs Renee, you see me I was on Renee side the whole time, because my girl was on crud, from when I saw my girl tying her shoes on Instagram live at like 2am in the morning, I knew she was ready to ride out, she was in the Uber-like 5 mins later, the whole time I was watching I was like ‘shit den’ she went from wherever she was to Shoreditch, girl offed her wig shouting ‘VANESSA WHERE ARE YEWWW’ I felt the integrity through my screen, my phone was even shaking probably my hands but whatever! I even saw man in the snapchats saying ‘she actually came’ huh? Keep up, it was definitely a dat ting when I saw people driving to Shoreditch just to witness beef, pls if I wasn’t at work I would’ve been onsight tew, Renee actually went out in the winter from what I saw a top on, even offed her wig from then I was like SHIT THIS IS SARIOUSSSSS STUFF, but quick question, where was the culprit once she got to said location???? Obviously now she wasn’t there, so next thing I saw R was in her next Uber to her estate, banging down doors that’s how real opps ride out when I saw she got into the flat LOOOOOOOOL, curtains but was my man there? No, sigh

One thing I don’t get is, Vanessa, put her address on snapchat and wasn’t expecting anyone to go to her, like? Make it make sense, not even your address your parents address, you see those mad antics there could never be me, first of all, I don’t fight, second of all I would’ve cleared out my bank account and gave Renee all my p’s because??? I ain’t trying to look in the mirror every day to see my ears where my mouth is, my mouth where my nose it, listen NO TENK YOU, God made me this way I ain’t trying to go through plastic surgery to correct it all

‘y0u dOn’t KnOw wHeRe I cAme FroM’ now the whole of snap, insta, twitter maybe even the Facebook oldies do too hun, I’d be so pissed spending all that time doing up Uber for you not to be found. 

And you Instagram mongrels we saw you making accounts to join in with us, you ain’t one of us, you’re not one of us, stay on Instagram and laugh 

Video Graphical Evidence my favourite

None of the videos is in order and frankly, I really don’t care.

Renee abeg if you want me to delete this @ me on a friendly ting, cause I’m even shaking typing this.


This is really the December breakdown, including Ramz who caught a stray bullet I don’t know how, but let my guy secure his bag, one musician that hasn’t bothered anyone and you lot were talking about exposing sex tape if my man is gay, what’s your own? If he’s not that still ain’t our business, you people that create accounts just to draw someone out are dun out ere, it’s a sickness.


*Small little update, but apparently a few men on the TL like their asses nyamed out and licked like a chicken bone, one little bird told me Omar likes it👀 each to their own to be honest, getting shitfaced in their own time👅*


One certain platform has been dropping me TEA, Y’all it was piping hot!


I’m only mentioning the TOP 11

  • POOBAE: Leicester Epidemic 
  • £380
  • Fraud Bae (New Money Records) LOOOOOL
  • Oloni triggered by under 25 Twitter with the Black Twitter edition video
  • Rentbae
  • London to Manny
  • Radar Radio 
  • Nunu vs Esther
  • 72 Hour Twitter argument 
  • Visabae
  • Renee Vs Vanessa

I’m finally at the end of my last blog of 2018, I’m not sure what you lot was expecting a draw out? Nah I’m good luv enjoy! 


This was never meant to be a draw out thing, but yooo Y’all wanted a Christmas day throwdown hopefully you’ve got it

2018 has been more negative for me than positive but I’m ready to spin that around and leave it all behind, and hopefully, Y’all can spin your negatives around as well , I’ve seen things about me on Twitter of course I have but more time I really don’t care what you nobodies have to say, I ‘ve seen disgusting comments from my so-called ex-friends and I wish y’all the best with that attitude, people always think they know you, no one knows me other than me and I learn things about me every day, besides you spiteful hoes, I’ve had a lot of mental breakdowns but I haven’t had one for nearly a month I’m kinda weirded out by it but also thankful to the most high up.


If you follow me, I was going to quit blogging altogether at one stage but it’s one of the only things I’m good at apart from triggering the TL, you see me I’m sticking at it because in January ‘Teekstheblogger’ is three years old, I’m thankful for the hate because it can only make me stronger, the hate I got just because I was writing this was eye-opening got called jobless and all sorts but it was my career that made me late writing this, ok thanks.

I’ve got so many goals to reach next year and I’m reaching them all in Jesus name, after each goal I complete I’ll be poppin borrels, some people like to talk about their goals, me? No thanks, the evil eye is so real and I’ve never seen so much evil eye until this year, but you’ll know when I’ve completed them, just keep an eye out if you’re interested.


The biggest thanks I have to give is to the people who continue to support me, gives me ideas on what to write, engages with my polls on social media, the constant pushes I get to continue what I do, I’ve reached statistics I never knew a person like me would reach, literally from the bottom of my heart my thanks and love will always be there and I’ll never forget who’s supported me♦



2019 really smells like money, there’s so much money to be made it’s ridiculous one day I want to be making stupid money but until then I’ll be doing laps for Lizzy until she chases me.


Personally, I think 2019 will be a huge year for us all on here, believe in your dream and work for it.

Culture Shifting


Making the impossible possible

We going harder next year!

2019, we move.

Teeks x


Breast Cancer Awareness.


The tenth month of the year has flown around ever so quickly, and October is Breast Cancer Awareness month here in the UK (Wear Pink) 

The pink ribbon is an international ribbon which symbolises Breast Cancer and also identifies the wearers and promoters of the breast cancer brand.

This topic is so evidently important and I’m so for spreading awareness on as many topics as I can and this one really stood out, as Cancer can really attack or take anyone in the blink of an eye but besides from that, in my opinion, it’s a really interesting topic, I would love to talk about all types of cancer and one day I really will, but for now I’ll stick with Breast Cancer.

Breast Cancer is the most common type of cancer in the UK, most women can get breast cancer over the age of 50, but some younger women can receive it as well, but men beware you can also get it too, increasingly rare disease, less than 1%  (2,550) of men in the UK are expected to be diagnosed in the UK, also for men the lifetime risk of being diagnosed is 1 in 1000.  Men can form breast cancer in the small amount of breast tissue behind their nipple, it usually occurs in men over sixty but can occur in an earlier period of life.

From the 2016 UK census, it was revealed 65.64 million people lived in the UK, yet 32 million of them are men, considering statistics men receiving breast cancer is extremely rare, but rare doesn’t mean it’s impossible.

However, the 2016 census reveals there are 33 million women in the UK, which there are 1.68 million in the UK alone diagnosed with breast cancer.

Only 2,100 men are diagnosed with breast cancer in the USA each year, with a population of 325.7 million, comparing these figures it’s a very slim amount although it doesn’t mean it’s impossible.

About 1 in 8 U.S. women will develop invasive breast cancer over the course of her lifetime. In 2018, an estimated 266,120 new cases of invasive breast cancer are expected to be diagnosed in women in the U.S

1 in 8 women are diagnosed with breast cancer in their lifetime, it’s curable if it’s detected early. 

Please, Please Ladies and Gentlemen please check your breasts, anything that is a red flag then I urge you to get seen by a health specialist at your earliest convenience, it could save your life. 

For those of you who don’t know the sign or symptoms carry on reading, save your life or even someone else’s.

Symptoms of men’s breast cancer:

  • A lump in the breast, normally hard, doesn’t move and painless 
  • Inverted Nipple
  • Nipple Discharge could be blood
  • A sore or rash around the nipple that doesn’t go away
  • Swollen glands 
  • Feeling tired all the time
  • Itchy skin with yellowing of the skin and eyes (Jaundice)


Symptoms of women’s breast cancer:

  • A new lump or thickened tissue that wasn’t there before
  • Change of breast sizes in one or two breasts
  • Bloodstained discharge
  • Lump or swelling in your armpits
  • Dimpling on the skin of breasts
  • Rash around the nipple


Men and women’s symptoms are fairly similar, unlike women, men tend to delay going to the GP, by that time cancer could’ve spread. 

Health is not valued, till sickness comes

Woman cancer survival rate:

Stage zero: Cancer has been diagnosed early. (100% survival rate)

Stage one: Stage one is highly treatable, however, it needs immediate attention, typically surgery or radiation or in some cases both. (100% survival rate)

Stage two: Stage two means it’s growing however it’s still contained in the breast or the growth has extended to the nearby lymph nodes, stage two is normally divided by 2a & 2b, the difference is determined by the growth of a tumour and if it’s extended to the lymph nodes. (93% survival rate)

Stage Three: Cancer has not spread to bones or organs, but it’s seen as advanced (72% survival rate)

Stage Three A: Cancer has been found in up to nine of the lymph nodes. 


Stage Three B: Tumor has spread into the chest wall and skin.

Stage Three C: Cancer has been found in up to ten lymph nodes above or below your collarbone.

Stage Four: Breast cancer cells have spread beyond the breast and lymph nodes, most common sites are in the liver, lungs and brain. (22% survival rate)

The five-year survival rate shows you can live on much longer depending on how early you get it diagnosed, it all depends on the stage of diagnosis.

The staging process is exactly the same in men and women except the men’s survival rate is five years higher than women.


The causes of cancer are not fully understood, nowadays the media, health professionalists will drill into your mind that anything can cause cancer, for example, eating bacon can now increase breast cancer, pollution can cause cancer, this world is so toxic finding purity is a journey within itself.

However, there are risk factors known to affect your likelihood of developing breast cancer, some of these things you, unfortunately, can’t change, for example, age, our ages change every year and we change every day, our bodies never stop working it’s a 24/7 system no days off, all women between the ages of 50-70 should be screened every three years with the NHS screening program. Women over 70 are still eligible and should arrange an appointment through their GP.

If you’ve had close relatives (Mother, sister) that have had breast cancer or ovarian cancer, and were both under the age of 50, you may be eligible to receive screening as you’ll be at a high risk.

If you’ve previously had breast cancer or invasive cancer cells, you have a higher risk of developing it again either in your opposite breast or the same one.

The female hormone oestrogen can sometimes stimulate breast cancer cells to grow.

Research has shown that women who use the contraceptive pill have a slightly increased risk of developing breast cancer, however, the risk will decrease once you stop taking the pill and will go back to normal ten years after you stop.

Being overweight or obese can also increase the risk of having breast cancer when you start menopause the amount of oestrogen in your body can increase.

Drinking alcohol can increase with the amount of alcohol you drink per day, research shows that for every 200 women who drink 2 glasses of alcoholic beverage per day, there are three more women with breast cancer compared with women who don’t drink at all.

And lastly, radiation some surgical appliances can cause an increase in breast cancer, Ladies may I urge you to stop putting your phone in your bra, I agree it’s extremely comfortable, but the amount of heat your phone gives off is disgusting, and also don’t put your phones under your pillows while you sleep, it’s so incredibly dangerous.

Take care of your body, it’s the only place you have to live in

Main Treatments for breast cancer:

  • Surgery
  • Radiotherapy
  • Chemotherapy
  • Hormone Therapy
  • Biological Therapy

You could have a combination of treatments depending on what stage you are at within cancer.

Personally, I’ve had breast cancer scares, where I’d feel my breasts and would find a lump, thankfully I never had it, my beast lump was called benign which is a non-cancerous lump, mine was pretty big which was why it scared me and it was also painful, I got put on antibiotics and it went down, I got told that if the lump didn’t decrease I would have to have the lump drained which meant small surgery which I was not here for at all, I don’t like needles, I don’t like going under general anaesthesia, but of course if it was about to save my life I would just have too.


  • Over 99% of new cases of breast cancer are in women
  • More than over 80% of breast cancer occurs in women over 50
  • Around 5% of breast cancer is inherited by a faulty gene called BRCA1 or BRCA2
  • One person is diagnosed every 10 minutes
  • 1 in 8 women will be diagnosed in their lifetime
  • within breast cancer awareness month, around 5000 people will be diagnosed
  • Breast cancer survival is improving 
  • Almost 9 in 10 women survive breast cancer for five years or more 
  • Every year around 11,500 die from breast cancer
  • Around 2,200 women aged 39 or below are diagnosed with breast cancer
  • Breast cancer in men is very rare with around 370 new cases each year
  • A predicted 691,000 are alive in the UK after a diagnosis, this is predicted to reach 840,000 in 2020

There’s so much more to learn about breast cancer and I advise you to keep learning about this topic, I have a lot to say on cancer and I will write about that another day, don’t care about breast cancer for one month care about it all year round, awareness months are great and all but people tend to care for a few days then forget, I love people who spread awareness all year round, donate and continue to be educated.

Breast cancer or any type of cancer diagnosis is a lot to take in, I pray for anyone who is reading this blog that no one ever receives Cancer but we also need to remember that this is reality and cancer can really take anyone, but I believe in my heart that anyone who can find strength can fight it off.

To my fighters keep on fighting, use every ounce of strength you have, you will make it, fight cancer, don’t let cancer beat you.

To my survivors, praise to you and the most high up!

⇒ Nothing is impossible, the word itself says I’m possible⇐


Teeks X